Recently (past week or so to be honest I cant really tell days apart ) been having mood swings when I am alone. Some dont happen when im in public because of the anxiety disorder.
At first I thought that I was making myself do it but now im not so sure:
Theres adrenaline rush and cant concentrate, want to do lots but cant concentrate. Which I have gotten previously so not new.
There is a mood swing that kills anxiety? but I feel groggy, vision not as great kind of reminds me of derealisation/ panic attack w/o the anxiety.
Extremely happy (for me anyway) and friendly and a lot more talkative, laugh for no reason, dont have SA.
Hypersensitive and emotional, will very easily cry
* I am not impulsive at all, none of the mood swings change anxiety based habits of avoidance. I can control what I do, I just dont want to. It therefore cant be bipolar.
Not BPD as I checked . Depression was long term, no large change in factors to make me undepressed so suddenly.
I had shakes and it kind of resembled a seizure or fit (obviously not one but could have looked like one with the shaking everywhere).
The weird part is the depression and suicidal thoughts are pretty much gone, even when I am trying to trigger it, I cant. My anxiety disorders are improving, but it seems strange that my brain would reprogram itself like this to help me?
If this is some sleep disorder or something I triggered , I would like to keep triggering it...