Teacher needs help with coping

[Mrs.Peaceseeker]

Hello. I am a teacher and have struggled with depression and anxiety. Students love me but my bosses always hate me. I am a "straight shooter" and that bothers some people. I am never rude but if they ask me what my opinion is and I give it to them, I'm looked at as abrasive. My wife is constantly criticizing me because I "only work part time" and I feel worthless. I have a Master's degree and a lot of potential, I just feel like I am in a rut. Does anyone have any advice for me? How can I cope at work when I feel like I am constantly under a microscope? I am constantly thinking about suicide but I don't want to do it. I fear God's judgment too much and wouldn't want my kids to be without a father. Thanks for your help.

[Otherside]

Hi, and welcome. A lot of here also struggle with depression and anxiety issues. One thing though to be aware of though is that with anxiety (and trust me, I am really not criticizing here, ask around here and a lot of us will have stories like this. Heck, I do. I once convinced myself a friend hated me because I missed a phone call and she looked at me oddly earlier that day.) you can sometimes take things the wrong way. It make be that your bosses hate you. Or it may be that when you speak to them, they're stressed, having a busy day, etc etc. And that is what a lot of us on here struggle with on here.

[Chantellabella]

Hi and welcome to the forum. I've been where you seem to be and it's not fun. Do you have a support system? Especially with your depression and suicidal thoughts?

[Skippy]

Sounds like it's a tough time....hang in there.
and welcome!

[Ironman]

Hi, Mrs.Peaceseeker!