I woke up this morning feeling okay. First time in awhile I made it to work without crying. I feel okay. Well, now I'm feeling anxious about feeling okay. I know, crazy. I feel uncomfortable because now I'm wondering whats going to go wrong. I'm jinxing things by feeling okay and not bad. What a horrible cycle. Why can't I feel okay today and not have anxiety ruin it? I know logically nothing bad will happen from me not worrying but I feel its a security blanket for me. If I expect bad to happen, I can't be disappointed.
Disappointment is a horrible feeling that scares me.