Let alone disappears. Reading here and everywhere else online as well as in real life I've noticed something; nobody ever has a real success story when it comes to recovering from crippling anxiety. The closest thing to a success story usually consists of someone blathering on about how much better they are, then proceeding to discuss all the ridiculous coping mechanisms they have to use every second of their life just to function at all. It really never gets better to the point where it's worthwhile, it's always a bleak, awful struggle with no hope of relief or certainly not happiness.