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    Toronto bound, an apology, and other stuff.

    Heyy Y'all....

    A fun thing is coming for me! But first I feel I need to say somethin'

    I know I've been an asshole lately. I've hurt a lot of people in some rather unexplained bouts of anger that's due to not just my injuries from the
    recent accident, but a bit of past.

    My memory still hasn't been too great, but I saw somethin' that really caught my eye when I looked back on some stuff.
    This is what my dear friend Nick wrote to me on a card:

    "Despite everything you've been thru in life, somehow you have managed to be one of the friendliest, happiest
    people I've even known, and I know this incident can't change that"

    He knows that can't change? That really got me. I don't know why I had become so angry.
    I.....I was the happy guy....right...?

    So I'm sorry not just to people here, but anyone I have hurt......and I have hurt some people. I remember an offline event where I was angrily yelling at Wenda for some reason when she only asked for help and she cried....and now those words from Nick echo in my head making me feel incredibly sad.

    I didn't mean to hurt anyone...I'm not a bad guy.....I'm just exhausted. It's going to still be some time until I'm back to myself.
    I wanna become that guy Nick spoke of again.

    As for the event I just described, I'll take her out and buy her something nice to make her happy.

    I have also booked a flight to Toronto for the 23rd. I'll go to the place I grew up n' go to the CNE with people I knew from there.
    It will be looooots of fun and I think I need that, rather than being stuck in a bed all day every day, cuz that sure ain't helping me heal.

    I'm gonna rest in Toronto for awhile, then I'm gonna make everythin' all better.

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    You've been unwell. Don't be too hard on yourself.

    I hope you feel better soon. Enjoy your time in Toronto.
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    I'm aware I don't know you that well, however I whole heartedly agree with what's been said. You've been through a traumatic event, it's understandable that you won't be "yourself". You needn't be so hard on yourself. Saying that, I know all too well how easy it is to be that way so don't feel bad for that either.

    It sounds to me like a nice break will do you the world of good. Just remember, we're here for you.

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    I second what everyone else has said. After what you've been through lately, it's understandable that you've been outta sorts. I'm sure your friend will forgive you.

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    Have a good time in Toronto!

    I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. -- Maya Angelou

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    Don't worry, I'll be ok.

    Just said what needed to be said.
    Just gotta get back up to that point I used to be and that means making changes

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    Hey, I can't think of anything that needed an apology, but it's pretty brave to make amends. It's cleansing, huh?

    I'm very proud of you in a ton of ways.

    Have a safe journey and I hope this will be the beginning of something really great.
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    Hey, I can't think of anything that needed an apology, but it's pretty brave to make amends. It's cleansing, huh?

    I'm very proud of you in a ton of ways.

    Have a safe journey and I hope this will be the beginning of something really great.
    Oohhhhh there deffo was.....offline mostly lol

    I really hope it is the beginning of something great.....I have some plans n stuff for the fall, maybe somethin' good will come of it all.

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