Still refusing the meds...I can beat this. It's just rough right now. And there's actually quite a bit of positive to focus on now. Why do I find it so hard to do that? Everyone makes it look so easy.
Still refusing the meds...I can beat this. It's just rough right now. And there's actually quite a bit of positive to focus on now. Why do I find it so hard to do that? Everyone makes it look so easy.
I think that kinda stuff constantly about people both online and off. They really hate me though, right? They definitely secretly can't stand me at all and I annoy everyone I come into contact with to a ridiculous degree. I may even be breaking some sort of annoyance record by opening my mouth about anything. >.<
Die, negative thoughts!
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Don't mean to piggyback off above the posts but I know the exact feels . It's REALLY hard for me to trust people and when people do get close too me, I constantly find ways and excuses too kick them out of my life...what an awful coping mechanism.
So I haven't been around here in a while, but I can't help but fall back after nights like these. I dreamt of my ex girlfriend again, which is weird because I've not had a thought about her in a long time. This time it feels like it went on the whole night. I don't remember a whole lot but it was enough to wake me up sweating and shaking.
I went to her house, had fun for a while, then the "other" boyfriend shows up and I start snooping around their backs. What really killed me was that right before I actually woke up, I was staring out of her kitchen window and it was snowing and just beautiful. I remember looking out of that window so well right now...
I just hurt the one person I tried to never hurt. I lost control again, and I do stupid shit.
I just wanted to go back to how things were once I realized how much I'd hurt him. I just wanted to end it all, to stop things like this from ever happening again.
Because try and try and try as might, I can never get it all under control
Bipolar. [BEEP] you. I fucking hate you.
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......
Myself. Been really struggling with depression the past couple of days
Trying to remind myself to breath through it and that I will be hopefully leaving the country in 6 months
life---> <---me
People can be very tasteless at times... it speaks volumes.
Parents make me want to rip my hair out.
I've been really down since the temp went up to 90. Being unable to get comfortable makes me feel so helpless. It sucks because this is the weather everyone else loves. I hate the way I get sad whenever everyone else gets happy, and vice versa
Struggling with very strong depression. Trying to work through it and my terrible thoughts are seeping through...