Well, I finally did it.
I was feeling like super crap today (more than usual), and I did an admittedly irresponsible thing and called in "sick" to work. Not to mention that there's a heck of a snowstorm going on here in Boston and I'm NOT driving in that.
My boss called me later and asked what was the matter with me. She had the nerve to say that I've been really "off" for the past couple of months and that it's noticeable and I've gotten to be "less productive."
So I finally gave in and said, as politely as I could, something along the lines of "You know what? I'll admit that I did a stupid thing and everyone here is upset with me, but frankly I don't think it was fair for me to lose my promotion AND have my position given away to someone else." I had been the manager in my department since March but after a certain fiasco I was moved to Assistant Manager and some adolescent jerk got my job. Not that I'm a heck of a lot older than he is but still.
My boss asked what I wanted to do and I said I was going to leave for "personal reasons." And I did.
Quitting work definitely has made me feel better as far as that specific issue was concerned, but I'm still depressed and extremely pissed off and angry but I'm not entirely sure why. I've been drinking too which isn't like me. I've gone into extra therapy sessions lately but it's costing me and I don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to afford it if I'm unemployed. Looks like I'm going to have to rely on my parents :/
Sorry if I went off on a bit of an angry rant there, I'm just not sure how to deal with myself right now, since I'm happy I finally grew a pair and quit that @#$% job, but on the flip side, there's a ton of crap on my mind that is driving me insane. Not to mention that I need to start job hunting again. Should I just be happy I got that out of the way and stop bitching or should I try to solve all my other issues as well? I honestly feel like I'll never be happy again![]()