I'm overly excited and ridiculously nervous, can't sleep as a result.
I'm overly excited and ridiculously nervous, can't sleep as a result.
People keep waking me up even though I am working nights....why people
life---> <---me
Mosquitoes had a feast on my legs and now I have some huge red bumps all over them and I'm dying with the itch! Grrrr
I want to get away from my family so bad. At my age dad still scars me when he is angery and he is down stairs shouting at my brother. I'm not long awake because I was working night duty so I'm pretty much hiding in my bed waiting got either my brother or dad to leave
This city is too big and hot. Luckily, I can tell the weather will start to change soon. Even though we're still hitting triple digits here, there has been a change in the intensity of the sun lately and the color temperature is cooler than it was last month—a cooler blueish white hue now compared to the warmer yellow/orange hue it has during the worst part of the summer.
Temps are only a part of the problem, though. Even after it cools off here this stupid city is way too big for someone like me who has trouble convincing himself to even go for a walk around the neighborhood. I should really be living in a much smaller city or a town. :/
“Scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist.” — George Carlin
"If it's true that our species is alone in the universe, then I'd have to say the universe aimed rather low and settled for very little." — George Carlin
I'm procrastinating again...
Both of our admin are on leave....
!! Amok!! Amok!! Amok!! Run Amok!!
Lots of sheet is on the bottom of my mind, don't think about it too much. My brother's death of course. Thinking about the path his life took and why it went the way it. Don't really have a lot of verbage to ascribe to it. Thinking about if suicide is sad or not. Kind of going through the whole thing of "What is the point of life"....but not in the context of my life experience as in feeling bad for myself....instead the whole unfolding of generations and the problems that people have and the minimal glimpses of good times. There is so much I need to take care of, get together, I never get it together though. I had it together long time ago....now it's all free-form living, make shift. Wondering if it's arrogant of me to say things to myself like "at least he is at peace"... it's not comforting. Feels like a slight rip off. I'm also wondering what in my life is going to take the place of the things I loose. And also I guess I do have to remind myself to be thankful and as corny as it is "make the most of today"...and I realize most of us here struggle with making the most of our days.
I'm so grumpy today.. somebody please hit me with a stick and tell me to get a grip!
Just had to clean a clogged drain in my bathroom... jesus effing christ, I almost died
Feeling exceptionally frustrated by my lack of money. I need to stop being such a coward and fill out some job applications.
“Scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist.” — George Carlin
"If it's true that our species is alone in the universe, then I'd have to say the universe aimed rather low and settled for very little." — George Carlin