So I decided I couldn't stand to live on campus at college anymore.
I'm sick of being teased and bullied, and I'm sick of having anxiety that I can't find proper coping skills for. And I need to get away from alcohol.
I'm going to drive to school every day and continue to take classes, but I dropped a business class because my anxiety is getting the better of me and I can't deal with all the presentations and written work. Plus I do have a full-time job on my plate as well.
I moved home today. I called my mom first and told her, and she told me she was "extremely disappointed" that I'd make "such a dumb decision."
Well, I was clearly upset but I acted reasonable. I started to unpack my stuff and she refused to help me. My father threw a sh*t-fit about me dropping the business class and told me I was immature and irresponsible.
My brother laughed his slimy little high school student [BEEP] off at me throughout our entire dinner, and my parents gave me the silent treatment but did nothing to address his behavior. He's always been the favored one anyway, and my parents only seem to be proud of me when I'm pursuing something THEY want me to be pursuing. I really don't have any interest in business management. I want to be a film director or a professional dancer. They like my brother because he wants to do something boring with his life.
But my parents are so goshdarn Catholic and old-fashioned that any sort of career in the arts is a joke to them. They want me "where the money is."
This is so unfair. I have to get up at 8AM for work tomorrow and I don't think I'm going to come home after. I think I'm going to pay whatever I can manage to stay in a hotel for the weekend and then try going home after school on Monday. I already withdrew from housing so I can't go back to my dorm. I'm pretty sure my roommate let his girlfriend take over my side of the room anyway.
What do I do now?!
/Keddy