I can't stand any of this anymore. I can't stand anyone at all, mostly myself, but others as well. I want to go get help right now, but if I go out and someone throws one of those trite little nuggets of bullshit at me, I'll go completely berserk on them.
I have so much rage building inside me, I can't breathe and my heart is going wild. Nothing ever helps at all, this is so damn pointless and beyond frustrating; it's infuriating and insufferable.
I don't know why I'm posting this, the only place I can discuss this is on a forum where nobody is in a position to help; everyone has their own problems. Nobody could help face-to-face either, I'm completely broken beyond repair and it's just a matter of time before it spills oout everywhere.
Hi, I hope that you are feeling better. I think that you need help, but unfortunately you did pick a place with a bunch of people who have varied problems all caused by our own insecurities. I've been depressed and it was such a dismal place, I don't wish it on anyone. I'm not a doctor nor am I any kind of expert on depression, but I kind of think that you some serious kind of help.
Despite all that, your kind of off beat sense of humor comes through. I've had social anxiety or been extremely quiet and shy all my life. Sometimes I've been better almost functioning fully well. Yet, I somehow think I've lost so much confidence and self acceptance during the 9 years I became a stay at home Mom. Right now it's a constant struggle to keep pushing through and doing the things I have to even when I'd prefer to stay home and hide out. Donna