am I shy or do I have social anxiety disorder?
I get frustrated, why am i so shy, but so out going, Avoiding peopole, because i think they think im wierd or i will screw up, why is it so Dang hard, Why because its a fear the I dont know how to handle... like not even kidding it hurts to talk to people I don't know and even when Im with my friends I can't talk I have to push so so hard just to get words out I am so tired of it.If my teacher asks me a question it takes me a minute to even start talking and even then I get red trip over my own tongue everyone laughs at me.I can't do anything ordering food,asking for a pencil.They all call me creepy,crazy,loner,useless,friendless this is terrible I know High school is over in two years but it isn't the words it's the beatings my boyfriend broke up with me because he doesn't want to get hurt I can't take it.