Yes. You probably remember I posted about my former support workers a lot and I talked about how I got arrested. Well, sadly, there has been no improvement there. I've never stopped talking about the women for over a year now as I feel so agitated about them and then last week, I saw the assistant director at her office. Then I was arrested a few days later for copying one of the two ladies I am banned from working with, into an email.

Now, I have what is called bail, meaning while a court matter is still going on, I am not being remanded in a prison. Well, I have to be back in court soon. I met up with this Cathy person more than a week ago, as she is sort of like the assistant boss. She told me I am due a lot of rent money, but my rent was paid for me via the Edinburgh Council because I have autism and I was in a supported flat until July of last year when I was remanded in jail and have been bailed to live with my family for almost 8 months.

One of these 'seniors' at the flat was supposed to inform the council regarding the court stuff, so they knew I would potentially be going back at some point, but nobody did this. It was probably deliberate. I'm not sure.

When I saw Cathy, she explained the debt issues and asked me to sign away my lease, but all I did was write it on a plain piece of paper, so that is nothing official. Then I emailed her saying I didn't want to lose my flat, but she ignored everything I said and just responded with a comment that she agreed with my 'decision' to sign away my flat with immediate effect, when I already said I'd changed my mind.

My mother thinks she was just waiting for the right time to toss me out as she probably wanted to have evicted me. She knows I am obsessed in a major way with her workers, but I have tried to plead my case for a long time that I only wanted to redeem myself. I feel like I have lost everything dear to me. No matter what, those workers were special to me and all of this just feels wrong.