Big time.
God, I so need hugs.
Big time.
God, I so need hugs.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Thank you.
I feel like I'm just screwing everything up. The last two weeks have been hell. For every one step I take, I take 3 steps back. I know I'm over reacting. It's just that when people at work are making you crazy, people inside are making you crazy, things at home making you crazy, family making you crazy.................well, I can safely say I am crazy now. Before I was just a little crazy. Now I'm terminal.
So thank you. I've been feeling like it's me against the world. And me against me. Ever just feel like you want to feed small children to large dogs?
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Forget it.
This life sucks.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Be kind to yourself x
Cindy!!
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Only saw this now. Life does suck. I hope you can pick yourself up.
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It sounds like you're very overwhelmed at the moment. Please take it easy. One at a time, it will be ok.![]()
Take it one day at a time, Cindy. Life will get better, even if it doesn't seem that way just now. You've been a good friend to me.
I'M GONNA FIGHT 'EM ALL
A SEVEN NATION ARMY COULDN'T HOLD ME BACK.......
Thanks guys for the hugs and for listening. I'm very overwhelmed.
I've never been at such a low point. I guess my past, present and hope have just crashed together. I feel like I"m not even speaking sense anymore. You'd never believe I was this falling apart if you saw me in real life. I've "on paper" had the best summer ever. Best teen volunteer staff. Best programs. Best situations. Best co-worker relationships. Best. Best. Best.
At home, I'm doing ok. Getting work done. Dealing with things as they come up. Doing this with friends and family. Things are going fine. Fine. Fine. Fine.
I'm communicating with my alters more than I ever have. Getting things resolved. Handling things. Doing well. Well. Well. Well.
On paper, everything is fine.
So why do I want to smash this entire planet and everything in it, over it, under it and around it? Why am I feeling like my heart is crushed? Why can't I fix this? I've always been able to fix it. Always. I'm like coping person of the year. I throw out more "whatevers" than anybody I know. I deal with it.
So why am I not dealing with it? Why am I not getting all my ducks in a row like I always do? Why am I not striving to be "human being of the year" like I always do?
You know, when one part was losing it, the others would take over. There was always one part who could fix it.
I'm not even sure I remember how to cry.
So thanks guys for the hugs. I really mean it. I really need them. I wish you guys all lived down the street. I really do.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
And I know I've not been a good friend to any of you lately. I'm sorry.
The Hokey Pokey IS what it's all about
Cat hugs, the best there are. Hang in there.
Never be bullied into silence.
Never allow yourself to be made a victim.
Accept no one's definition of your life;
Define Yourself
-Robert Frost-
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"A still more glorious dawn awaits
Not a sunrise, but a galaxy rise
A morning filled with 400 billion suns
The rising of the milky way"
"The sky calls to us
If we do not destroy ourselves
We will one day venture to the stars" -Carl Sagan