***If you do not believe in spirits or mediums, please do not read further***
I'm not a medium, but I do believe I am sensitive to energies, and I've always seen and felt strange things. At my home where I grew up, it was usually green orbs. I got the sense that they were traveling, like my home was a bus station and they were just kind of passing through. Then there was the tapping coming from the inside of the walls that happened every night, but only when I was alone. I had always assumed it was the house settling until I asked about it and found out no one else ever heard it. It stopped when they renovated the bathroom and removed bird remains from inside the wall. Lots of things like that.
Anyway, the reason I'm asking is because I noticed that I don't feel things since I started taking SSRIs. My in-laws all have very old homes and I used to feel things there every time I went. Like I used to walk down in my in-laws basement and feel a falling sensation and like the cement stairs were softer and smoother like wood. When I really concentrated, I decided I felt like a little boy fell down there once (I have no idea if it's true). My nephews talk about seeing people all the time.
Yesterday I was at my in-laws party and my nephew was talking about a ghost. I assumed he meant a Halloween decoration. But then he said the ghost walked out. I followed him outside and asked him what kind of ghost it was. "A grey ghost. It's over there by the tree." I believed him, but I didn't feel anything. It made me sad.
On the one hand it's a relief that I don't feel these things anymore because it has always scared me. On the other hand, I feel like there is an entire world I've cut ties to.
Anyone else have any idea what I'm talking about???