One thing that never stops annoying me about anxiety is how it prevents me from being "spontaneous" and just having fun! Like, I always have to make plans with any friend at least a week in advance, just to gear up the courage to hang out.
I am so jealous of those people who can receive a call on the spot, and answer " I'll be right over, sounds fun" why can't I be like that!!!!!!
I suppose I should be thankful because a few years ago I wasn't socializing at all! Then when I do hang out with someone, I worry I BORE the person..
I absolutely envy those people in life who aren't bothered by anything. These are the individuals that shrug and say, "oh, no big deal."
Yea I hate that about SA too =/. The best way for me to hang out with anyone is if its not planned and they just drag me out of the house . If I plan something in advance Im always tempted to just back out at the last second. I think the best way that I've dealt with stuff like that is to realize that I'm just introverted and being awkward and shy is part of my personality. Beating myself up about it wasnt making anything anything better ><