I was able to wake up on time for the bus
Two things
I got through our monthly conference call with our biggest client, and I think I did well. Those calls always send my anxiety through the roof cos we use WebEx, and there are always about a dozen anonymous people on our call. We're all signed in with our names, and they're signed in as "Caller #1", "Caller #2", etc and no one knows who they are, so you kind of have to be careful about what you say, and about whom. And our VP of sales wasn't being very careful today. I'm assuming that was on purpose, Idk. But he sure did step on some people's toes this morning.
Also I met a cute girl in one of my stores today Well, nothing to get too excited about but she's cute, and she seems like a real sweety. We talked for a bit cos we have a somewhat similar resume...she knows people I used to work for at a previous job, I know people she works for. She seems really nice. I'm guessing she's in her thirties so she may think I'm older than dirt, but I want to talk to her when I go into that store again. Maybe in a few months ask her out to lunch or something really informal like that. She was really nice, she struck up the conversation first and I wanted to keep it going but we both had to leave.
You're going to lose people in your life, and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how often you told them you loved them, it will never seem like it was enough.
Hug the ones you love.
I had some amazing coffee with peanut butter and oats! ( ◠‿◠ )
I got a good long sleep in this morning x
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Last night I had the most horrendous CPTSD episode while i was trying to sleep that was so outta hand that none of my usual coping skills had effect. didnt slep much as result but heres the good thing that happened today: I got in touch with help and they got me someone who can really help me very close to where I live. So im going to finally seek help for my trouble
For the first time since before Christmas and my bad news I've gone out dancing, gotten pissed and enjoyed it.
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We made an awesome new friend yesterday! I hope she comes round today.
Got a lot done at work today. I really feel blessed. I don't get to see my kids everyday, but I get to see them a lot and i'm the only one they've ever called dad. My ex agreed to let me take my kids to the movies soon, even though it's not my weekend. I have a roof over my head. A pretty decent job. A nice car.
Today was a good day and I feel blessed to have what I have. It's what I've lost that bothers me, that keeps me awake at night. I think the people you lose are what really screws a lot of us up. Whether it's a loved one that died, or a an abusive mom or dad that was never there. I think those are the relationships that really **** a lot of us up, and give us the anxiety and PTSD that lasts forever.
But. Today was a good day lol. I try to focus on the positive.
You're going to lose people in your life, and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how often you told them you loved them, it will never seem like it was enough.
Hug the ones you love.
more money today
getting the keys to my new apartment today
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