Anything bothering you right now?

[IllusionOfHappiness]

Still refusing the meds...I can beat this. It's just rough right now. And there's actually quite a bit of positive to focus on now. Why do I find it so hard to do that? Everyone makes it look so easy.

[IllusionOfHappiness]

Low self esteem. I wonder if I'll ever manage to get rid of these feelings of worthlessness. It makes me question everything and over-analyze all my interactions with people - offline and online - and look for (and usually find) signs that indicate that people secretly dislike me or simply don't give two f*cks about me. And that leads me to avoid talking to them. And that's when I end up isolating myself and feeling even more miserable. I keep putting myself in this situation over and over again...

I can relate. Believe me Kirse, you are loved! I for one give a whole lot of fucks about you . You're an incredible person who I'm proud to call my friend.

[Kirsebaer]

I can relate. Believe me Kirse, you are loved! I for one give a whole lot of fucks about you . You're an incredible person who I'm proud to call my friend.

Illusion to the rescue!
thank you for being awesome, E.!
And the bolded part - the feeling is mutual

[IllusionOfHappiness]

Illusion to the rescue!
thank you for being awesome, E.!
And the bolded part - the feeling is mutual

I think that kinda stuff constantly about people both online and off. They really hate me though, right? They definitely secretly can't stand me at all and I annoy everyone I come into contact with to a ridiculous degree. I may even be breaking some sort of annoyance record by opening my mouth about anything. >.<

Die, negative thoughts!

[Koalafan]

^
Don't mean to piggyback off above the posts but I know the exact feels . It's REALLY hard for me to trust people and when people do get close too me, I constantly find ways and excuses too kick them out of my life...what an awful coping mechanism.

[GunnyHighway]

So I haven't been around here in a while, but I can't help but fall back after nights like these. I dreamt of my ex girlfriend again, which is weird because I've not had a thought about her in a long time. This time it feels like it went on the whole night. I don't remember a whole lot but it was enough to wake me up sweating and shaking.

I went to her house, had fun for a while, then the "other" boyfriend shows up and I start snooping around their backs. What really killed me was that right before I actually woke up, I was staring out of her kitchen window and it was snowing and just beautiful. I remember looking out of that window so well right now...

[Otherside]

I just hurt the one person I tried to never hurt. I lost control again, and I do stupid shit.

I just wanted to go back to how things were once I realized how much I'd hurt him. I just wanted to end it all, to stop things like this from ever happening again.

Because try and try and try as might, I can never get it all under control

Bipolar. [BEEP] you. I fucking hate you.

[Koalafan]

Myself. Been really struggling with depression the past couple of days

[L]

Trying to remind myself to breath through it and that I will be hopefully leaving the country in 6 months

[Kirsebaer]

Myself. Been really struggling with depression the past couple of days

[Total Eclipse]

People can be very tasteless at times... it speaks volumes.

[SmileyFace]

Parents make me want to rip my hair out.

[L]

Parents make me want to rip my hair out.

Yes, yes they do - I know how this feels all too well.....hugs

[sanspants]

I've been really down since the temp went up to 90. Being unable to get comfortable makes me feel so helpless. It sucks because this is the weather everyone else loves. I hate the way I get sad whenever everyone else gets happy, and vice versa

[Total Eclipse]

Struggling with very strong depression. Trying to work through it and my terrible thoughts are seeping through...