Unable to admit what I truly want?

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I thought I was doing a bit better until I woke up panicking and out of breath, then I got to thinking and I realize that I simply can not admit what I truly want out of life. Deep down I think I know, but I can NEVER discuss it with other people and well, that 100% insures I'll never achieve it.

I was going to type a lot more in this post, but now I really don't want to because I realize how bleak and pointless this all is, I'm just wondering if anyone else has trouble admitting or asking for what they truly want. I'll bet a lot of people here do, but I also think that no matter how many people do, it's not going to help. I don't know why I bothered posting this, but there it is.

[QuietCalamity]

Why can't you discuss it with other people?

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Why can't you discuss it with other people?

I'm not really sure, every time I try I just get nervous, start to panic and I end up not saying anything. There isn't a single person on the planet that I feel comfortable enough around to even have a simple conversation with, let alone discuss my true feelings.