I just turned 18 back on July 30th so that means the child support check my mom had been getting since I was 5 stopped so now I need to try to get a jump on stuff but I'm in a pickle. First off I have never drove in my life until the other day & barely know anything about cars. I've been trying to study but everything else gets on my mind as well as the fact that I have ADD. Well anyways... I only drove a little before slamming on brakes & nearly crashing into our house. I felt like the car was more in control than me & that put me in a very uncomfortable spot. I had a terrible panic attack & it took me awhile to calm down. That's how bad my anxiety is. I have Social Anxiety, Anxiety in general, Depression, Bipolar & ADD. I know everyone has things they battle with but this mixture is taking a great toll on me I feel like. I've only been on 2 different medicines so far but really don't want to be on a bunch of crap since it costs money. I was on 40mg of Paxil (anxiety & depression) which worked some but not enough & then 250mg of Divalproex (Bipolar) but it made me terribly sick for a long time so I stopped taking it. Plus I feel like medication has more side effects than benefits. My doctor keeps wanting me to see a Psychiatrist but I have no way transportation wise to get to my scheduled appointments on time.
I feel like it's impossible for me to drive or even work anywhere. I was turned down as a cashier at a local grocery store which I really didn't want to do but I need to do SOMETHING. I just don't know what that SOMETHING is that I could do!? Applying for disability this soon would be a pain in the [BEEP] so I need to at least get a record going that I'm not stable for the public or something if this keeps up.
Is anyone that's an adult on here like me or similar to me that has some helpful advice? Like driving tips or places I could try working at would be greatly appreciated! I'm a dropout by the way working on my GED just so you know. Please help me... I'm feeling so hopeless & nobody I know has any answers for me.