I am suffering with the fear of vomiting. It has progressively ruined my life over the years and I am only 19 years old. It's gotten to the point where I don't want to get out of bed, I only eat because my mom forces me. I cry every day and every time I eat. I feel nauseous EVERY WAKING moment. I went to the ER twice because I was malnourished. My mom now does everything for me besides helping me go to the bathroom. I can't eat, I can't sleep, It makes me feel like dying! I just want to be like everybody else. A couple months ago I was going to work and college and then I caught a stomach bug that made me puke all over myself in my boyfriend's room and I have just crumbled ever since.
First I just avoided. Going anywhere far after I got sick and then it slowly got to the point where I couldn't even get down the street with someone else driving for fee if getting carsick. Then I wouldn't leave the house and one day which was about 3 weeks ago it's just gotten worse every day.
I feel so pathetic and like there's no hope. I don't smile anymore. I feel like killing myself because I don't wanna suffer another day like this. I feel like such a burden on my mom and my boyfriend. Someone help.. I don't want to be taken away and put on a psychiatric hold because I would just lose it completely.