You don't need to feel like an outcast here. Sure, we're all very different from each other, but we all "get" each other on some level and there's a lot of mutual respect and support here.Blushy
And you can always, always talk to me.
The Awkward Conversationalist
You don't need to feel like an outcast here. Sure, we're all very different from each other, but we all "get" each other on some level and there's a lot of mutual respect and support here.
And you can always, always talk to me.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
I can totally relate. Probably why this is the only forum I go to now. Strangely enough the rest can cause stress and stress is kinda bad for me right now.
killer of conversations
FWIW, I would totally go with you! Not really my thing, but I like to take any excuse I can get to get out of the house and it would be cool to hang out with you.
I've had a lot of those moments today. It's a huge struggle sometimes. I think it's important to be forgiving to ourselves. We will always be way more harsh on ourselves than anybody else. The goals I set for myself are often unattainable, and so I end up being disappointed. Slowly learning to set smaller goals.
You're making awesome progress, but these kinds of things are understandably still going to be overwhelming to think about. My unemployed [BEEP] would know >.<. I understand the frustration of not being qualified for anything. If you're anything like me, you over-think things to the point where there's no room left in your head for any positivity or optimism. I'm not wired to "go with the flow" and just see where life takes me, so it takes a lot of practice so squash the incessant negative thoughts. Focusing on your successes is a a great idea! Maybe write them down in a notebook and whenever you feel a wave of depression and whatnot coming on, remind yourself of all the things you've accomplished.
The Awkward Conversationalist
Feeling dissociated and I'm possibly a cutting risk right now but I have to work tomorrow morning... I don't know what to do
I'm just going to keep talking to Roman and see if we can go to sleep now. That might help.
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot
Habitual Failure
I'm sick of being a failure, no matter what I do at this point, I feel it's too late. I'm too damaged, even on a "good" day I have a damaging level of anxiety and cortisol production. It's caused and is causing physiological changes and damage, every part of my body is stressed out and not functioning properly. No relaxation technique ever works, only drugging myself reduces the stress temporarily and well, that's not very healthy either. I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. If I don't medicate myself then I'm either panicking to the point where I just have to hide from the world or on a "good" day I can do a few minor things and just suffer through it all with stress-induced damage to my worthless body. If I do medicate myself, I still never accomplish much and I damage my organs with the drugs. I should spare myself the misery and jump off of a fucking mountain, but I'm too much of a coward to even do that. I must be a serious masochist to bother staying alive; I must enjoy suffering because that's all I'll ever do in life.
I can definitely relate. I don't seem to fit in anywhere, no matter if it's a forum, or a club, or even among others regardless of the context. I'm pretty much rejected from most in the outside world, so I come on forums and the like in attempts to fit in somewhere, but to no avail.
Blah, today was fairly uneventful. Better luck tomorrow, maybe.
I feel lonely as hell right now...
I don't know how to be a good friend. Scratch that - I know how, it's just so difficult to follow through with. I want to give up on making friends. I don't deserve friends.
I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. -- Maya Angelou
I'm deteriorating from loneliness, I want to vomit at the thought of returning to Van next week, and I feel like a fish out of water.
Called in sick again. I hate how weak I am.
I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. -- Maya Angelou
People suck
Diggin' My Potatoes
Many things are bothering me at the moment and have been for a while.
Indeed.People suck
“Scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist.” — George Carlin
"If it's true that our species is alone in the universe, then I'd have to say the universe aimed rather low and settled for very little." — George Carlin
Been slowly learning I can't have nice things...
I don't want to go out of my way to harm myself, but if an 'accident' happened, I surely wouldn't mind.
I feel so alone.
Habitual Failure
You're a person and you don't suck.People suck
Well, I'm not 100% sure you're a person, you may be a sentient artificial intelligence program that admins the forums, but if you really are a person then you most certainly don't suck!
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