Having to constantly try to fight off negative thoughts is quite exhausting.
“Scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist.” — George Carlin
"If it's true that our species is alone in the universe, then I'd have to say the universe aimed rather low and settled for very little." — George Carlin
I didn't get it
life---> <---me
Barely slept last night. And I feel really confused, disoriented, exhausted and anxious. I also feel a strange sense of things being different. Like the world feels too small, and foreign. I hate these inexplicable episodes. Hate not getting what triggered it. Hate not knowing how long it will last. I'm probably going to spend all day in bed today.
I cringe whenever I come accross my old posts and realize that I've made a typo or a grammar mistake When will I ever learn that I need to proofread before hitting the Post button?
On antibiotics for an ear infection in both ears - the medication is killing me, upset tummy, running to the bathroom, headache (although that is more likely the infection) sore muscles and really tired.....worst of all I am on my off week from work boo!!
life---> <---me
Don't wanna sleep cos I've kept getting the same nightmare over and over. Sure, I know, only a dream, but it's just pissing me.
Same thing, over and over. At the top of a skyscraper. Only way to get down is by using a lift. Which is super small when you look at it.
So get in lift, lift turns into some sort of a tardis because somehow there's more room but okay. All goes normal.
Then suddenly, the goddamn cable snaps. And falling lift. You know it doesn't even crash it just like...keeps falling and falling and falling and I'm just trapped in a lift forever falling.
I hate lifts. I'll drag luggage up seven storeys of stairs but god forbid I take a lift to my hotel room.
Edit - Got curious, so dream interpreted it. And what do I get?
Feeling that you are failing in life.or feeling insecure about something in life. F'sakes!
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......
My anxiety continues with a vengeance.
I dunno why it's been bothering me so much but... the chatroom here is SO DEAD. I totally miss the days several of us would go in and chat about all sorts of stuff. Good times I really miss a lot of people here. Too bad people had busy lives right when I wanted to keep in touch elsewhere on the web.