Random Thought of the Day

[Nyctophilia]

I probably (definitely,) need to stop psychoanalysing everything I do. Not even in an insecure/post-mortem sense most of the time more like I'm examining myself under a microscope scientifically the same way I do everything. But anyway it's interesting... Posting gifs of attractive people on tumblr and then there's this one person who I noticed before who kept posting this person and I found their tags amusing before (I don't think that's quite the emotion or there are multiple, maybe like 面白い, dunno,) and also they kind of helped my own fantasising.

#I wanna braid his hair and hold his little waist

#I wanna hold him in my lap and kiss him

Like 'oh yeah that's a cute idea' (plus I already had a weird thing about the idea of chair sex from years ago lol...)

So I just noticed they stumbled on the gifs I posted and reblogged them with a bunch of tags.

#oh my god#beautiful princess baby angel#I want to cuddle him and give him forehead kisses

I've thought about this sort of thing before. It is quite interesting. Like where does the urge to talk about/share stuff about attractive people come from? And also this 2 steps removed sexual thing. But it's also platonic like just enjoying that your post got a reaction (and the good thing about tumblr is you can kind of read responses without it feeling like a direct interaction because of the way tags work when you're reblogging stuff.)

I think the motivation to share stuff isn't just that though for me personally. It's also just that I like sharing and talking about anything I'm really interested in (even with myself in pseudo-journal form,) and that includes people I find attractive lol.

Uh it's definitely something I could see being an issue irl. I've annoyed people by repeatedly talking about stuff/people before in the past. (I'm a bit more suppressed irl though than online. Plus there's the social anxiety.) Also the girl I mentioned in another post who I became obsessed with before when I was 13 who I didn't talk to (she talked to my brother at one point. He knew lots of people and was infamous in school as being weird or something? I don't think this bothered him though and he actively played into this image. But to the point I was often known as his sibling and strangers would express sympathy for me that we were related which was always really fucking weird to me lol as we'd always been close it's like someone I knew at uni who introduced himself to me by saying 'you seem like the most normal person here' he didn't keep that opinion later 😂 but I digress so yeah can't remember how they knew each other, and also she knew someone else I hung out with from some music thing so was talking to her while we were in the library.) I ended up talking about her on one occasion at home. Can't really remember what I said now or anything, but I remember my dad found it weird.

Perhaps a more interesting interaction actually happened on twitter lol. I've posted some images of femme Loki before, and then one of my mutuals responded a few times

she's just like me fr 😍

i love when you post genderbent Loki cause i kinda look like that and get gender euphoria 😂

But here's a more explicit example of this since what I'm talking about is fairly mild/pg-13/cutesy stuff and I don't often connect with people closely unlike below:

There was this fanfic I was reading a while ago (18+) where the author was talking to someone in their comment section who reads their work. I can't remember now exactly what was said but I think they said something like they thought of this person while writing the fic and they hoped they'd enjoy it. It's interesting cause you're sort of creating stuff that turns other people on. Sometimes like in this case purposefully. Not for money either lol because it's all free. I guess that's why academics have kind of viewed a lot of online fandom porn stuff through a pseudo-queer lens. (I mean the person who reblogged the stuff I posted on tumblr uses they/them pronouns as well lol actually...)

Oh and then there's the even more obvious thing where people just role play as characters or other people they find attractive with each other online. I never really got into that but I remember people posting requests etc back on livejournal in the day.

This paper I think maybe touches on the surreal virtualised aspect of this sort of thing but is specifically talking about fujoshi stuff (so m/m romance and I think Japanese fandoms too,) but I think this applies to most fandom stuff as well where there's a community/collaborative thing. I feel like there was something else I was reading that went into this that wasn't this too but I dunno:

Fujoshi: Fantasy Play and Transgressive Intimacy among "Rotten Girls" in Contemporary Japan. Author: Patrick W. Galbraith

Fans produce works not only for personal pleasure but also to share them, facilitate interaction, and bridge a shared imaginary.

One of the most recognizable features of the pursuit of moe is the transformation of objects into objects of desire. Otaku turn animals, machines, and even men of historical significance into beautiful young girls to trigger moe (Galbraith 2009). Similarly, fujoshi can rearticulate anything into a beautiful boy who can then be placed with other beautiful boys in yaoi relationships. Moe characters can be based on a written description or drawn image, a physical person, or even anthropomorphized animals, plants, and objects.

😀 lol yes been there.

In a more specific example from the field, Hachi, Megumi, and Tomo were walking home from a comic market. Inspired by the doujinshi they had seen, they started debating whether or not a submissive bottom acting in a self-destructive way out of love for a top might be moe. Tomo was at first skeptical. Hachi impulsively decided to use her surroundings as an illustration of the coupling: "Is this road moe? See, it's virgin, freshly paved, but is doing its best with the cars on top. What if he was trying so hard to please his lover?" Megumi chimed in, The road is a loser submissive in love with one particular car, the top, who is an insensitive pleasure seeker. In order to win his love, the road agreed to be his sex slave and is now being broken in by the top?s clients." Tomo seemed convinced---by the creativity if not the concept---and joined Megumi and Hachi in laughter and a chorus of "moe, moe, moe." The fantasy effectively reenchanted their world, adding a layer of potential to the mundane (the very ground under their feet!) and making the familiar other and exciting.

Yeah that's reminding me of this lol (as you go down the list you get more anthropomorphisations of objects and the penguins etc):

Fujoshi are devoted to exposing and exploring transgressive intimacy in their fiction and art, and among themselves. Some of my informants, even those with boyfriends, described themselves as lesbians.9 My informants generally imposed temporal and spatial limits on their contact--they often "do not want to know" one another, as one informant frankly told me, outside of their shared experiences as fujoshi, which tends to focus discussions and interactions on yaoi.

footnote: While there certainly are lesbian fujoshi, and while not wanting to deny my informants their sexual agency, I should point out that it seemed to me that they were using the term "lesbian" not to indicate a sexual orientation but rather to mean "deeply intimate with members of the same sex." This sort of intimacy, or special friendship, at girls' schools is not historically unique (Pflugfelder 2005).

Intimacy among fujoshi is characterized by playful surface interaction. At the most basic level, when the interaction occurs online, it is a construct between the user physically sitting in front of the computer and the other imagined beyond the screen (a flat viewing surface mediating interactions with a fujoshi partner who is not deeply engaged, talking about supposedly "meaningless" fantasy). Philosopher Azuma Hiroki uses the metaphor of the screen to describe the nature of late-stage capitalism as "hyperflatness" (Azuma 2009, 102). Drawing on Jean-Francois Lyotard and Jean Baudrillard, Azuma theorizes that the grand narrative has broken down, leaving only fragmentary moments of sensual pleasure obsessively reproduced in a flat world without meaning, since meaning was generated by the grand narrative. This goes a long way toward explaining fan fiction and art, but it fails to explain the sociality and intimacy of sharing these moments of pleasure or sensual intensity

Lol imagine fitting Baudrillard, 'late stage capitalism' and French philosophy into this.

This other paper goes more into Western stuff and Tumblr a bit (Tumblr does make collaboration easier that's how you get weird memes like that fake Scorsese Mafia movie):

https://opencommons.uconn.edu/cgi/vi...rhonors_theses

Interacting on Tumblr is certainly a primary mode of discourse in fandom. When users reblog a Tumblr post, they can add to the original post, and their addition appears beneath it. This format often lends itself to communal writing and brainstorming.

Because Tumblr acts as a space in which writers and readers bounce ideas off of each other, brainstorm headcanons, and build off of each other?s short fictions, certain ideas will originate in Tumblr discussion that become very influential in fic. On AO3 a popular tag is "based on a Tumblr post." Writers may be more specific by providing a link to the specific post that they are referencing, or they may choose to not to.

Fanfiction is a space in which women create a complex online world with other women: discussing fan theories and interpretations, creating art and fiction for one another as gifts or
based on one another's prompts, commenting on work with praise and encouragement, and forming friendships by connecting on one another's blogs. And yet for many women this is a secret life. Characteristic of Rich's lesbian continuum is that women live a "double-life:" on one hand performing a prescribed role of womanhood within relationships with men and socially in a larger male-dominated society, and on the other developing a rich inner life of connection with other women (659). Fanfiction is largely denigrated as one of the most shameful fannish efforts. For this reason, many women are not eager to share in their everyday lives that they read or write fanfiction. What follows is a creation of an open secret among women in an online space.

This is unrelated but interesting:

There is one person who regularly comments on my fic. He's a military guy in his fifties or sixties. And I was like 'Oh?okay. Interesting.' So I started easing in lesbian, bisexual, and then trans characters, thinking people who had no exposure to that are going to get to learn He wrote me this really long comment thanking me. He said one of his grandchildren's friends is trans and he's trying to understand it. Now he's trying to get the kid's parents to read it so they could understand. I thought, 'I'm helping this kid that I don't even know.' I felt so justified in everything I was doing.

So in that sense I guess it really does/can function as cultural detournement even among demographics you wouldn't expect to consume fanfiction etc.

Reminds me of this recent Kanye article. I know this is partly because of his personality type + mental health issues. But it is kind of sad/insane lol that all it took for him to change his mind was watching 21 Jump Street. But I see similar stuff happen with other people too..:

Kanye West has changed his tune on Jewish people just a few months removed from his anti-Semitic rants across several platforms. Apparently, all it took was watching 21 Jump Street starring Jonah Hill.

"Watching Jonah Hill in 21 Jump street made me like Jewish people again," the 45-year-old wrote in an Instagram caption accompanying the 2012 film's poster on Saturday (March 25). "No one should take anger against one or two individuals and transform that into hatred towards millions of innocent people."

[Otherside]

The controversial opinion on plane travel(apparently).

- The point to me standing up and rushing to the queue to board is because I don't want to check my bag in. The last time I checked my bag in, it didn't return with me from Florida. Yes, British Airways eventually did get it back to me a week later. Also, it takes a stupid amount of time for bags to make there way to baggage reclaim.
- Yes, I could "sit comfortably" and wait to be the last one off the plane. After which I get to stand not so comfortably at Passport Control, behind about a hundred people, none of whom appear to be able to use the egates. Or God forbid, actually having to deal with a human to get through, at which point, spend several hours because you end up behind a bunch of people who border force have decided are suspicious and so are being interrogated at great length about the purpose of there visit to the UK and having to show receipts. And no, it's not rude to stand up on planes in the UK, I don't do this in countries where it is. But that's why I do it here.
- And for its worth, Ryanair, German Ryanair telling us its not Ryanair, and Hungarian Ryanair in denial aren't comfy, it's like sitting on balsa wood for four hours with no leg room and in front of a hen do who've spent the entire flight drinking whiskey.

[Heelsbythebridge]

I don't get why this is stressful

Yesterday, yes.

But this... is another chance to exorcise the third demon

[Heelsbythebridge]

I... just saw history being made again

I'm going to remember this weekend for a while

Please don't let this come only once every 2 decades

[Nyctophilia]

Something that just occurred to me is there are some trans people on twitter (and other sites,) who will complain that non-binary people fetishise them. Mostly trans women complaining. I think I've seen trans guys do this too but seems less common. Also they mostly complain about afab non-binary people (use the term 'theyfab' a bunch to avoid ambiguity about genetic sex lol.) Also talk about how 'theyfabs' are chasers etc.

Subreddits with /tttt/ people (4chan board,) complain a lot about afab non-binary people (think they coined the term theyfab in the first place,) I think that's because those subreddits are sort of transmed and trans women there envy non-binary afab people for feminine traits (weirdly more than cis women ????) They don't like trans women who transition young either so I suppose it's a similar thing.

[T***** saying that being called a t***** isn't as hurtful as being told that they have bad teeth.] I didn't know who she was and legit thought that she was a theyfab because that they looked AFAB. I hate youngshits.

Not even 'I thought she was a cis woman' lmfao no. 'Thought she was theyfab'

I see theyfab people.

The only honorary theyfab is Grimes. I lol hard at how more than any other celebrity she's been externally invented by the audience and media but tbf she's played into it a bunch. I think she said she's 'female-ish' once and that she doesn't care about pronouns. She also used to complain a lot about being infantilised.

No he doesn't. The parent of his kids, Grimes, is non-binary, and goes by they/them.

and i also think it's weird af that "grimes" is non-binary but the girl behind grimes (claire boucher) is cis like wtf even is that

i can't believe grimes, a non-binary person is willing to put up with a transphobic boyfriend and just throw her identity out the window bc he's a billionaire

Important to note that Elon's ex, Grimes, is non-binary & started dating [redacted] after they split, and Elon's trans daughter disowned him and he openly doesn't give a shit

Grimes is also non-binary iirc

They're still doing this lol. It's still happening on twitter every week at least. She's never come out as being non-binary.

not to mention the mother, Grimes, is also non-binary

Oh yes at one point she mentioned that she doesn't really like the word mother/mum etc, and that one of her kids just instinctively calls her by her first name. Dunno if she still feels that way but that makes this tweet more ironic because no she hasn't said she's non-binary. Yes she does seem to have social dysphoria.

1. Somebody do research before tweeting this repeatedly.
2. You have to imagine at this point (especially as she's worked with non-binary people like Ashnikko and Dorian Electra,) that there's a reason she hasn't come out as non-binary.

Lol I just noticed that a transfemme person said Grimes is non-binary in response to a tweet I actually posted defending her because people were saying she makes music for cis women who steal trans women's style 🤣 'and she's non-binary so why are people implying she's not.' I have notifications turned off for people I don't follow so didn't even notice at the time just saw while looking up tweets. Honestly I think it's hopeless at this point that's why I say she's an honorary ţ̸̥̳̺͍̠̖͎̰͒͠ḩ̸͕̻͓̱̺̤̺͖̠͉̪̎̽̈́̆̒́͑͑̍̀̀͜e̵͂̈́͌̄̀̀ ̏̈́̎ ̙̼̺̯̩̑̍̊̕̚͜͠y̶̨̟͈͎̪̹͑͂̔͘͜f̷̡̰̠̔̈́̂̍͆̋͗̌̾́͌̇̄a̶͛ ̉́̅͂ ̨̣͎͎̳̃͜b̴̞͖̺̠͈̱͒̈̋̌̔̐̓́͊̆͛̚

(imo some trans women stole her aesthetic - if anything - as she was famously doing it first, and also they just have mutual influences like anime.)



I think she deleted this because it wasn't just Elon and Grimes involved but someone who explicitly didn't want to talk about their personal life. Also I think Elon's breakdown is mostly because one of his kid's came out as trans but still. I'm bad so it's funny. I think their relationship was always open and not exactly committed and monogamous, and they're still friends. Plus they have kids together. She publicly called him out online once and funnily enough what he said then isn't as bad as what he's done/said since. He's leant into the reactionary thing increasingly hard.

I do almost feel bad for this trans guy below though (except he's misgendering non-binary people, casually insulting the trans woman's appearance and other 4chan shit,) because I can picture these people and most progressives and LGBT+ people hate men lol (but with a lot of these posts there's a possibility they're making [BEEP] up):

https://i.imgur.com/aHJRyNb.png

Paraphrasing in quotes because too much insulting 4chan speak (and this post in general has too much LGBT speak but whatever lol):

Going to uni for computer science at some garbage school.

OK for my safety i will ask my uni accomodation to put me with other trans people

[2 non-binary people and one trans woman who doesn't pass]

ok whatever they're probably fine people.

Week later

basically living with 3 women

they are friends with a bunch of women, always random she/theys and lesbians over

all of them are men haters

they joke i'm a discord mod/incel/whatever

i'm so alienated from them because i'm just a little man

Lol at uni I just lived with 5 guys at one point. In my first year I lived with a few guys and women mixed flat. Didn't think about that much but I knew I didn't want to live in an all female flat all female spaces freak me out a bit. There was a guy I never saw in the flat I lived in because he was even more avoidant/shy than me I think, and then he moved out eventually and someone asked me about that and I had to admit I'd never actually met the guy. Definitely had some crappy experiences at times in my first year but that will happen in shared uni accommodation. I was only questioning in uni though and I'd think you'd have to worry more if you're on hrt as it will draw more negative attention.

Don't get me started on the blackhole that is 4chan and it's spin off communities though lol. Oh that's several essays in itself.

Back to the point if I look on twitter I'll predictably only find tweets about people complaining about the complaining lmfao but this has been something I've stumbled on many times without looking. It's also unclear considering everything if they're talking about someone 'chasing theyfabs' or a 'theyfab who is a chaser.' Because people confuse trans women and afab non-binary people a lot.

where are all these "theyfab chasers" again? oh you just run into them all the time? next time can u give them my number 🙂

people in melb complain about them all the time and im just like. i have encountered maybe one person like that and they weren't even weird they just clearly had a thing for trans women

I think by melb they must mean Melbourne? (That's was google tells me otherwise no idea.) I'm not really going to dispute this fact... It's certainly not everyone but a bunch of us have certain sexual preferences. edit: also I am really weird lol.

None of the above is what interests me though.

I was thinking I see a similar complaint a lot about bisexual women too. There's this weird thing on social media where people will often complain that bisexual women fetishise lesbians. This is actually even more common than the non-binary complaint.

yeah rt something and the thing that tweet was commenting on had some very biphobic comments in the thread and one mentioned how bi women "fetishise the concept of a wlw relationship" or something stupid like that. like okay. last time i checked...bi women ARE wlw

I do imo, but I'm somewhat not a bisexual woman. I fetishise almost everything. I'm literally just the joker now 'I'm tired of pretending it's not hot/romantic.' lesbians, long hair, glasses, edit: I forgot geeks but I forgot a lot of things this isn't an exhaustive list, trans women, androgynous guys, women wearing short skirts with no underwear, dark green as a colour, this outfit especially the top it's green, it's translucent, it's shimmery. So many boxes ticked. I think currently I'm kind of fetishising the 70s. An entire decade. My abilities cannot be underestimated.

Does she know....



Some kind of witch... (positive.) She uploaded this days after this occured to me hahaha. I think she probably just knows about Ethel Cain lol plus it fit the theme of the video so a coincidence.

Oh wait I forgot about this lol. Deleted a lot of good tweets lol.

If you're only into feminine women but date masculine men all the time you're probably fetishising lesbians

Edit: honestly this tweet is just hilarious. It's funnier than some comedy.



Meaningless twitter discourse that seems to exist for the sake of it. I know what they're talking about though they don't like it when women are attracted to male gaze stuff in media. Oh well. Who isn't at some point? Fearing contamination. I think... To be fair this particular argument comes from the fear of being predatory so they want to distance their sexuality from men.

What gaze is Taylor Swift? asking for a friend.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-ORhEE9VVg

I'm also going to need a rock album now:



Tbf some lesbians complain that almost everyone is fetishising them. Bisexual women, straight women, trans women, cis men. But I do feel like in a lot of ways people view non-binary afab people similarly to bisexual women. Sort of like how they view trans women in a similar way to how cis lesbians used to be viewed (as predators,) only bisexual women are still largely viewed the same way as they've always been (attention seeking narcissists who will end up with a guy in the end and are fetishsising lesbians note there's a difference between the complaints about fetishisation I think and the mass fearmongering that cis lesbians and trans women get. The fetishisation complaint is mostly intracommunity not a moral panic from outsiders so I'm making a distinction there,) and there has been more progress in the way cis lesbians are viewed compared to in the 80s/90s. I also think this lack of social progress/stability in the bisexual community (what community? Exactly,) is part of why so many (men and women,) are mentally ill, stuck in abusive relationships, on drugs etc compared to homosexual people.

And yeah amab non-binary people are often ignored and erased in a similar way to bisexual men and they're seen as trans women or cis men (also similar to cis men being viewed as gay or straight but not bisexual.) So they then get discriminated against in similar ways and usually seen as a predator if they're not closeted and especially if they don't pass and aren't perceived as an feminine gay guy.

And I watch you write
You're still saying nothing
Nothing at all

Two modern minds won't say they what they want to~




This song is so good. (And always relevant lol.)

Current A E S T H E T I C goals is 80s revival and white face masks (again,) but fetishising 70s lol.



r/voidpunk lol. Nobody on that subreddit has posted about this band I looked before because between their weird Human statue thing and the fact they have a song called 'Noise of the Void' it seemed like a natural fit.



Fashwave/statue pfp twitter wishes they could.

Are you a Grimes n̶o̶n̶-̶b̶i̶n̶a̶r̶y̶ theyfab or a Drab Majesty n̶o̶n̶-̶b̶i̶n̶a̶r̶y̶ theyfab? The two genders. Men and women? No don't be silly. Those aren't genders. Thinking about it this is actually a combination of both of those aesthetics somehow lmfao:

you've trained my brain to see the moustache even when it's not there.

Yeah what it's like an optical illusion.

Their comments section is of course a mess thought it was interesting that that guy in his 50s brought up bisexuals since they do as I pointed out get similar shit.

Dorian made me be okay with the fact I?m non-binary and im going to the event this Wednesday and im ready to scream this song

They misgender them so I'm replacing pronouns:

they're a woman

Why are you even here when it's apparent you hold disdain for Dorian's self-expression? Whatever you believe, this is one of the most exciting directions in pop music.

I just dont believe in this gender fluid [BEEP] but as far as aesthetic goes I like their stuff. Yes it's possible to be freaky like this and not believe you are half male. In the end all of their artistic stuff has been directed by one thing; their unique female brain

I'm sure this neuroscientist examined Dorian's brain. (here's an uncomfortable truth a lot of trans and homosexual people have androgynous brains before hrt. After hrt even more do because of side effects, along with autistic people. Potentially other groups. I've looked into this a bit but could do more research.) Where to even begin though. Your constant emphasis on genetic sex or genitals is irrelevant and counterproductive here. A lot of artists are inspired by androgyny even if they don't identify as non-binary and also motivated by breaking down and blending categories/boundaries. What a fucking stupid thing to even post on a music video lol. Everything else is fine but god forbid you call yourself a man or half man 'You went too far. You can't cross this line' lol. A bold strategy.

One doesn't have to believe in gender non-binary expression for it to exist. I am a mid-50s Southern cis man, and I don't necessarily understand being non-binary, but that's because it's not my experience. I'm not bisexual, either, but I understand there are many who identify as such. Is it our place to question how one feels? The cost to me in respecting another's identity is nil.

This response to the 'they're a woman' guy cracked me up:

ok liberal

Very hard to get into their music. Always hit and miss for me. Sometimes I have to listen a while. Got to respect how they made basic pumpkin spice girl (tm) a sinister transgressive thing:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLnVLo6uxqo

I know you're all very busing inventing the genders, but I posted a new video uwu

It's true actually. I personally invented trans people on my tumblr in 2016. That includes all trans people before 2016 too. I trans'd them too using my time device.



To stop shitposting for a moment though I don't know when I first learnt about trans people but it definitely wasn't on tumblr and to say trans people were invented on tumblr when people have been medically transitioning for like a hundred years or over a hundred years possibly is really dumb. I didn't even learn about the label non-binary on tumblr I think it was either YouTube (QueerAsCat maybe,) or the AVEN forum.

Public Universal Friend was born in 1752.

After suffering a severe illness in 1776, the Friend claimed to have died and been reanimated as a genderless evangelist named the Public Universal Friend, and afterward shunned both birth name and gendered pronouns.

Right wingers online love to keep yelling 1776.

Footage of the January 6 Capitol insurrection revealed hundreds of references to 1776 in signs and in speeches, on t-shirts and hats and stickers. '1776' was chanted in the Capitol halls by leading figures within the so-called alt-right, including some who had also participated in the racist riot in Charlottesville, Virginia, and by those who believed themselves participants in the dawn of the next American revolution. The Proud Boys, too, cite this date; they sell their merch through a store called 1776.

That's how great their power level is from beyond the grave. No lol think it has something to do with the declaration of independence.

Somehow I've never seen this music video before. I really liked the Weird Al Yankovich parody + video as a teenager. I've heard the original song just never saw the video:



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOfZLb33uCg

Unironically I guess. People having knife fights and getting stabbed to death near my back garden. And the shopping centre. And local colleges/uni. It's not that bad here and I consider myself lucky (so I don't want to do what I'm doing here,) but I have known/currently know many people who have been in prison, or beaten up by strangers, or mugged/robbed sometimes multiple times. Multiple male family members have been in the armed forces. I was part of some government program called Aim Higher when I was in school lol so you can get an idea. This has since been scrapped. I was the second person in my extended family to go to uni following my mum who went just before I did as an older student so she could get a teaching degree and earn more money at work. I failed at life completely but I did graduate from a low ranked university so it's something (it's nothing.) I get annoyed by the implication that every non-binary or trans person is from an upper middle class background. Then this is used as some kind of argument (when some statistics show a third of trans people are living in poverty.) The illuminati or something. 'Oh I see you like these things aesthetically and adopt these artsy aesthetics. And you have a high IQ (which somehow started at 94 when I was 11 and then switched to 119 make it make sense,) and so you are upper class. If you just grew up in hell. *Some dumb quote about hard times creating strong men.*' Have you considered that actually some people grew up in hell and couldn't hack it and decided 'nah. I'll do my own thing.'

There's a lot of stupid ideas floating around about where certain 'ideas' started.

Leslie Feinberg (September 1, 1949 ? November 15, 2014) was an American butch lesbian, transgender activist, communist,[1] and author.[2][3][4][5] Feinberg authored Stone Butch Blues in 1993.[6][7][8] Her writing, notably Stone Butch Blues and her pioneering non-fiction book Transgender Warriors (1996), laid the groundwork for much of the terminology and awareness around gender studies and was instrumental in bringing these issues to a more mainstream audience.[3][4][9][10]

Feinberg was born in Kansas City, Missouri and raised in Buffalo, New York in a working-class, Jewish family. At fourteen years old, she began work at a display sign shop at a local department store. Feinberg eventually dropped out of Bennett High School, though she officially received a diploma. Feinberg began frequenting gay bars in Buffalo and primarily worked in low-wage and temporary jobs, including washing dishes, cleaning cargo ships, working as an ASL interpreter, inputting medical data, and working at a PVC pipe factory and a book bindery.[11][12]

You know while venting.

[Nyctophilia]

Social media summary: Planned killing of antisocial individuals occurs only in humans, and helps to explain why we have prosocial tendencies.

Unlike other vertebrates, humans (Homo sapiens) have long been considered to be more cooperative and prosocial than expected from theories of kin selection or mutualism. [...] I call such evolved propensities 'groupishness', characterised as a tendency to cooperate and be prosocial in ways that appear to transcend genetic self-interest. Groupishness in humans includes spontaneously helping unrelated group members, having a social conscience, accepting and enforcing a moral code, conforming to group norms, sharing resources, and being concerned about fairness and reputation. In this paper I suggest that the evolution of human groupishness was strongly influenced by a unique human ability, targeted conspiratorial killing.

Evidence that the most recent evolutionary phase of human self-domestication started with H. sapiens, whereas earlier Pleistocene Homo species showed no signs of a self-domestication syndrome, suggests that the period shortly before 300,000 years ago marked the beginnings of intensified selection against reactive aggression. Subsequent acceleration of gracilisation trends from archaic to modern H. sapiens suggests that self-domestication has continued to the present at an increasing rate. A critical question therefore is: what happened before 300,000 years ago that would explain why reactive aggression was selected against much more strongly than previously?

Based on Boehm's execution hypothesis, the answer might seem to be that this was the first time that human ancestors developed an ability to safely kill alpha males. While I will argue that this answer is correct, it is also inadequate because other species are also known to kill adults in their own group. The problem is particularly severe for chimpanzees because, according to Boehm (Reference Boehm2018 ), chimpanzees have a human-like capacity to remove a disliked despotic male by killing him. Boehm reported that in chimpanzees and humans 'bullies are singled out for lethal attacks' [by coalitions] (Boehm, Reference Boehm2018, p. 693). Therefore, 'It is very likely that our chimpanzee-like ape ancestors ganged up on disliked individuals to temporarily or permanently eliminate them from the group' (Boehm, Reference Boehm, Muller, Wrangham and Pilbeam2017, p. 763).

Those claims might be taken to suggest that there is no important difference between the propensities of chimpanzees and humans to kill an alpha male. Yet domineering behaviour is an invariable feature of alpha male chimpanzees, so it has not been reduced in that species as it has in humans. This suggested to Boehm (Reference Boehm, Muller, Wrangham and Pilbeam2017, p. 769) that there is a feature of human coalitions that makes them into 'a special, social selection force'. The critical question can therefore be reformulated: do differences in the nature of within-group killing of adults explain why, by 300,000 years ago, reactive aggression was selected against in humans but not in chimpanzees?

Second, chimpanzee within-group killings maintain the alpha-male role, whereas human within-group killings eliminate it. Chimpanzee attacks are typically led by individuals who are defending their alpha status or attempting to acquire it. Other members of a coalition conform to a 'winner-support' strategy (Nishida et al., Reference Nishida, Hosaka, Nakamura and Hamai1995). In humans living in small-scale, acephalous societies, in contrast, executions are levelling mechanisms: they are used to stop anyone from behaving despotically.

https://www.cambridge.org/core/journ...31A5426A1D1577

Actually thinking about this again just spitballing really but another reason why this may not have occurred so much in chimpanzees is because (I assume) female chimpanzees don't work to eliminate or 'fix' alpha males but Human females seem to have unique tactics they use to do this. So then you get groups of guys who work together to eliminate them but you also get women who do the same.

Obviously there's the widespread hatred of guys like Andrew Tate mostly from women but there are also cases where hold up-

A fighter loyal to Taylor in 1990. "Witch Doctor" spiritual advisers told gunmen that wigs gave them special protection.

Few things exemplify the chaos of Liberia more than the sight of doped-up, AK-47-wielding 15-year-olds roaming the streets decked out in fright wigs and tattered wedding gowns.

Right OK.

According to the soldiers themselves, cross-dressing is a military mind game, a tactic that instills fear in their rivals.

Depressingly this is accurate. Ben Shapiro and horror fiction writers alike are having a meltdown. And JK Rowling of course.

It also makes the soldiers feel more invincible. This belief is founded on a regional superstition which holds that soldiers can "confuse the enemy?s bullets" by assuming two identities simultaneously.

The cross-dressing "dual identity" isn't just a source of battlefield bravado, though. Cross-dressing has deep historical roots in West African rites-of-passage rituals involving "medicine men" who would recommend wearing masks, talismans, and bush attire as a means of obtaining mystical powers. Rebels dressed in gowns and wigs and adorned with bones, leaves, and other "forest culture" trappings are practicing a modern variation on this technique of using symbolic "clothing" to access sources of power far stronger than their own.

It's true but in a very narrow field. I successfully 'predicted' Vol'jin becoming warchief of the Horde and Pandarens a playable race. You know. In Azeroth. And arguably Jordan Peterson lol. 2/3 of these predictions occured while I had hair dyed unnatural colours lol. IT'S A SIGN.

A soldier dressed in women's clothes or Halloween masks, or shower caps, etc. on the battlefield is essentially asserting that he's in a volatile in-between state. The message it sends to other soldiers is, "Don't mess with me, I'm dangerous."

Anyway not what I was looking for lol. This:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Women_...tion_for_Peace

In 2003 during the Second Liberian Civil War, Women of Liberia Mass Action for Peace forced a meeting with President Charles Taylor and extracted a promise from him to attend peace talks in Ghana[6] to negotiate with the rebels from Liberians United for Reconciliation and Democracy and Movement for Democracy in Liberia. A delegation of Liberian women went to Ghana to continue to apply pressure on the warring factions during the peace process.[7]

Two hundred women surrounded the room, dressed in white, dominating the conversation. Any time the negotiators tried to leave, the women threatened to take off all of their clothes. Enclosed in the room with the women, the men would try to jump out of the windows to escape their talk. But the women persisted, staging a sit in outside of the Presidential Palace. They blocked all the doors and windows and prevented anyone from leaving the peace talks without a resolution.

The women of Liberia became a political force against violence and against their government. Their actions brought about an agreement during the stalled peace talks. As a result, the women were able to achieve peace in Liberia after a 14-year civil war and later helped bring to power the country's first female head of state, Ellen Johnson Sirleaf.[7] When President Ellen Sirleaf first came into office, she made women's rights one of her priorities. Her administration focused on the condition of women in Liberia and their needs.[8]

edit:

Tangentially related. Twitter is now some guy from Dubai trying to sell 'I can help you get rich if you pay me' content bragging about how he's slept with 572 women by the age of 23 while standing in front of a sports car and flexing his muscles to advertise 'services,' and then promptly deleting the tweet after shoeonhead retweets him and insults his dick.

And I feel like this kind of sums up twitter in general fairly well yeah.

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blake lively's dress inspired by the oxidation process of the statue of liberty was the moment

Huh that's a really cool idea. I always loved the oxidised copper effect. Especially in inbetween states. I used to take loads of pictures of stuff like that lol.

I was trying to find some examples by looking through old photos but couldn't (kind of gave up,) and then clicked on some random video file which ended up being one where I was hanging out with my ex and a friend when we were drinking at my flat where they just got me to record them play fighting over I can't remember the initial reason lol something involving a shoe. Wish I had more context tbh.

Ex: 'Are you recording?'

me: yeah

Ex: OK

Friend: 'This is just to prove that [x] can't hit me in the shoe'

me: 'Hit you in the shoe what part of your body is that?'

[sometime later]

friend: 'do you surrender otherwise I'm going to hug you. Do you want a hug!?'

Ex: 'I can't see what's going on

Me: 'Do you have my pillow on your head?'

Friend: 'No, no [x's] dead ... I can't make him see'

me: 'Oh my God. I'm filming all of this btw.'

Friend: 'I know'

Friend: 'Do you give up yet? Then we can go to Mosh. Do you want to go to Mosh?'

Ex: 'If you want'

Friend: 'let's go then.'

😂

(Mosh is some rock/metal club. I think it's actually a nightclub chain so there are a few around.)

This is pretty funny and bittersweet cause I wouldn't want to get back to that relationship and it didn't end well but it was a fun time in general. Yeah I don't know why but using people I know/knew's names feels weird.

Oh yeah I vaguely remember taking a bunch of photos of them hugging too lol.

And it's weird right because this is a fairly new thing. Well I guess not people used to film stuff sometimes, but people started filming themselves and people they know a lot more in the 2010s so you get this surreal window to the past.

Found this old drawing too. I think I drew this from a photo I found online somewhere.

https://i.imgur.com/BoCENsj.png

You know everything except what I was looking for.

I know within the last few years I got some footage of this pipe that's under the house here that looked cool. Dunno if I can find that.

Yeah I always thought that the Tate Modern building had the vibe of a concentration camp with the chimney and style. (Just found some video where I was walking past it lol.)

Fucking video of a peacock in a park where is it lol?

Oh finally found them:



And it was glittery because of the crystallisation but I'm too lazy to gif the video I took plus it's not the best quality unfortunately.

[Heelsbythebridge]

The vibes are immaculate

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They're completely tearing this YouTuber apart (there's a subreddit created specifically to discuss her as well, and someone doxxed her and started contacting her extended family members who she's not in contact with to tell them about her channel, reaction channels started commenting about her etc,) and imo a lot of this is coming from the fact that they decided to start making vlogs in addition to their regular content (regular content was uncontroversial and largely disconnected from their personality.) They have mental health issues too and their life is kind of messy so that was all kind of exposed and regardless of what people say about supporting mentally ill people if they see that level of vulnerability from you, they will attack you especially when you reach a certain number of subscribers. Or if you're earning a living from YouTube, because most people are envious of YouTubers. A lot of the negativity is about her earning money too. Not talking about someone who is getting rich from YouTube either, just someone who it's the equivalent to a low paid job lol.

One person in particular I noticed had this intense hatred/obsession that was kind of I dunno how to describe it but it reminded me of my stalker before and you know the girl I grew up with. Psychopaths. A lot of them are losers by society's standards too though so that's the sad part. Like they're projecting the self hatred they internalised from society onto others. The whole concept of 'a real job' etc.

At one point she was posting videos everyday as well and obviously very upset and that's a big no no as well. They will eat you alive. Sooner or later though it will happen to most people who are in entertainment.

Yeah this song doesn't really work just popped into my head lol. I miss this era of YouTube tbh.



Content wise this sort of thing still exists (like Jazz Emu,) but that's not even the point at this point. There weren't so many transparent communities of psychopathic/angry people back then.

But imo part of what YouTubers and like onlyfans sex workers etc exist to do is to absorb all the excess hatred from the problems of capitalism and modernity. I think Grimes openly admitted that she gets that that's her role lol. To be a punching bag for people struggling under capitalism. Something like that when she was talking to Hasan and also on twitter at some point. She'd actually just accepted that. "Which is fine. I'm ready to be there."







I love them so much.

The best bands either sound great or even better live.

True this is the case with Steven Wilson (almost: when he switched up the live performance of Index after the first tour I didn't care for it as much,) every time somehow lol. I always listen to that one Raider II recording over the studio version.

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Lol the bio at 1:50 (and it says he's looking for friends haha but they still have to be sexually attractive. Yeah I'm sure he's looking for friends lol.) Imagine having a bio of everything you don't want, nothing about what you do want, and nothing about yourself lol. Nothing about your interests. Just a bunch of political signalling. Also specifying snake/dragon tattoos specifically is funny. I wonder who he's met who has them or maybe just a general symbolism thing. Jordan Peterson hates dragons too and snakes are usually associated with various negative personality traits and the Genesis storyline.

I surprised someone on another forum when they saw my photo because at the time I'd stopped dying my hair. I don't have tattoos. I'm slim, short, bookish looking. Had long hair in the photo. Haha but I have all these political beliefs, and personality traits and I'm non-binary and quite aggressive online. I find this very entertaining. They told me they assumed I'd have a bunch of piercings and dyed hair and other predictions based on my username + post style.

😏

Tbf though I look this way out of laziness and being very stuck in my head. Also clothes etc cost money (neglecting things like appearance. When I was a young teenager I didn't wash my hair very often so it took other people commenting on that before I got into the habit.) Ideally I'd present more alternatively (have done in the past,) and also have an industrial piercing (I haven't gotten one because there's a high rate of infection + healing time I believe and I don't like going to hairdressers etc so I cut my own hair due to social anxiety same with going to get piercings though when I got my lobes pierced it didn't take long tbf.)

There's a very fascinating phenomenon where certain guys online will complain about women with dyed hair and piercings (flamboyant appearance basically,) and post memes to compare it to aposematism in amphibians and point out that it's them signalling that they're toxic but in actuality aposematism (a word that is annoyingly easy to confuse with apostasism which is probably not a word but would be related to apostasy if it was,) is used to ward off predators. Or perhaps a vulnerable narcissist?

Aposematism is the advertising by an animal to potential predators that it is not worth attacking or eating.[1] This unprofitability may consist of any defenses which make the prey difficult to kill and eat, such as toxicity, venom, foul taste or smell, sharp spines, or aggressive nature. These advertising signals may take the form of conspicuous coloration, sounds, odours,[2] or other perceivable characteristics. Aposematic signals are beneficial for both predator and prey, since both avoid potential harm.

Humans are (debatably) apex predators though. And despite 4chan and tumblr not amphibians lol. It's also not gender specific and seems to serve several different purposes. Criminals often have tattoos, soldiers run around with pink wigs, punk rockers dye their hair, people who want to be edgy, people who want to signal left wing political beliefs, people who want to signal they're non-conformist (only works when it's less common,) people who want to signal they're creative, people who want to signal they're bisexual, people who want to signal they're non-binary, people who like anime a lot, people who just like colours a lot. Etc. And they do this both consciously and unconsciously. I mean when I started dying my hair it hadn't even become a non-binary or political stereotype yet lol and I just thought 'this will look cool.' This was before the internet went fucking insane too so yeah lol.

Lol directly after that

My work crush is 5'2" and chubby. She's cute but not that cute. The kind of girl you crush on because you think you have a chance with her - an easy chance at that. Like you would even put yourself above her. Maybe in the 4-6 range.

If you remove the chubby part because I'm slim that's me haha (my exact height too.) That was definitely my appeal to nerdy guys back when I actually socialised. Also I had a lot of nerdy interests which prob increased appeal. Drove some guys a bit insane (in a bad way. One guy I'd known for a month or so and we'd being hanging out as part of a group with others and we ended up going on one date that I didn't realise was a date due to being a bit naive. Then I realised it was and we kissed at the end of the date, but then it didn't feel right as I walked home, so I told him on facebook when I got back that I just wanted to be friends and he took that kind of badly but got over it in a few days or so. Later I started dating his friend who was part of the same social group and he ended up drinking tons, disappeared so lots of people ended up looking for him. He sent me lots of concerning texts at that point so I was pretty worried. I think said he was going to kill himself. Then he apparently threatened to stab the guy I was dating. It was more sad than threatening though. Then he dropped out of uni and started drinking heavily posting lots of stuff on Facebook. Last I heard he was studying neuroscience.)

Several other examples but I can't lol. I cba. That was the first.

Oh I will go into one because it's so insane lol. There was a guy online. I think he probably had borderline personality disorder undiagnosed or something. Definitely something going on there. So he took a liking to me and started messaging me and at some point I said in a forum post I didn't think it was necessarily a bad thing for 16 year olds to go out with people older it depended on the specific individuals involved (also 16 is legal in the UK.) Obviously this is hugely controversial now but I did post this anyway because I'm retarded. So he completely lost it and decided I was a pedophile apologist and evil and heartless and a psychopath etc. He continued posting passive aggressive stuff about me on the forum which annoyed me so I'd confront him when it was obvious and I'm kind of impulsive and easily pissed off by certain things (like that,) and then I'd get into issues with the mods and the mods told us not to communicate and I can't if someone is doing that and I'm not going to report them because I don't like doing that. I'd prefer to confront them. So it was just a mess. Then he decided - probably because I came out as non-binary (at least I doubt that helped) - that he was going to be transphobic and started posting a bunch of transphobic stuff and insulted other trans people on the forum. Then I posted a photo of myself at some point and he posted something along the lines of 'I don't care if bla bla bla you're so attractive' etc. (But that wasn't his exact wording it came across as him idealising me in a weird way. Like you could see he was splitting.) Then he made a lot of sexist posts about women I don't think he liked stay at home mums and stuff like that. He kept making threads yelling at the mods. I can't remember if he came back to do that after getting banned or not now lol but maybe.

If he was more androgynous looking and less crazy it might have been an interesting relationship because he admitted to having sexual fantasies about being a woman during sex (but with a cis guy so maybe that wouldn't work out.) But also he lived in New York so not really viable.

It's just 'what the [BEEP] is my life?' You know what I mean. 😂

What you want:





What you get (no not 'Chad' the nice guy (tm) complaining about 'Chad' and women dating 'Chad' still quoting from the video):

Well her boyfriend is a successful finance bro making 200k+ He is also an athlete (runs marathons) and has a six pack and nice muscles. He is also a DJ. On top of all that he is super extroverted and is part of many clubs and throws parties and has tons of friends and is always doing SOMETHING.

I can't believe you have to do all of that just to get some mediocre poon. Like I was crushing on her because she wasn't that great and I thought she'd be an easy one. Well I was dead wrong. Average women can get exceptional men with ease these days. it's BS. How do you cope??

I'm a simple man. Don't got the spark for that stuff. I just wanna go to work and come home to a girl and smash. Maybe get burgers/tacos on the weekend? Maybe a few coffees and then plow a couple of times a week?? I'm not trying to be superman the social butterfly. I just want a simple life with a moderately attractive woman but it seems impossible. You gotta be an extroverted chad to get anywhere these days.

'How is this person I see as beneath me exceeding my expectations for them (this is exactly the same issue people have with people who make a living on YouTube btw. A lot of YouTubers aren't conventionally attractive, they're relatable - that's part of the appeal, they have mental health issues, something that makes them less perfect but then somehow they're earning money. And it's not a real job. That's more annoying to people than if someone ticks every box of being a God/Goddess.)

No I know it's because I'm incredibly messed up myself. At least I know I'm fucked up I guess lol.

(and at this point I got bored watching this video and stopped lol.)

edit: yeah I ended up watching the rest and the guy who is really butthurt about women with a lower sex drive who then went on harassing the person who merely pointed out they'd be a bad fit for him because he mentioned it in his bio is familiar to me too. Reminds me of some guy on another website lol. The idea that a woman might not want sex (not just with him but in general,) seemed to be a trigger for him for whatever reason.

That long rant that guy goes into in his bio like 'just because I have a high libido doesn't mean I'm not looking for a serious relationship' Lol. Yeah I always preferred guys who seem relatively disinterested in sex (some fictional characters too.) My second relationship was asexual with someone who had previously expressed confusion about why people wanted sex or something like that on Facebook, and I'm still friends with that guy and he didn't go crazy at any point and is very chill so it was an improvement.

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Undercover police in Nashville were at Hayley Kiyoko's sound check telling her she couldn't have drag performers in her show. She did it anyways. This is blatantly unconstitutional intimidation that goes against the court injunction.

Some US states are getting really fucking weird/authoritarian. Not surprised to hear this is Tennessee the same state where Matt Walsh lives. The same state where Ben Shapiro moved his Daily Wire HQ. The same state where the trans guy shot up a school recently. Not justifying his actions since he killed indiscriminately which is fucked up but Tennessee have all but declared war on sex non conforming people at this point.





Thinking about these tweets lol:

"Maybe being trans isn't about how you feel inside. Maybe it's about going to war with England."

closeted trans men will go to war with England rather than go to therapy

This was actually a response to something about Joan of Arc but it's currently relevant too.

You try and get therapy you're at risk for conversion therapy. It's great in so many places. 😂

No but it's one of the reasons I avoid therapy the other is it just seems too exhausting emotionally to open up to someone irl about personal stuff. I don't like it. I don't trust people etc.

Also related:

When I lived in Arkansas in the 90s....they had a cross dressing law that you had to wear at least one piece of "sex appropriate" clothing or you could be arrested for cross dressing. I honestly had a car load of friends arrested for cross dressing around 1992. They were "stopped for speeding" near a gay bar. That's how they used to try to catch people. Ridiculous!!! People who weren't bothering anyone.

It's weird to think that I just roll out of bed, put on clothes, put no thought into it, it's unisex/masculine clothing. This is fairly normal for genetic females in general regardless of gender identity. I feel like wearing dresses etc is crossdressing for me (that's how it feels, it feels performative.) And that could be randomly policed in certain places.

Realistically though this is mostly to punish/control trans women, gender non-conforming men, and amab non-binary people (any genetically male people who deviate from sex norms in other words.) I think even Ben Shapiro admitted to having somewhat of a double standard on video re masculine presenting women vs masculine presenting men. Femininity is seen as the other and policed and scrutinised a lot more. It's seen as 'for these men' too, and so if they're not attracted to trans women or gender non-conforming men they feel like they should control this expression (some women engage in this behaviour too like Abby Shapiro talking about how she doesn't find men in dresses attractive as an argument against men presenting that way. Nobody cares and you're married lol. Oh they don't conform to your preferences? You don't conform to mine. In my head you're bisexual and you don't have annoying 'conservative' - bigoted - opinions. We don't all get what we want.) That's one half of the thing the other half is that they think all genetic males are an extension of them and so should reflect their own personal desires and preferences and just as often that every guy should be a soldier in their troop or whatever and so feminine men are an outgroup/liability and must be eradicated.

I would like to trebuchet these men into the sun.

Also extremely normal US abortion laws honestly basically body horror:

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/FvPuj6XW...jpg&name=small

Having seen people discuss the difference emotionally between miscarrying early in a pregnancy vs having a premature birth leading to death of the baby and the trauma associated with that no you stupid cunt. (Granted that was a baby they didn't know would die so knowing that your pregnancy is doomed might help a little with not emotionally bonding but then you have the body horror situation of being forced to go through something you know you don't have to by an authoritarian fundamentalist state. It's a fucked up thing to put someone through emotionally but also physically. It's a huge strain on the body.)

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Lol where did she get Dave from? Did she just pick what seems like the most common male name? Everyone in the UK knows a Dave.

but good to know that if I detransition, carry a gun into women's spaces with the intent to murder anyone who seems a bit mannish, she supports me

Lol exactly.

I have felt threatened by unwell people on public transit, I have been verbally abused, I have been masturbated at. But you know what I didn?t do to any of those people? Murder them.

Seeing a lot of comments like "idk have you ever been threatened or afraid on public transit" from men towards women in this discourse and uh

I?m gonna lose it

Honestly never had this happen to me in the UK and the fact crazy [BEEP] seems so common in various parts of the US is a real indictment of several things simultaneously. I had a drunk woman try to talk to me once on a train but she wasn't threatening.

American Right wingers are gloating about the murder of a homeless person by a marine. I'm sure a bunch of them are ironically LARPING as Christians. Larping in all caps because.. I have several issues with Christianity but even I know Jesus wouldn't be cool with that behaviour lol. And of course, remember this when they complain about someone offing their own.

I'm getting pretty close to reading 'Christian' as 'Social Darwinist'

But no part of the details of this case are surprising. Everyone's mentally ill now and vets are deeply fucked up people with oversensitive threat perception, because of what the system did to them. That's why I'll always be against hegemonic masculinity and fascism.

the doors between the subway cars are portals to hell

I always thought the underground was kind of hellish and creepy actually.

Not actually the most fucked up techno capitalist dystopia news story in recent history. Maybe a month or so ago I read about that guy who was stabbed to death in Vancouver for asking someone to stop vaping in front of his toddler and then some guy recorded the whole thing detachedly for tiktok as it happened. Not as evidence he came over because 'oh my God content'

[Nyctophilia]

Oh OK.

Just drag queens hanging out to music dancing and cheering while that one group of Nazis with the Nazi flags who seems to rock up at every American drag queen event these days wander around in the background. Not sure if I can find this video on YouTube or something. I've seen them before but looking at the one channel that's documented them a bunch of times I can't find it quickly.

Really doing the most every day.



Lol someone else quoted this song's lyrics in response. Exactly though.

It's in Columbus Ohio but I can only find news clips on YT not original footage. This isn't what I was watching either but yeah they're so corny:



Everyone thinks they're feds. Naturally they refute the claim. The feds do do [BEEP] like this moreso they larp online though and I don't think people will ever accept that some people just are that blatant for real.



'ex-marine' you're always going to hear a lot of that.

Dude why are you dressed like you're roleplaying Panic at the Disco?



That's pretty Weimar. Looks like someone will have to find a 'Weimar solution' for you too.

Still amuses me that they were obviously told they had to censor goddamn and chose to censor the word God.



These two songs always remind me of each other. Interestingly the REM song came out first but REM are very 90s. For a band that formed in 1980 lol. But you know Automatic for the People came out in 1992 so that makes sense. REM invented social media lol.




Obviously the best cover:



Pretty sad that I never got to see REM live before they broke up.

edit: Dec 30, 2021 R.E.M. Club Cafe Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, United States

https://www.concertarchives.org/bands/r-e-m

Wait wtf is happening I was informed they broke up in 2011.

I'm so confused. I also almost thought they were touring this year in the UK lol but then realised it was a tribute band. What is the above date in the US though? I don't know why it's saying REM was playing there and if I google there's a Facebook post about some tribute band but It's definitely not them their last tour was in 2008. Not cool man.

I still have to buy a new phone so I can go to a concert because a lot of places are e-tickets only now and I have an old phone that doesn't run any apps I bought back in 2013. Also I've been informed some time next year my phone's wi-fi is going to stop working (I think,) and I mostly use it as a glorified fanfic reading device at this point which I use the internet to do. So I'm being forced basically. But I'll be putting that off until the absolute last minute because I hate researching stuff and I'm probably going to have to get a new sim card and everything as well. I was like [BEEP] I have less months potentially to procrastinate. 😂 But it was just a tribute band.

REM reunion tour is the only thing that will speed up the process. I have to experience this live:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwtdhWltSIg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgiCechWNCo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLxpNiF0YKs

They have the most 'home' sounding music for me probably.

Starting with Nazis and ending with REM yep.

[Nyctophilia]

Stuck on the train at Clapham Common and carriages filling with smoke, doors won't open if it wasn't for workmen on the platform we wouldn't have got out!
@TfL you should be ashamed! The response from station staff was horrific! @SkyNews @BBCNews @itvnews

Hi Jake, thanks for getting in touch and we're sorry for the distress caused at Clapham Common. The London Fire Brigade attended the station and confirmed there was no fire. We are investigating the details of this incident. SW.

Just because there was no fire, doesn't excuse the fact the doors failed to open in what could have been an emergency. 🙄🙄 come on, not everyone can throw themselves out a smashed window

There was no emergency though. You could have all just sat there and waited patiently for the doors to be opened, but instead you opted for criminal damage. I hope TFL can track the Oysters to Names and Addresses.

Lol so they're supposed to be psychic and sit there calmly waiting? That worked out well in Grenfell Tower:

But among survivors there is anger and disbelief that two years on from the fire there is no change in the advice you would be given if your tower block was on fire. Still you would be told to Stay Put.

"There was no emergency" says Tim as the board in the video states 'EMERGENCY Please leave the station immediately'.

😂

When I was 7/8 I stayed over night on this ship in London and everyone there was roleplaying like it's the 1500s at one point they were acting and said something about there being a fire and I was like 0_0 ! They had to calm me down and explain that it was just part of the act and I didn't need to jump off the ship.

No one else reacted. I'm like out of there in 0.2 seconds lol. (I'm fairly sure everyone else understood that was part of their roleplaying thing though.)

I'm pretty sure that guy has to be trolling anyway. I mean people aren't going to [BEEP] around and find out after 2005 You're also told repeatedly to report any suspicious or unattended luggage while you're using the rail system so it's never not on your mind.

Toby Young | Woke Culture HAS Gone Too Far - 3/8 | Oxford Union

Konstantin Kisin: Woke Culture HAS Gone Too Far - 7/8 | Oxford Union

Oh wow it's so good to know Oxford Union is on the same level as social media. (This is a debate that's been split into 8 parts in 8 videos. With 8 speakers? I didn't check all the videos but multiple at least.) We're fucked I guess haha.



No I take the radical viewpoint that woke is a meaningless word. That most people are driven by emotions. That most people have something they're biased about. That most people have certain topics they get irrational about. That people aren't Vulcans no matter how much a group of - mostly male - people want to believe that. I mean I think we've all had a #stoicism #Marcus Aurelius quotes #vulcan phase but then you have to look at how most people are behaving regardless of their political opinions. My brother is not amused btw. I mean for me I was just 23 or whatever and doing a larp thing but he's expressed his disappointment multiple times with the direction of conservatism and some parts of rationalist culture and the like.

Ben Shapiro is so 'woke'

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ej0NBRwht-w

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWsx2iqO1ks

He sounds angry. That's an emotion. Robot voice: emotion detected. Ew. Gross. (90% of the comments are very smug people patting themselves on the back for how clearly logical/rational they all are not like 'woke (tm)' people with their gross girly emotions.' Don't you all have a bunch of Bud Light cans to destroy in a supermarket somewhere because Dylan Mulvaney was in an advert? Little boys.

Terrified of trans women and Lizzo lol.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jiRpFF_SnW4

You can just say that.

That time Ben Shapiro said he felt it was acceptable for a woman to punch her husband if he walked in wearing a dress. Was someone #triggered?

Feeling a little emasculated while simultaneously censored? Oh you don't like this game now? You started it bitches.

Actually it's very Mesopotamian. But opps that's not Western. We repressed and demonised that didn't we? =D

We're so above this. Here in the West. We're elves. Well, the pale skinned men are other men it depends on how much they conform to my superior white heterosexual male personality standards. THE TRANSGENDERS ARE STEALING OUR WOMBS. BLACK MEN ARE STEALING OUR WOMEN. Woah where did that come from almost sounded like a straight why guy losing his [BEEP] and strangely claiming to be anti-woke. No, no ignore my own anger and narcissism. You have to be more logical. You are emotional. You are narcissistic. You are sick. You are broken. You are weak. The Matrix is trying to get me and this photo of fetish porn is a some secret weird Chinese thing. Anonymous troll demons. (edit: this post is so insane lol but it's not as insane if you understand all the things I'm referencing. I mean some of it's from my previous post.)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inanna

Many of her myths involve her taking over the domains of other deities. She was believed to have been given the mes, which represented all positive and negative aspects of civilization, by Enki, the god of wisdom. She was also believed to have taken over the Eanna temple from An, the god of the sky. Alongside her twin brother Utu (later known as Shamash), Inanna was the enforcer of divine justice; she destroyed Mount Ebih for having challenged her authority, unleashed her fury upon the gardener Shukaletuda after he raped her in her sleep, and tracked down the bandit woman Bilulu and killed her in divine retribution for having murdered Dumuzid. In the standard Akkadian version of the Epic of Gilgamesh, Ishtar asks Gilgamesh to become her consort. When he disdainfully refuses, she unleashes the Bull of Heaven, resulting in the death of Enkidu and Gilgamesh's subsequent grapple with his own mortality.

Individuals who went against the traditional gender binary were heavily involved in the cult of Inanna.[51] During Sumerian times, a set of priests known as gala worked in Inanna's temples, where they performed elegies and lamentations.[52] Men who became gala sometimes adopted female names and their songs were composed in the Sumerian eme-sal dialect, which, in literary texts, is normally reserved for the speech of female characters. Some Sumerian proverbs seem to suggest that gala had a reputation for engaging in anal sex with men.[53] During the Akkadian Period, kurgarrū and assinnu were servants of Ishtar who dressed in female clothing and performed war dances in Ishtar's temples.[54] Several Akkadian proverbs seem to suggest that they may have also had homosexual proclivities.[54] Gwendolyn Leick, an anthropologist known for her writings on Mesopotamia, has compared these individuals to the contemporary Indian hijra.[55] In one Akkadian hymn, Ishtar is described as transforming men into women.[56][57]

I forgot someone also merged them lmfao:



(the parallels are scary no? Right down to how straight guys always assumed Lady Gaga was transsexual during the peak of her career and people wrote about Inanna as being androgynous. Nicki Minaj holds a similar cultural position with the same accusations. A lot of related figures are hermaphroditic too in mythology.)

The sexual identity of this goddess is controversial. In one late text, Ishtar says of herself: "I am a woman, I am a man." Ishtar could be viewed as a beautiful goddess of love who rules the day and as a bearded god(dess) of war who rules the night. It is claimed that the androgyny of Inanna/Ishtar provided a powerful symbol of the ambiguities of pure sexuality reflected in her cult, and in the transvestism of her cultic personnel (Groneberg 1986).

gg guys.

It's a little ironic that the YouTuber Sargon of Akkad would hate Inanna because the og Sargon of Akkad was a big fan for some reason. (I somehow know this has to be woke (tm))

Also this Loki video autoplayed after the Thranduil video lmfao:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71P5pWy1EgI

Yeah you get the theme YouTube algo.

Damn it's almost as if he's a grifter spouting nonsense and crying about the 'woke' - which conveniently has just become a word which means 'anything I don't like this second.'

Absolutely. His content is very one sided and biased. Everyone he talks to has the same opinions about several key topics.

My son, aged 30, patronizes me. He tells me about organic foods and carbon footprint and saving the planet.
He is European.
He doesn't realize the I did "all that" when I had the luxury of NOT being a parent to 3 kids. When I was a teenager in the 1980s I spoke down to my father, who had 5 children to feed.
I went on about healthy this and healthy that.
10 years later, poverty stricken with a lousy husband, with a toilet outside and a bucket for my children to bath in, I was grateful for food and wood and medicine.
I was 29 years old and no longer full of woke.
(As if generation z invented it. What a joke.)
I was a mum of 3 and living in a foreign country with a foreign husband. I couldn't speak the language and didn't have friends.
Food. Heat. Medicine.
That was my pyramid.
So many woke kids don't even know what Maslow's hierarchy of needs (pyramid) is.
The west is falling at a rapid rate.
I returned to Africa in 2022 after 30 years in Europe.
I don't want to freeze nor go hungry on the alter of wokeness. I didn't see a doctor since 2019 in the UK.
Came back to Africa, saw a doctor and discovered I have an autoimmune disease which is ravaging my body.
The doctors in the UK hid behind a screen for 2 years.

So much for western civilisation.
Fear riddles them.
Here in Africa we still talk to each other without a screen.
Here in Africa climate change isn't even a topic.
Food.
Heat.
Medicine.
Bringing up their children.
Dreaming of a future for them.

Well said young man.
May you bring some sense to European youngsters.

OK that's great but how the [BEEP] is any of this 'woke' most of this is a complaint about technology and its uses in modern society, the response to the pandemic, and her personal communication issues with her son. This is what people mean when they say it's just a snarl word for anything they dislike.

If you want to say younger generations are more risk averse now just say that instead of inventing some weird all purpose ideological demon boogyman.

Is woke just secular Satan?



To address the arguments in the 'woke' video

1. Most of his argument is very close to being fallacy of relative privation so he could have cut out the bulk of that and just skipped to 8 minutes in or so.

I don't disagree that emphasis on scientific research is important. It often requires funding and not everyone can be a scientist, so I don't think activism and political pushes for awareness are bad. Also how do you know there is a problem if no one talks about it?

2. Why have you and everyone who complain about this lumped several different political topics/groups of people together and called them all woke?

3. You give the impression of someone who doesn't care about the issue or think it's important but are humouring people. 'Hypothetically if I thought climate change mattered' OK so do you think it's important or not outside this debate?

4. Claiming to be a victim isn't unique to a specific political ideology and everyone has some group that hates them.

5. Making points while saying 'I won't make those points tonight.' Lame. 'No offence but' 'I'm just joking' post irony etc.

6. You say the way to change the world is to create but then I see so many anti-woke people complain about creative works as being 'woke' if you dislike the message. 'No don't build that.' Not sure if he's one of those people who does that.

7. Complaining that you're fed up of discussing wokeness. Yeah well, don't then? It's mostly an incoherent discussion so feel free to move on.

8. Argument is overall very vague. Still left wondering what wokeness ultimately is. A general dislike of Western culture? Probably. There's quite a bit of fearmongering before he decides to focus on the environment topic. I'm assuming it's something like 'if men aren't masculine, alpha males from other countries will destroy us.'

Yes that's a problem potentially. Hopefully the women and [BEEP] people in those regions will get on top of that soon.

Godspeed:

https://www.researchgate.net/publica...021_Case_Study

https://www.nbcnews.com/feature/nbc-...-novel-n937941

I'm ambivalent but on the other hand, if people are convinced this works, I can larp along. It is one of my fetishes after all.

I too can be delusional.

'OK well if I have to emasculate and overthrow all the non-Western men so hot people can exist here and you can all finally relax I suppose. 😒'

So much work for someone with probably undiagnosed ADHD and some kind of personality disorder. My brain + nature

This would be a really fun video game idea btw and then it has the added bonus of brainwashing anyone who plays it as I've been told all video games do that.

Unironically though the solution might be to overthrow all despotic and hegemonic males in every culture globally so you can all stop behaving like chimpanzees that have to worry about gorillas. That's a pretty sizeable problem and it's going to take a long time to fix. It's already been going on soooo long.

https://www.cambridge.org/core/journ...31A5426A1D1577

Why bonobos evolved a reduced propensity for aggression compared with chimpanzees is not known. An ecological hypothesis points to functional consequences of gorillas being absent in the bonobo range, whereas most chimpanzees that live in similar habitats to bonobos co-occur with gorillas (Hare et al., Reference Hare, Wobber and Wrangham2012). According to this idea, the absence of proto-gorillas in the proto-bonobo habitat allowed proto-bonobos to utilise 'gorilla foods' more and therefore to be more gregarious than their chimpanzee-like ancestors (cf. Toda & Furuichi, Reference Toda and Furuichi2020). Increased gregariousness allowed female bonobos to form self-protective mutual coalitions in response to male aggression and to increase their ability to choose preferred males as mates; the fitness of the most aggressive males was therefore reduced. This scenario is based on the principle that the present is a key to the past, given that female bonobos are routinely seen to collaborate in defeating aggressive males (Tokuyama & Furuichi, Reference Tokuyama and Furuichi2016). While no tests have been devised for this ecological scenario, it illustrates the theoretical point that self-domestication is expected to occur via diverse mechanisms.

Humans are so funny because it's like you're a great ape but you can think about all of this and have language so it's like. 'Hegemonic masculinity' whose idea was that? Whose idea was any of this? This is why your God doesn't exist.

Oh my God I forgot about this:



And it was re-posted by a YouTube account called lemon (I have some random insane injoke about lemons. This is fate.)

Yeah so anyway She's playing games with Putin. (Timestamp) (can't say it worked out exactly but she must have been doing something right to end up in prison for 2 years so it's something.)

Not your terfs feminism (tm)

Speaking of non woke victim complexes...

I talk about the gods; I am an atheist. But I am an artist too, and therefore a liar. Distrust everything I say. I am telling the truth.

[Nyctophilia]

I'm reading about Virginia Woolf.

[Virginia Woolf] dislikes the possessiveness and love of domination in men. In fact she dislikes the quality of masculinity ; says that women stimulate her imagination, by their grace & their art of life - Vita Sackville-West's diary, dated 26 September 1928

It's interesting that she compared and contrasted fashion and war multiple times:

The connection between dress and war is not far to seek; your finest clothes are those you wear as soldiers.

"Yet it is the masculine values that prevail. Speaking crudely, football and sport are 'important'; the worship of fashion, the buying of clothes 'trivial'. And these values are inevitably transferred from life to fiction. This is an important book, the critic assumes, because it deals with war. This is an insignificant book because it deals with the feelings of women in a drawing-room. A scene in a battle-field is more important than a scene in a shop ? everywhere and much more subtly the difference of value persists."

Saw this tweet:

we're at most six months away from the kind of trans panic copypasta the anti-abortion right churned out in the 90s where they'd trick you into aborting Mozart: "imagine a little child with no parents who loved trees....congratulations, you just transed VIRGINIA WOOLF."

The insinuation that Virginia Woolf wouldn't be non binary were she to have a contemporary understanding of gender stuff 🤣

I was thinking she kind of did it to herself lol. That or she just really liked the idea of people like that, which also seems true regardless since Orlando was inspired by one of her partners Vita Sackville-West. Also she seemed to think it was essential creatively.

But the concept of 'transing' someone is ridiculous in the first place, especially when they're dead. Nobody has that kind of power. It's just an interpretation. Besides that language changes a lot so the labels people use change over time.

This too is dumb lol:

im writing a paper about Orlando and i must say as s trans person i absolutely despised the way virginia woolf wrote about trans people.

a paper i read put it nicely as "fetishization of androgyny"

Oh i would agree that virginia woolf was writing this without trans people in mind! she was 100% writing about lesbianism, because she was a transphobic piece of sh/it just like you!

That's because she was writing about women, feminism + gender non conformity within it. She wasn't writing about trans + would no doubt turn in her grave at thought of representing men erasing women! She wanted to live her life as she saw fit in her sex, not to be a man, nor

I sincerely want both sides of this argument to go to hell. This is why I look up [BEEP] people from 80-100+ years ago from time to time to feel less lonely lmfao.

I'm 99.9% sure this person would think I fetishised trans people and androgyny in my writing/daydreams etc and I don't give a fuck. Also I'm non-binary (like them, I looked.)

Just thinking 'capitalise your I's' (in the same tone of voice as shoeonhead yelling at apathetic vocal fry person concern trolling about tiktok tradwives to blend their eyeshadow. I actually have no idea what that means but she said it well.) I'll allow that up until you start being a [BEEP] of this magnitude lol.

Lol:

Freshman year of college an Englishwoman told me to read all of Virginia Woolf and gave me a copy of *Orlando* before she had a mental breakdown six months later. Similarly stereotypical.

I actually never have and don't read much but I know her writing inspired Patrick Wolf's music which I was a big fan of as a teenager and his stage name was inspired by her too - at least partly he also seemed to like lycanthropic symbolism a bunch:





Almost had a post without music.

It would be a thousand pities if women wrote like men, or lived like men, or looked like men, for if two sexes are quite inadequate, considering the vastness and variety of the world, how should we manage with one only? Ought not education to bring out and fortify the differences rather than the similarities? For we have too much likeness as it is, and if an explorer should come back and bring word of other sexes looking through the branches of other trees at other skies, nothing would be of greater service to humanity; and we should have the immense pleasure into the bargain of watching professor X rush for his measuring-rods to prove himself 'superior.'

She had a lot of opinions about other people lol (this kind of goes into what I meant about her thinking it essential creatively):

However, the blame for all this, if one is anxious to lay blame, rests no more upon one sex than upon the other. All seducers and reformers are responsible: Lady Bessborough when she lied to Lord Granville; Miss Davies when she told the truth to Mr Greg. All who have brought about a state of sex-consciousness are to blame, and it is they who drive me, when I want to stretch my faculties on a book, to seek it in that happy age, before Miss Davies and Miss Clough were born, when the writer used both sides of his mind equally. One must turn back to Shakespeare then, for Shakespeare was androgynous; and so were Keats and Sterne and Cowper and Lamb and Coleridge. Shelley perhaps was sexless. Milton and Ben Jonson had a dash too much of the male in them. So had Wordsworth and Tolstoi. In our time Proust was wholly androgynous, if not perhaps a little too much of a woman. But that failing is too rare for one to complain of it, since without some mixture of the kind the intellect seems to predominate and the other faculties of the mind harden and become barren. However, I consoled myself with the reflection that this is perhaps a passing phase; much of what I have said in obedience to my promise to give you the course of my thoughts will seem out of date; much of what flames in my eyes will seem dubious to you who have not yet come of age.

Even so, the very first sentence that I would write here, I said, crossing over to the writing-table and taking up the page headed Women and Fiction, is that it is fatal for anyone who writes to think of their sex. It is fatal to be a man or woman pure and simple; one must be woman-manly or man-womanly. It is fatal for a woman to lay the least stress on any grievance; to plead even with justice any cause; in any way to speak consciously as a woman. And fatal is no figure of speech; for anything written with that conscious bias is doomed to death. It ceases to be fertilized. Brilliant and effective, powerful and masterly, as it may appear for a day or two, it must wither at nightfall; it cannot grow in the minds of others. Some collaboration has to take place in the mind between the woman and the man before the art of creation can be accomplished. Some marriage of opposites has to be consummated.

When I saw the couple get into the taxicab the mind felt as if, after being divided, it had come together again in a natural fusion. The obvious reason would be that it is natural for the sexes to co-operate. One has a profound, if irrational, instinct in favour of the theory that the union of man and woman makes for the greatest satisfaction, the most complete happiness. But the sight of the two people getting into the taxi and the satisfaction it gave me made me also ask whether there are two sexes in the mind corresponding to the two sexes in the body, and whether they also require to be united in order to get complete satisfaction and happiness? And I went on amateurishly to sketch a plan of the soul so that in each of us two powers preside, one male, one female; and in the man?s brain the man predominates over the woman, and in the woman?s brain the woman predominates over the man. The normal and comfortable state of being is that when the two live in harmony together, spiritually co-operating. If one is a man, still the woman part of his brain must have effect; and a woman also must have intercourse with the man in her.

Coleridge perhaps meant this when he said that a great mind is androgynous. It is when this fusion takes place that the mind is fully fertilized and uses all its faculties. Perhaps a mind that is purely masculine cannot create, any more than a mind that is purely feminine, I thought. But it would be well to test what one meant by man-womanly, and conversely by woman-manly, by pausing and looking at a book or two.

Coleridge certainly did not mean, when he said that a great mind is androgynous, that it is a mind that has any special sympathy with women; a mind that takes up their cause or devotes itself to their interpretation. Perhaps the androgynous mind is less apt to make these distinctions than the single-sexed mind. He meant, perhaps, that the androgynous mind is resonant and porous; that it transmits emotion without impediment; that it is naturally creative, incandescent and undivided. In fact one goes back to Shakespeare's mind as the type of the androgynous, of the man-womanly mind, though it would be impossible to say what Shakespeare thought of women. And if it be true that it is one of the tokens of the fully developed mind that it does not think specially or separately of sex, how much harder it is to attain that condition now than ever before.

Here I came to the books by living writers, and there paused and wondered if this fact were not at the root of something that had long puzzled me. No age can ever have been as stridently sex-conscious as our own; those innumerable books by men about women in the British Museum are a proof of it. The Suffrage campaign was no doubt to blame. It must have roused in men an extraordinary desire for self-assertion; it must have made them lay an emphasis upon their own sex and its characteristics which they would not have troubled to think about had they not been challenged. And when one is challenged, even by a few women in black bonnets, one retaliates, if one has never been challenged before, rather excessively.

Now I'm being attacked by a moth lol.

my dad has been speaking to a royalist in his street and when my dad said we should get rid of the monarchy this bloke said "who would you have in charge instead... a load of transgenders?" and im obsessed with the idea that you can either have a king or a council of trans people

Why did their mind go there immediately lol?

Can't believe I'm suddenly next in line for the throne.

load of transgenders, assemble! our time is now!

I will have to perfect this vibe first:



Cyberpunk biker Anna Wintour. I need a twin to just wander around everywhere with too so we have the 20% creepy 80% badass ratio. Yes I did think the twins in The Matrix were cool.

Also I've completely ignored everything happening relating to the royal family so missed... Everything lol until this tweet. I consider it an art form as I do live in the UK.