right tomorrow night I've got the option of sleeping round at matty's (my boyfriends) house which doesn't happen often, however we might be staying round at his dads house.
The last time i did i had horrendous panic attacks and was a complete wreck. I was anxious and near mute all night before and after attack even when his dad was no where near me at the time (upstairs in bed). i don't know why but I've always been on edge when his dads around, again typical for me there's no reason for this.
his dads a quiet guy who is really laid back. I've probably only met him a handful of times (as matty's parents are devoiced) but each time I've been really really edgy and nervous around him even though he's done nothing to warrant this. some people put me on edge first couple of times I meet them eg my manager from work, however I've dated matty 3 years now and I know hes a nice guy, one of the blokes really chilled out. I shouldn't be scared of him at all and yet I am. even now i can feel myself dreading it if I do decide one of the options. so what should i do, go and see matty stay round at his dads house confronting my fear/anxiety or do I say I cant go and avoid it this time ?? really stuck on this