Hi,
I came here after the anxietyspace tumblr liked one of my posts on how my day had been shattered by anxiety. So I decided to come along and see this place for myself.
I've struggled with depression for most of my life and for the last few years have just been "getting on with things", I wouldn't have said I was happy but at the same time wouldn't have called myself depressed. So I got no help, had no medication and just coasted along.
The anxiety hit hard around two months ago. I don't really want to talk about what happened but it was traumatic for me. I was vomiting regularly and at one point didn't eat for two days, I was constantly trembling and my mind was in tatters, even flickering onto the thought of suicide a couple of times in those days.
It's calmed down a lot since then (and I'm no longer a danger to myself) however I've been left with an almost constant feeling of apprehension, a tension in my stomach and mind that I just can't shake and intrusive thoughts that blur my concentration most of the time. I have gotten help, I am awaiting appointments for Psychotherapy and Occupational Therapy and I've also been on Citalopram for just over a month.
I suppose what I'm looking for here is just... Clarification I guess. Or maybe understanding is a better word. I've diagnosed myself with GAD. I've been reading about the symptoms online and some of them ring true on me for years but I've never considered it to be unusual or a problem until they became as extreme as they are now. I have spoken to my doctor and had a therapist assess me but at no point did they use the term 'anxiety disorder' however they did nod in approval (maybe agreement?) when I used the term.
I think I just want someone to tell me I'm right, that what I'm feeling is real, that this constant dread (for sometimes no reason) isn't just all in my head (well it IS but you know what I mean). That I'm not crazy and I'm not on my own.
Sorry for the rambling, I've had another bad day.
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I hope the "like" didn't come across the wrong way... It wasn't "oh, she's having a bad day.. *like*", but a "I understand that feeling... ". 
. You're definitely not alone here. We can all relate on some level here at Anxiety Space. I hope you have some success with your future therapy and meds. You'll have to let us know how it goes for you. I think I was on Citalopram once but it was only for a couple of weeks or so.
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