Random Thought of the Day

[Heelsbythebridge]

I start off my morning with a half-hearted goal to not drink, and by midday, I already need a glass of wine. I think being employed fulltime is a contributor to my health problems. I don't know what to do with this information. Should I take a sabbatical, would I just return to old habits when I rejoin the workforce eventually?

[Nyctophilia]

Oh Doja Cat is kind of hot? I never really paid attention to her lol. I just seem to remember a bunch of people tweeting about her because she's problematic or something. I think it's more her music videos though. I mean I'm pretty tired right now so I'll probably change my mind later. I like that she trolls the people who think she's a satanic/reptilian etc lol. Yeah I'm very late.



^ part of this track is really reminding me of something else but I can't quite think what. Oh right yeah Azealia Banks. I see someone had similar thoughts.

Oh Ashnikko co-wrote that track? That actually makes a lot of sense lol.





^ Also of course Grimes is in this video lol.

Oh she covered Celebrity Skin cool:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7JEyMDyGZ8

[Heelsbythebridge]

My ability to recover from drinking despite being in my 30s is a double-edged sword. If I was punished with hangover effects, I might avoid the drinking... but I barely feel anything after a few hours.

[Heelsbythebridge]

We gotta do what matters. What do you remember from 1 year ago, 2 years ago, 3 years ago? 10 years ago?

[Doseone]

I'm wondering what the world would be like if everyone followed Jainism.

[Otherside]

Gone to Spain, its warmer outside than the UK, light jacket weather, but oh my god the houses are absolutley freezing and there's no heating in here.

...I mean I suppose that for the majority of the year its absolute boiling, so houses being built to be cool year round is probably by design. Similar to how UK builds houses with all of this insulation in attempt to keep heat in and then there is those few weeks in the summer where you practically live in an oven

Edit - Er, I'm in normal Spain, not the parts of Spain with the British Immigrants, I mean "expats" who generally refuse to integrate and just make little enclaves.

[Heelsbythebridge]

You know, F this. Why are we alive? We probably just spend 95% of our lives waiting for the 5% that make life worth living.

Am I overrating life? You tell me! Is it actually 1%? So you suffer through 361-362 days every year for the 3-4 that make you smile? Worth remembering? Seriously F all of this, why bother living then?

[Heelsbythebridge]

Does anyone have a real friend here on this site?

[Heelsbythebridge]

I'm 30, and I haven't met a single person in life so far who could relate to how I feel not having parents. Everyone has a mom and dad. Those words disgust me, I've hated my parents since I could remember - just finding them repugnant and hating them every moment I was around them.

They will never see or speak to their daughter ever again! I hope it was worth it. May they die terrified and alone in a sterile hospital bed, like they made me feel for 2 decades and counting.

Does everyone else really just have that great a relationship with their parents? I can't fathom what that could be like.

[Doseone]

Does anyone have a real friend here on this site?

No, but I haven't really tried to make friends here.

[Otherside]

So, is "able to glare suspiciously" a requirement for a job at Passport Control?

[Nyctophilia]

There's been a bunch of discourse lately about AI women. On one side there are a lot of women like: 'you're losers real men like actual women. Enjoy your AI women in your mum's basement' 'this is creepy' etc, and then the weird misogynist men who are threatening women with this and implying 'it's over for women.' And gloating that 'this will make women revert to traditional behaviour to appeal to men.'

You guys are all weird. I'm just sitting here with my faceapp genderbent DC/Marvel/famous musicians. (it's just an extension of the arguments about sex robots but yeah.)

Then non-binary and transmasc people decided to join in 😌 so we get surreal shitposting as well even when they're being critical:

pretty sure someone has said this before but all these men falling for very obvious uncanny valley AI girls really has convinced me that those folk tales where a man falls in love with what is very obviously a demon lady would 100% happen in real life today

The surreality of AI creations is part of the appeal honestly. They never look quite right and in some cases vaguely creepy but it adds to the appeal. As always though, I prefer 'genderbent' guys to like the really conventional feminine 'male gaze' women creations they're circulating around. My sexuality is fluid though so (pedantically attempts to account for times where I have.) Even then though I don't think those images that are being retweeted over and over would appeal much. Like the neotenic and/or exaggerated anime characters I'm not really into. I mean there's the transcendental kind of attraction and then there's 'this sexually aroused me at some point.'

guy who's just walked into a spooky hut and seen a beautiful naked woman sitting on a pile of bones and her hands are covered in blood and the air smells like rotting flesh: whoa haha booba

to be clear i would also 100% try to [BEEP] the hot monster lady but i'm doing that BECAUSE she's a monster not because i think she's an actual normal human lady

i'm not fucking the weird AI ladies i'm trying to [BEEP] a 500 year old forest spirit queen

Someone I follow quote retweeted that first tweet with the following:

Men don't want women men want to be devoured by a Creature of the Woods. The monsterfuckers among us are just more honest about this natural biological drive.

Anyway time for some cursed knowledge: the impossible beauty standards for women that are clearly unnatural are based off of the tells of the Creatures of the Woods' disguises, as they cannot quite get 'human' right facial markings, hairlessness, etc.

That again is part of the appeal of AI stuff actually lol (imo.)

This is why so many men get so weird about makeup. There ARE creatures who look like that all the time, and it's imprinted in them to seek them out as children lost in the Wood, but finding one as an adult inevitably leads to their demise.

Anyway the only reason I know all this is because I was captured by one for like a day and it turns out they're super transphobic??? Apparently they only eat men because 'women taste bad' and she told me to come back after I had 'the surgery' !!

I was about to argue with her that HRT is going to effect flavor most but I think I passed out and some like search party member found me and took me to the hospital. Apparently a week of 'real time' had passed and I was super dehydrated and hallucinating, Idfk.

Everyone's stories always involve woods/forests lol... Obviously related to the origin myth. (no lol but it's funny. Well they might have been inspired by that story since it's so similar or something inspired by that myth. I used to write similar stories about androgynous plant-elves capturing Human men, and only discovered that myth a month ago myself but it's fairly basic symbolism I guess like fairies etc.)

Trans guys/non-binary people: ^ [essay about the creatures in the woods and monsters.]

cis guys:

I think you?re overthinking it with demon ladies. We used to crash boats into rocks because we thought manatees were beautiful mermaids beckoning us closer.

Wait what book is that from? Because back when I actually read books I read Memoirs of a Geisha and can't remember that now. Yeah it is from that book.

A lot of overlapping vibes with faeries. Though with AI stuff it'll be dudes signing over their paychecks rather than aging 30 years in a day.

Normies lol:

straight men would rather [redacted] to images of nightmarish, AI generated porn than respect women

Men being attracted to this is why we have stories of vaguely human-like Things luring men into the woods with their looks to eat them.
This is so genuinely unsettling to me it?s hard to put into words.

Those AI girls are on some uncanny valley [BEEP] and I dont like it at all. Yall lusting over them dont deserve the touch of a woman but yall do need therapy.

What about nightmares and respecting women?

Ethel Cain's music is interesting and pretty good though some the vocals of some tracks sound a lot like Lana Del Rey and Cigarettes After Sex. In combination with the kind of slurred/deadness of a lot of Gen Z music (like Billie Eilish or mumble rap.) And the soundcloud rap-ish parts (edit: I mean some of the sounds in the music are similar and also to witch house and other e-genres, not that there's any rapping lol.) I have mixed feelings about that. This has nothing to do with the rest of this post but as you do.



This video is secretly an advert for camo jackets lol.

lmao she pinned this comment.

This crackhead makes beautiful music

Some of her music sounds a bit like Chelsea Wolfe too (I think it's partly the doomy guitars):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-VmFiiDedU0

I like the Southern Gothic aesthetic she usesbut the true-crime concept of her debut album is really heavy/dark and depressing so probably not going to listen to all of it together I dunno. (Also Fear no Plague and Crush aren't from that album btw they're from some EP's she released.)

Like Pornography (the song) but that feels more dissociated and abstract which makes it less difficult to listen to (emotionally.) I dunno it's probably more an aesthetic thing though. There's a kind of haunted/The Lovely Bones vibe to Preacher's Daughter with the video clips etc and that it's being sung from Ethel's pov.

[Nyctophilia]

Another day, another terfs insisting that trans women are grooming young afab trans people to transition thereby making them look like prebuscent children forever apparently (let's ignore that most trans men don't stay looking that young on testosterone, and that cis women often look young for their age/neotenic as well.) Maybe not just young people someone seemed to post something random about someone in prison deciding to transition because of a trans woman but their tweet was vague and made no sense. Then also pointing out that even when well into adulthood being attracted to trans men is just 'legal grooming.'



And - I know it's fucking amazing - just because someone has two x chromosomes and a [BEEP] doesn't make them incapable of making decisions for themselves and having their own desires.

It's very clever to try and pit trans masc people against trans women via feminism which has always encouraged genetic females to feel weak/oppressed/like victims but guess what. I never liked that about feminism either even before coming out as non-binary.

Even some of the most sexist men (but that's the least of their issue lol mostly out and out fascists,) will usually turn around and blame feminine/androgynous men for what they see as issues in society. Something like this tweet I just found (fell down a rabbit hole after stumbling on that dumb trollish Hellenist account again.) They're presently and always freaking out about feeling coerced to eat bugs as well lol.

Think this might be the best description of that Hellenist account lol (that account didn't post the tweet I'm thinking of many far right accounts dislike him because he's troll-y):

By far the LARPiest account I’ve ever encountered…

> Nietzschean Hellenist

You’re just another Mojave crack head dude.

Guys like Alan Moore and that twitter account I came across recently - Paul Duane prove that it is possible to be masculine and esoteric/paganish without being a complete alt-right grifting troll about it on social media. Of course it helps that Alan Moore isn't on social media in the first place.

“When the internet first became a thing,” he says, “I made the decision that this doesn’t sound like anything that I need. I had a feeling that there might be another shoe to drop – and regarding this technology, as it turned out, there was an Imelda Marcos wardrobe full of shoes to drop. I felt that if society was going to morph into a massive social experiment, then it might be a good idea if there was somebody outside the petri dish.” He makes do, instead, with an internet-savvy assistant: “He can bring me pornography, cute pictures of cats and abusive messages from people.”

[Nyctophilia]

LOL

Grimes blocking Alice Glass on Twitter and it not even making the indie gossip sites makes me wonder why we bothered having 2008-2015 in the first place.

There?s no pithy way to say ?the sections of pitchfork and Stereogum etc that cover, like, Kanye vs. Humanity or Jack White Goes to a Sporting Event.?

Well (musically speaking,) the answer is Witch House music I guess? Halsey? I dunno. Badlands was pretty good and she's a decent lyricist so. Kind of started mainstream 'Tumblr Music'



Feels like she released this for the film Drive lol but like years too late.

i remember the week this mv was released in 2015 when i was 12. the 2014 tumblr era was so long ago, i feel old 😭

loool I was 24 when that was released please.


Thinking of people who came about during that time instead of people who had been around for a long time before that just releasing new music. Light Asylum were good but that's not a new genre/scene it's building off the goth/post-punk scene and new genres is what you kind of want right but I said this before you need new instruments to get real innovation so.

I am struggling off the top of my head to think of something that blew my socks off in this time period. Being older makes it harder but still. The Glitch Mob's debut album was pretty good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKKL6oMEsiU

God Is an Astronaut but they started earlier again in the 2000s. I think my favourite tracks were on Age of the Fifth Sun (2010,) though. I listened to that a ton when I was in uni during the brief period when I used Spotify before they started charging for it or something and then maybe stopped charging many years later (I don't keep up with it I dunno, when I used it had a ad based monetisation thing,) but I never bothered to go back to Spotify. It's very inspirational/space sounding.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXLAAAa-XYg

Kind of reminds me of the Facebook Robot Unicorn Attack game too lol since I'd sometimes listen while playing that.

Anyway RE: blocking Elon Musk blocked Grimes again these people block people for seemingly no reason all the time lol. At this point it doesn't mean anything really.

[Nyctophilia]

The twitter transphobes have really ramped up the bigotry lately. Obviously a lot of twats were let back on after Elon bought it, but even people who were never banned like Matt Walsh are just casually retweeting young trans people and saying they sound like aliens and other dehumanising shit. There's this account that pretty much just reposts trans people to take the piss out of them and all these cvnts follow that account and retweet them from time to time.

"Trans people never sound masculine."

Cope harder lol:



At any rate most of what he attributes to sounding like an alien is essentially just the same vocal mannerisms that feminine cis gay men have. A lot of the trans guys who talk like that are also attracted to men. Some cis guys also have fairly high pitched voices like Ben Shapiro. Why are you insulting your bro like that and saying he doesn't sound like his own sex? Jordan Peterson sounds like Kermit the frog but he's still a man. Tumblr and 4chan said frog man rights.

Never mind his incompetence made me take what he said for granted and I assumed they must be a binary trans guy, the person he's retweeting is non-binary anyway lol. Ah I don't know if I even care aliens > Human trash like Matt Walsh lol.

They're kind of talking about this person like they're a teenager too but I found their tiktok account and they're 24 lol. Typical.

They didn't use they pronouns but I'm going to since I don't know what they use and transphobes are usually purposefully misgendering people so.

Some questions asked why they look feminine still, their goal is to be non-binary. They intend to grow their hair long but some days wants to present masculine and other days feminine. They're also showed off growing facial hair on T.

WHY THE [BEEP] NOT ANYWAY THOUGH?

Literally though what they retweeted is someone on tiktok showing that they can talk really high pitched and also really low and showing how their voice changed over time, and saying 'it's nice having a range I'm really enjoying it.' Like really happy and these absolute assholes are just like 'they ruined their voice.' How fucked do you have to be to just see someone expressing happiness and be like 'Nope. This doesn't conform to what I want. They'll regret this [please regret it I must be proven right REEEE.]

And Matt Walsh still needs to be forced to watch an anime show like he promised.

edit: On that note today he's calling for mass executions of thousands of doctors but 'he'll settle for them being locked up in prison'