I'm sitting on a dark street in my car on a Friday night and my cats are thrown in my garage.
This is the second time tonight I've been thrown out tonight so somebody can walk in my house, look around, and figure out ways to screw me out of my house for cheap. In the last year I have put 20,000.00 in repairs in it. The realtor just dropped the cost by 10,000.00.
I don't have a job. I do have an interview to teach preschoolers, but I'm sure the pay will be minimal. I have two frickin masters degrees which make me over qualified for most jobs.
I decided to try to get back into graduate school to get my doctorate in educational psychology, but I have to take the GRE again which cost 187.00. I can't study for the test in a short time, so I made the appt to take the test in Dec. I'm not sure if they will let me register without first taking the test. My last GRE was in 2005 and it needs to be within 5 years. I thought if I could get into the PhD program then I could get a research job on campus. I've applied for several positions there and am praying to get them.
I just feel like teaching in a preschool is such a step backwards. I guess I should be thankful for even having a job interview.
I'm just mad that one bitchy boss and one wimpy director could have screwed my life up so badly. I have to remind myself that things happen for a reason, but it's hard to be positive when I'm jobless, sitting in my car in the dark waiting for some annoying perspective buyer to come see my house and want to screw me over.
I'm just feeling sorry for myself at the moment.
I have to focus on what's important in my life. Tomorrow I'm bringing my grandkids to a children's garden and Sunday all of my kids are going to be with me.
I'm just frustrated because I work my [BEEP] off all the time and I just seem to be moving backwards.
And to top it off, that 70 year old keeps sending me crazy emails about lord knows what. I can't even decipher what he's saying in them. I do pick up that he thinks we have some kind of relationship. I don't want to be mean, but subtle hints, direct `I'm not interested doesn't seem to register with him.
Ok, it's 6:20 and the people haven't shown up yet.
My life is just so grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr right now.
I need to cry.
Something has to give. I'm gonna run away from home and live in my car with my 4 remaining cats. I could so be a drifter right now. At least this time I have a car so I've stepped up in the homeless world. :-(