I had been wondering why people who used to be my friends at my last place of employment just stopped talking to me. I had someone who I thought was a friend just tell me to "get over it" and that she and others refuse to "take sides."
They all think I left solely because I "didn't get along with my supervisor." They were manipulated by her co-dependent victim [BEEP] and were forced to take sides. Now no one wants to even talk to me.
They don't even know that I quit to protect the kids.
They don't care.
I am once again the bad guy in a situation.
How the hell is this possible?
It hurts. It really hurts. I worked my [BEEP] off for the past 5 years and to just be told "get over it" and "go away" by people who I thought were friends.
I really hate life. I hate relationships. I hate even making friends or even thinking I have friends. I hate it all.
This world is so stupid.
Why does this world have to hurt so much?
I emailed this person who I thought was a friend because I wanted to just see if possibly a rumor or something had started over at the library. I've been worried that I was being bad-mouthed by the library to potential employers.
I also wanted to just ask why my friends seemed to suddenly no longer be friends with me.
I was told by one to just forgive and let it go. Forgive what? She is assuming the situation and doesn't even know why I left. She said she likes the supervisor. I never asked her to take sides. I never even mentioned why I left the job. In essence, she took a side already - took the side of believing whatever that woman said to her.
I really hate co-dependents who manipulate everyone around them. She convinced the director that I was [BEEP] and now the people who I thought were friends.
How could my life have gotten so screwed up within 3 months? Was I supposed to just take the bullying? Stay silent while I watched this person scream at the teens or break child protection laws and fire code laws? Is that what God is trying to tell me? That I should just bow down and take it all and stay silent?
I not only lost a job, a career, a home, and cats. I've lost friends. People who I thought were friends. People who I've known for over 5 years.
It hurts. It hurts big time.
I hate this life.