Very anxious and angry all of a sudden today :/
Just saw these messages. I'm fine, thank you so much you guys I live on the French-Swiss border and fortunately I wasn't visiting Paris at the time of the attacks. My brother-in-law lives in Paris though, as well as some friends, so it was really scary to think that they could have been some of the victims.
Thank you for thinking of me... you guys are the best
Glad to hear you're ok Kirse!
http://youtu.be/zSgiXGELjbc
"A still more glorious dawn awaits
Not a sunrise, but a galaxy rise
A morning filled with 400 billion suns
The rising of the milky way"
"The sky calls to us
If we do not destroy ourselves
We will one day venture to the stars" -Carl Sagan
Still more hope for the job opportunity. My only worry here is that I'm getting my hopes up for nothing. That can be dangerous for me. I want this so badly, and a need the stability of a job like I need the air that I breathe. With Christmas coming up and my first student loan payment directly after, I want to jump for joy hearing there's a chance the company might want another member before January. But I can't do that just yet. All I can do is spice up my resume and make sure it gets delivered. Apparently mine would be the first one seen, since technically they're not hiring yet but all the employees disagree with that decision, having to work late and come in on their so-called vacation days to help out. Some people there know me, and know that I'm a good worker. I worked with them for nearly four years. There's not a single negative word they would say about me, so in other words, there are all the references I didn't have before! It's almost too good to be true. <--- Which is exactly why I can't get too hopeful.
Having no medical insurance is a real cash cow in my life at the moment, spending $80 every four weeks on some topical treatment that doesn't seem to be working. Use it for six months, they said. Well, it'll have been eight months soon. Time to make another doctor appointment. I can't explain the frustration of this possibly just not working for me, and having all that money be wasted. Could've gone to Christmas or my loan. I'm essentially feeding money into a paper shredder if that's the case.
Case in point: I need money.
My heart is very broken.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
I feel sorry for my ex husband because he has no coping skills to deal with real problems.
He blames, drinks, gets angry
I try to understand that he's just ill equipped
But he chose to not get help.
He keeps his mind closed to any possibility that things were also his responsibility to fix
He refuses to take blame
So I can't feel fully sorry for him
And at those moments, I get angry and want to slap him
Not that I will
I just want to because it frustrates me
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about