I was honest with the person who I was supposed to go to the play with today. I didn't really want to go because I felt like a third wheel. It was obvious to me that she had planned this with her other friend and I was just being "added" because I was feeling lonely the other day and asked to do something with her.
So I told her that I called the other day because I feel like I'm not connecting with people here and I really just wanted to have some time to get to know people like her. I also told her that although I like attending plays, Mary Poppins is not something I want to do. i thanked her and offered to pay for the ticket.
She completely understood which was a shock and said she would give the ticket to someone else so I didn't have to buy it from her. She offered to get together next weekend. So I'm painting my house this weekend.
Again I don't really know where I fit in. I'm 57 years old and my idea of fun is adventure, action, and outdoors. All my friends who do that now live 3 hours away. I guess I should be focusing on how much I do have rather than what I don't have.
Sigh. *knocking self in head*