I've already posted about this several times on other threads, but I was hoping for some support so I'll post again.
This is a really complicated story, but last week I found out my insurance will not cover my Viibryd. Starting two weeks ago. I had to pay out of pocket for a short supply and my doctor's office called to say they sent in an Rx for Lexapro 10mg. I was NOT confident that I could just stop taking 40mg of Viibryd and start a totally different SSRI and be cool, but the nurse I spoke to on the phone had an attitude like, "Yeah, idiot, it's fine." I had enough Viibryd to last a few more days so I decided not to switch to Lexapro until my 4day weekend just in case I felt a little funny.
Well I felt more than a little funny. I had full on serotonin withdrawal syndrome. It turns out 10mg is the starting dose for Lexapro. The Viibryd I was on also started at 10mg, but I was built up to 40mg. So basically the Lexapro is doing [BEEP] all for my serotonin levels right now. I'm past the brain zaps, the vivid nightmares, the terrifying anxiety out of nowhere, the confusion and poor orientation to reality. Right now I am just incredibly depressed. Every movement takes so much effort. I can hardly get myself to move from the bed to the couch.
What's worse is that I have been home alone basically the entire time. On Thurs Tim went to Thanksgiving, snowblowed the whole driveway (we have a very large driveway so that was 3+ hours) plus several paths in the yard, complained about how tired he was, then fell asleep on the couch. Yesterday he left in the early afternoon for his friend's to play video games and work on his car and he wasn't back until after midnight. Today he left first thing to get his tires changed, went shopping, came home to eat lunch, and his friend showed up to help chop wood. They will be out in the woods all night. He knows I've been going through withdrawals and I'm super depressed but he just says "I can't help it, it has to be done." He is supposed to be home tomorrow, but I don't even want to be around him right now because I'm just hurting. Especially because I didn't know he planned on spending the whole weekend with his friend. Even if I was fine I'd be at least a little pissed.....
So basically I have been home alone crying in the dark nonstop for the last 3 days. And it sucks.