Random Thought of the Day

[Heelsbythebridge]

The stress is unbearable

[Nyctophilia]

I should spend more time on Tumblr. I should but I don't. It's all just stuff like people spending an insane amount of time/effort collaboratively handbinding copies of My Immortal (basically the fanfiction equivalent of The Room,) long/cursed furbies (that's pretty old but still started on Tumblr I think.) It has a very specific kind of eccentric/surreal humour that's sort of present no matter the fandom. Like The Sims 2 Vidcund Curious memes lol. I actually responded to someone's weird Sims 2 mod and started following their account and then they took a screenshot of the fact I followed them and multiple people liked it lol I guess because they know me from YouTube. Very surreal. That sort of thing doesn't happen on twitter but I'd also guess there are probably more people who watch my channel on tumblr.

Lol saw this on twitter about Tumblr:

In addition to Twitter, I'm recently on Mastodon, trying out POST trial, dabbled on TikTok, & on Instagram for years. I have my own opinions & observations on each, but wondering where u think I should put most of my energy for better city-building? Explain your vote if helpful.

I don't know much about Tumblr, by the way. Happy to hear what folks think about its usefulness.

I'm personally fairly invested in tumblr but I don't think it would work well with what you do. It's a totally different culture that's kind of hard to explain but tumblr is a place where people mass hallucinate movies that never existed, not one where they talk about urbanism.

Never forget:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Goncharov_(meme)

There's actually a wikipedia page for this meme lol (wikipedia doesn't normally make pages for memes because they only allow articles about things that are published in mainstream news sources which I think is a pretty lame and archaic metric for notability but there you go,)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Goncharov_(meme)

Goncharov is an internet meme surrounding a nonexistent 1973 gangster film of the same name. Goncharov was imagined by users on Tumblr as a joke, often with the tagline "The greatest mafia movie ever made". It is usually described as a mafia film set in Naples, with the involvement of Martin Scorsese. Those discussing the film have devised a fictionalized cast list that includes Robert De Niro, Al Pacino, John Cazale, Gene Hackman, Cybill Shepherd and Harvey Keitel.

Goncharov initially originated when a Tumblr user posted a picture of a pair of "knockoff boots" that featured details suggesting the film's existence in place of a brand label. This post was reblogged in August 2020 with the joking allusion that Goncharov was a real film; this reblog is generally regarded as the genesis of the meme. The meme went viral in November 2022, after a poster for Goncharov was created and shared online. This sparked an elaborate fiction of its narrative content and production, described in posts on Tumblr and elsewhere as if the film were real. Goncharov has inspired an online fandom, received significant coverage in the media, and garnered responses from notable individuals, including Scorsese, generally playing along with the meme.

In response and undoubtedly in jest Scorsese responded with: 'Yes. I made that film years ago.'

LOL. Honestly probably one of the funniest things the internet has ever done.

Twitter unfortunately now combines the worst parts of Tumblr and stormfront and unlike on tumblr it seems impossible to avoid certain things even on accounts where you mostly follow fandom stuff. Especially I think after whatever changes were made in January. So much unrelated stuff pops up on my timeline too in general. It's quite hard to find esoterica without deep diving for it. There's an account that posts interesting LGBT+ historical stuff and I don't know how to find more stuff like that because twitter doesn't really function that way. It's a lot easier to be suggested more blogs related to whatever you're looking for on tumblr.

I'm embracing the self-cringe by excessively leaning into it and scrolling through the Geddy Lee tag on Tumblr:



True but this reminds me of the lyrics to M'aidez by Sneaker pimps for some reason lol:



M'aidez, throwaways
Some things here have got to stay
A string of pearls, the strangest girl is
Happy with the western world

Painless Chinese burns
Ties me down with daisy chains
Diamonds on her tongue
And pleasure cuts and teasing

It sounds like you're lying in a field of flowers but is actually about BDSM I think because a bunch of Chris's lyrics are lol....

So cute with the oversized glasses:



This newspaper headline is ruining the 70s for me 'what do you mean everyone didn't look like that?' Lol:



Some of the tags and other comments are amusing like this one:

i don?t think i can ever recover from seeing this picture

The first image led me to an account called prog confessions where someone posted this (image wasn't embedding in a smaller size so just quoting. Also keeping punctuation as is. It's in the writing style where they don't capitalise any i's):

https://64.media.tumblr.com/cc6bbc82...bfb0744a39.jpg

When i was like 16 i drew Roger Waters with Harley Quinn's hairstyle for SOME UNGODLY REASONS, an inside joke with my prog rock friends group i guess. i feel like if he knew he would use the prop weapon he has during the wall tours and execute me in public.

Just reminds me of something I would have done in my mid-late teens again lol. Did basically the same [BEEP] on Facebook.

I am quite Tumblr even though I didn't grow up on Tumblr (it didn't take off until I was an adult.) I spent more time on livejournal as a teenager and haven't used Tumblr as much as other sites really. In spite of that Tumblr seems to have adopted a bunch of stuff that sort of reflects my humour/interests etc. Even though livejournal was a precursor to Tumblr I feel like some stuff wasn't really as popular on livejournal back in the day. I guess a lot of it also overlaps with fanfiction stuff and deviantart though too. That's why I joked that Tumblr is a people not a place to Nick Land when he was talking about how Tumblr should be destroyed. And now everyone has moved onto complaining about Tiktok. Also Nick Land liked a tweet where I was responding to someone else not that long ago which is pretty cursed lol.

A lot of the confessions on that prog rock blog are things like people shipping band members together, calling people 'gilfs' lol, saying 'being kissed by a female version of Chris Squire would solve all my problems, actually' (dunno who that is.) There's a lot of stuff I'm stumbling on in general searching this that honestly seems similar to the nisu/泥塑 subculture (wasn't trying to find stuff lol just did stumble on a bunch of stuff,)

Geddy?s just got done talking about his new synth or something and is getting fidgety and does a pretty-girl hair toss because he?s pretty and he knows it. Then he looks all bored.

I am obsessed, help.

need some input on smth fellas

what should the caption of that pic in my about post be:

My boyfriend (Geddy Lee)
My girlfriend (Geddy Lee)
My wife (Geddy Lee)

gf
nb partner

Someone was making custom deviantart stamps and requested this:

80's era Geddy Lee with cat ears in front of a lesbian pride flag, with crunchy transparant sparkle and heart gifs, and the text "m my grilfriend" pls and tysm

So again, people just ignore Western manifestations, and it's a bit weird but probably for the best (for reasons I go into later in post.)

I'm making gifs now:

Oh my god:





Blending with the trees:



he has 10/10 hair here:





He's so skinny <3 also looks like he's wearing boots in the Xanadu music video which is hot but not highlighted for long enough to gif that.

OK I think I'm done now. Hopefully lol.

The interest in this aesthetic does seem to be a thing/problem lol:





This post I just found is actually a pretty great example of Tumblr actually lol:



I think... People are superficially aware of why Tumblr horrifies them and is 'leading to the downfall of Western civilisation' but most haven't looked closely at Tumblr. The invisibility is probably a good thing really because from what I've seen 'normies' who do investigate further can't really handle it without it being some kind of existential horror experience and generally find the fandom stuff annoying at best. I mean this would all pretty obviously annoy most guys. And then there's the kind of subjectivity of things that you really need a certain kind of personality to enjoy or experience as neutral, instead of turning into Jordan Peterson ranting about postmodernism and chaos dragons like you're trapped in Hermaeus Mora's realm (it's honestly a more fitting metaphor than the 72 coloured Matrix pills)

also, my mom looks like Geddy Lee. like, a lot. it freaks me out sometimes, but Geddy's fucking hot so congrats i guess lesley.

LOL my mum actually looks exactly like Janis Joplin (well no not now because age but she did when younger,) she used to get compared to her a lot and it annoyed her apparently. There's one photo in particular where the resemblance is terrifying to the point where I could conspiratorially wonder if she actually didn't die and just was involved in some kind of transcontinental witness protection program but no lol. My mum's personality is pretty different too. (Also my mum was born in '59 so she was 11 when she died but yeah.)

[Nyctophilia]

lol this song just makes me think of Turkish Delight chocolate now because a few years ago I got gifted a shoebox of random chocolates for Christmas and I'd never eaten Turkish Delight before but I had a bad feeling about it. It tasted like soap. Absolutely terrible. But I hate throwing food away so I was like OK. Let's do this. And then forced myself to eat it while listening to this song lool.

[Doseone]

Even if Jesus was resurrected that's not proof of Christianity. Maybe there is a higher God that chose to resurrect him for a different purpose and make Yahweh think that he's the one who did it.

[Nyctophilia]

If JK Rowling was logically consistent she'd become a racist but she maintains cognitive dissonance here regarding the way she treats different groups:



I doubt she will abandon the cognitive dissonance because I don't think she's the kind of person who forms values based on logic in the first place and I think she'd lose everything if she became racist because it's less acceptable socially than transphobia. But if she did, hypothetically, she'd become a racist and probably adopt a far right political ideology.

To be blunt there are racial disparities in many areas including crime, so why not form legal decisions around that too? Also in sports there are advantages/disadvantages for everyone as individuals and as ethnic groups (I believe I once read about some ethnic group somewhere that had much greater lung capacity due to living at a certain elevation.) So why separate only based on sex? I mean you wanted to open that box.

That being said I just think violent criminals should be kept separately from everyone else anyway and the psychopathic ones should probably be kept in the gender neutral battle royale they most likely want. Maybe do something like this lol:



You think Joanna Dennehy wouldn't want violent competition with men? She killed three, and stabbed two more. For fun because it was 'moreish' I believe in Hunger Games gender and sex equality.

When faced with the prospect of having to be prosocial or die maybe they'll find a different survival strategy? (As with ancient Humans there's a reason adult Human skulls are like baby Chimpanzees and adult Humans keep playing despite not being children anymore, we kept killing off the - low functioning - psychopaths or they died due excommunication because you can't survive alone in ancestral environments, which reduced the violence rate over time. Self domestication.)



The double standards are tiring. She has a tremendous amount of ingroup bias. I don't see why a lot of men should have to put up with being raped and assaulted by violent men in prison either.

I think people underestimate antisocial personalities too. Sex differences don't matter as much as you'd think compared to personality. There's a reason Joanna Dennehy was able to kill multiple men. She had absolutely no fear and can use her sex to make people underestimate her and psychologically manipulate people.

Cross-examined by Stretch's counsel Karim Khalil QC today, Mr Lloyd said he was scared of Dennehy and had no choice but to join the pair on the journey to Hereford.

He added: "If she had told me to put my head through the windscreen, I would have done."

She lived in Luton at one point. Because of course. Of course you spent some time in Luton. (I feel like I have to point out in case. I'm from Luton lol so.) She had to move with her then partner because they told the police about a drug dealer they were living with or near or something.

Contrariwise If you put some physically weak guy with a socially anxious and unassertive personality into an environment with incredibly antisocial males that's definitely not going to go well.

Additionally most trans women (factoring in what I said above about very antisocial people,) shouldn't be trapped in an environment with hegemonic males.

Most cis men have no instinctive protective mentality in regards to trans women so they're going to be 1. punished for breaking male gender norms 2. sexually abused because they're potential sex and status objects in an environment with no cis women. In order to be protected they have to be as feminine as possible so trans women who don't make that cut won't achieve that and trans prisoners are often cut off from hrt making that more difficult. Either way they'll be coerced into sex to get that protection.

Nobody really cares though if you Google you'll get a lot of news stories and such about trans women's rate of violent/sexual offences instead of their experiences in prison so you have to dig for a while and then most research is in the US and Australia. I do also assume the rate of male rape is higher than reported here based on what I've read about the US prison system:

https://justdetention.org/wp-content...soner-Rape.pdf

While anyone can be sexually assaulted in detention, transgender inmates are exceptionally vulnerable to this form of violence. One study of California
prisoners found that 59 percent of transgender women housed in men’s prisons had been sexually abused while incarcerated, as compared to 4 percent of non-transgender inmates in men’s prisons.1 Making matters worse, transgender inmates often face prejudice and discrimination in the aftermath of an assault.

https://www.nbcnews.com/feature/nbc-...-many-n1142436

Of the 10 transgender women at Chino who spoke to NBC News during a weekend visit last year, nine said they’d been sexually assaulted behind bars. Half said they’d requested a transfer to a women’s prison but had been denied; another said she hadn’t even asked because she assumed the request wouldn’t be approved.

Other things JK Rowling is ignoring:

I'm pretty sure from comments she's said before that part of her evidence is 'The Swedish Study' so within that study it also found that trans men's rate of offending isn't significantly different from cis men despite being genetically female (though I suspect she doesn't want trans men in women's prisons either):

Second, regarding any crime, male-to-females had a significantly increased risk for crime compared to female controls (aHR 6.6; 95% CI 4.1–10.8 ) but not compared to males (aHR 0.8; 95% CI 0.5–1.2). This indicates that they retained a male pattern regarding criminality. The same was true regarding violent crime. By contrast, female-to-males had higher crime rates than female controls (aHR 4.1; 95% CI 2.5–6.9) but did not differ from male controls. This indicates a shift to a male pattern regarding criminality and that sex reassignment is coupled to increased crime rate in female-to-males. The same was true regarding violent crime.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3043071/

The author of the Swedish study has apparently said some things in interviews that suggest that some findings in the paper were misrepresented:

The individual in the image who is making claims about trans criminality, specifically rape likelihood, is misrepresenting the study findings. The study as a whole covers the period between 1973 and 2003. If one divides the cohort into two groups, 1973 to 1988 and 1989 to 2003, one observes that for the latter group (1989 – 2003), differences in mortality, suicide attempts, and crime disappear. This means that for the 1989 to 2003 group, we did not find a male pattern of criminality.

https://www.transadvocate.com/fact-c...al_n_15483.htm

This review disagrees with her claim that it's being misrepresented:

https://mbmpolicy.files.wordpress.co...ril-2021-1.pdf

This study suggests there are differences in crime patterns between people of different sexual orientations:

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27056045/

https://sci-hub.wf/10.1007/s10508-016-0717-3

With the finding that for violent delinquency straight men reported the most violent delinquency followed by lesbians, then heterosexual women, then gay men.

results from the analyses examining total nonviolent and total violent delinquency across heterosexual males and females and gay males and lesbians revealed that heterosexual males reported the highest levels of nonviolent delinquency, followed closely by lesbians, then gay males,and finally heterosexual females. For violent delinquency, heterosexual males were again the most delinquent, followed by lesbians, then heterosexual females, and finally gay males.

This study is unique, therefore, because it reveals that the male–female difference may not be universal and that sexual orientation plays an important role.

The study also found that bisexual females and males had the most delinquent behaviour for each sex. Though for some reason they're not mentioned in the above quotes in order. They also looked at people who identified as 'mostly heterosexual' etc:

The analyses revealed, in general, that bisexuals were the most delinquent of the sexual orientation categories for both males and females.

In general, bisexual females, on average, self-reported the greatest involvement in all forms of delinquency. Mostly heterosexual, mostly lesbian, and lesbians scored, on average, the next highest on the delinquency scales, though the exact ordering fluctuated depending on the delinquency scale being analyzed. Hetero- sexual females were, for the most part, the least involved in delinquency across each of the delinquency measures.

JK Rowling seems self motivated (by fear,) as a former domestic abuse victim so perhaps she would be willing to throw lesbians under the bus. That's being a bit uncharitable perhaps but I'm not sure I care now. It's unclear and wouldn't be great for PR. Too much of their message involves pretending to be defending lesbian women but I also know a lot is invested in winning the fight against trans women at all costs, so I could see even lesbian terfs being like 'yeah we should be removed from female spaces.' (actually if I recall correctly Kathleen Stock suggested something similar about butch lesbians being mistaken as male in female spaces having to be collateral damage essentially lol in something she wrote but uh I'm way too lazy to find that quote now.) I don't think they will have to consider or debate this though because society is very good at ignoring any evidence that women can be perpetrators of crime, especially violent crime. It's very invested in infantilising women, especially white women. So in conclusion the cognitive dissonance and double standards will continue.

(You could also compare racial crime statistics here as well, but I cba now and GC pretend to be defending lesbians and genetic females so it's more interesting.)

Ftr if you limit homosexual men to effeminate homosexual men I would have predicted exactly that order of 'delinquency' lol personally. But stereotyping isn't as useful as data.

Edit:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnC88xBPkkc

I dunno if I like them. I discovered some live recording on TV that my dad was listening to months ago with one track that stood out to me and don't really remember what it was. I think it was probably Tom Sawyer. But then re-listening wasn't the same so I dunno. Was trying to capture some emotional response later that didn't happen it's weird. I like this track:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SEuOoMprDqg

lol I'm never going to remember what the song was because I listened to like a live concert recording and there were a bunch of songs and I don't even know if there was a single song. This is basically like when you forget what you're doing/thinking about while doing/thinking about it (tbh I usually remember eventually,) but at this point it's a loss cause lol. It'd probably be helpful if I could remember which live concert it was.

Honestly I did add this track to a playlist along with some others around when I got home so it was live in Cleveland:



Or it was this:



Nah I think it was Subdivisions.

The bassline in this song is amazing too though:



Definitely the kind of track I would have tried to teach myself to play on my non-bass guitar using tabs back as a teenager when I was trying to self teach myself to play the guitar and for some reason always ended up looking up basslines without realising they were basslines. There was Come as You Are and also Vivica of course:



In my defense bass is usually the best part of goth rock and goth rock-adj music tracks. Needless to say I stopped trying to learn/play the guitar a while ago lol.



Geddy Lee is weirdly captivating. I mean I never bothered to listen to their music before that concert recording, and yes obviously I realised yesterday or the day before that he was actually hot when he was younger but I noticed his glasses and always thought he looked like a cool wizard haha in photos before listening to their music. Although Ozzy's purple glasses are cooler because they're purple.

"Have you thought about getting diagnosed with/ADHD medication or just like something to stop this madness?"

"Nah just gonna continue on this way with everything everywhere all at once. Apparently."

[Heelsbythebridge]

It could actually be worse. I could be pregnant or have a young child to care for.

[Doseone]

It could actually be worse. I could be pregnant or have a young child to care for.

I'm glad that I don't have kids.

[Nyctophilia]

lol what just checked that tweet and it got 116 likes and 13 retweets. Wonder what happened there. Also apparently twitter now tells you when people bookmark tweets. I didn't even notice lol either because I have notifications turned off for people I don't follow. So I'm not following any of those people.

Like really I'm ignored most of the time on that account and usually get 0-3 likes. I have barely any followers. Also there are no replies as it should be lol. Asocial media.

...

Lol what normal thing is happening t- oh.

the way i could write multiple essays about these photos and how suki waterhouse was 21 and bradley cooper was 38 reading her lolita and now she’s 31 and reading my dark vanessa which is about a 32 year old woman realizing she was groomed by her teacher… anyways i love you suki

bradley cooper you are disgusting and i’ll say it with my whole chest <3

looking at that first picture makes me feel so physically repulsed i hate him

Gen Z if you could not for 5 minutes that'd be great.

How is there an entire generation that seems more traumatised/broken than I do? It gets worse and worse every generation lol. It's not even rolling back to the past because they had few issues with age gaps in the past. It's like accelerated hyperstional conservatism.

You are conflating the sexual molestation of a 12 year old girl by a man in his late 30s with the relationship between a 21 year old woman and a 38 year old man.

He’s the one reading her the book!

Which was assigned to me when I was a student at Columbia and...21 years old.

Did they teach you about bad optics at Columbia

No, literature.

Lol the photo was clearly not planned. Did they teach paparazzi to stop stalking? No because it's weirdly legal somehow.

It’s not like people in their late 20’s often mention how they still don’t “feel” adult yet, and how immature they were in their early 20’s..oh wait. The refusal to acknowledge that 21 is still quite young and that men double her age shouldn’t be hovering around her is very weird

This is a reasonable thought to have.

Still NOT grooming.

still grooming

They are adults and women have until about the age of 35 before their reproductive life will start to rapidly deteriorate so if they want kids they're going to have to mature soon. Well at least until we invent artificial wombs/extend Human lifespans. Not feeling like an adult in your late 20s is common because our culture's fucked, but ultimately the response to that is not 'age gap relationships between adults are creepy because even a 28 year old who doesn't feel their age is no different from 12.' Also grooming just... Means nothing now.