Random Thought of the Day

[Nyctophilia]

I found the fun side of twitter.

My heart sank at the first sentence, and then I realized it was April 1st and the relief I felt was immense, there's already not enough girls into pegging we can't go losing any more of them

WHAT THE [BEEP] DOES IT TAKE TO GET A DOMMY MOMMY WHO WANTS A SUBMISSIVE CUTE FEMBOY I'M FUCKING TIRED OF ONLY PULLING GUYS ONLINE I HAVE MASCULINE TRAITS TOO IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT GOD WHY DON'T WOMEN LIKE ANDROGYNOUS PEOPLE THEY JUST WANT EVERY TRAINWRECK UGLY [BEEP] FRATBOY FUCKER

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You just have to try and look less neotenic then you'll stop attracting straight men, and attract more women. If you get really lost just imitate androgynous lesbian women but make sure to grow out your hair (or they'll expect you to top most of the time,) and act cuter. (Or they'll expect you to top most of the time.) Tops who like androgyny are generally more likely to prefer guys than androgynous women though, the people who prefer androgynous cis women are more likely to be bottoms ime. Basically you don't want to be read as a cis lesbian but you want to be someone people on tumblr feel the need to refer to as their lesbian girlfriend even though he's a guy because they think he looks like an androgynous lesbian woman with long hair. The ones who are really into the idea of being a lesbian are more likely to be comfortable with identifying as a woman (though some might be non-binary,) and the rest who just refer to this hypothetical guy (who is not at all someone super specific,) as their 'wife' or point out how pretty he is etc, and want to top are more likely to be trans masc in some way or non-binary (exceptions apply.) I'm unclear on whether the lesbians are bottoms on average though - not enough data.

Obviously stop hanging out on twitter 70% of the users are men anyway and you'll be picking up more and more useless info when you should be on tumblr because all the [BEEP] and atypical women are on that website.

If your facial features are very soft then I don't have any advice for the same reason I'm never going to want to [BEEP] myself. Except maybe become faceapp genderswap Paul Dano's Riddler. I thought she was attractive when I first saw her, though her features are still more soft than is ideal for me.

Actually Paul Dano looks kind of hot sometimes. Let me just check his age in that photo I just found on google images... Cool he was 20 when that film came out. So probably at least 19. That's legal. (Not gen z social media legal, but legal nonetheless. And hey he's older than me irl anyway.)

Why is this image blurry and reverse image searching just brings up several thousand tiktok's of 'Paul Dano dressed as a woman' he's not even dressed as a woman. 'What does a woman dress like?' Sure I guess but that's not usually what they mean. Found a non blurry version on pinterest



This isn't the film the above image is from just something I found:

A failed playwright, Henry Harrison, develops an odd mentor relationship with Louis Ives, a troubled, cross-dressing, aspiring writer to whom Henry sublets a room in his New York apartment. Henry teaches Louis the art of being an "extra man", accompanying and entertaining wealthy older women in their fanciful social lives. Along the way, Louis encounters an environmentally conscious co-worker, Mary Powell, and a jealous, eccentric neighbor, Gershon.[4]

THE EXTRA MAN begins as Louis Ives's career as an English teacher is abruptly curtailed when he is caught wearing a colleague's bra in the staff room. Escaping to New York he moves into a flat share with Henry Harrison, an aging gentleman-about-town who teaches Louis how to operate and survive - scamming opera tickets, obtaining free food - and how to make money escorting wealthy older women around New York. Louis embarks on an exploration of his sexuality in the bars and clubs of Midtown while developing a deep, but platonic, attachment to the older man.

Oh.

Insecure/repressed intelligent crossdresser/non-binary/lesbian academic/professor is one of my favourite genres of daydream.

And just days after I discovered the catboy jealous of puppyboy audio file that was similar to a daydream scenario I had as a teenager. (Of course I didn't think of those characters with the label catboy or puppyboy at the time.)

But this isn't usually how it goes down. It's like they merged that one with my other favourite genre male sexworkers/guy who works in brothel (still sexworker but more specific,) guy in some other guy's harem etc. Oh yes I didn't mention that in my long [BEEP] harem post ironically lol. Or maybe I did but forgot I cba looking. I started writing something a few months ago with a character who looks like young Geddy Lee. But I wasn't identifying as the guy with the harem in that story but with a third character he starts an affair with. There was a scene in a library of course.

And I think it would be better if he had that hair instead of the hair he has in the film clips I've just seen.

Yeah anyway if you want to crack into the straight female market you have to be less 'I am anime girl uwu.' Like no:



You don't have to be a fratboy but I don't think the combination of hyper neoteny with femininity works for most women even women who like sexually submissive guys and that's already a very rare demographic as there are more submissive men than dominant women. Which does suck if that's important. (His whole twitter profile is just cutesy anime stuff.)

Edit: Also and this is really important and don't know why I didn't mention it lol but his profile is just pictures of anime girls that he either finds attractive or identifies with. No images of himself at all. Does he think straight dommes are physically attracted to anime girls lol? No of course not. If you have to post anime [BEEP] it would have to be bishounen characters.

Bishojo ('beautiful girl') is often mistakenly considered a parallel of bishonen, because of the similar construction of the terms. There are major differences between the two aesthetics. The bishojo aesthetic is aimed at a male audience, and is typically centered on young girls, drawn in a cute, pretty style; bishonen is aimed at a female audience, centered on teenage boys, and drawn elegantly. Another common mistake is assuming that the female characters in bishonen manga and anime are bishojo. In truth, female characters in bishonen manga are very different from those in bishojo; bishojo females are usually more petite and drawn in a style that is cute rather than beautiful, whereas bishonen females exhibit the long limbs and elegance of the bishonen themselves.[11]

"Why don't women find Astolfo attractive."

That is a drawing of a 10 year old girl sir. I'd bet money that you could turn into Shakira and have more luck with straight women.



Astolfo inspiring 0% (OK 0.000000001 there's always someone,) of comments like this:

My bi awakening at like 12 years old lol ❤️*🔥

Just flip the genders here because it all still applies/everyone is doing the same thing:

At the end of that video I talk about how I sense that my shame is related to the contemptuous cringe I feel for a lot of other trans lesbians. Particularly those of the heckin stripey-sock nya nya catgirl variety:

"But I confess to periodically sinking into these morbid, guilty binges of cringing at embarrassing trans lesbians". - "Shame"

I want to return to that thought and kind of psychoanalyze myself as a kind of first-person case study of a morbid cringe obsession.

So... catgirl trans-girls are... I can't believe I'm about to explain this. They're trans women, usually attracted to women, who express their identity online through cloying, neotenous otaku memery. And my conscious reason for cringing at them is that I see these Japanese cartoon catgirls as a kind of visual baby-talk. An infantilized and unrealistic representation of femininity and womanhood that's designed to titillate nerdy boys. So when trans women identify with it, I cringe.

Like no, you can't become an anime girl Lily. [BEEP] your dreams.

Now look, I don't want to get sidetracked with a discussion of whether my opinions about catgirls are fair or correct. So don't listen to what I'm saying about catgirls, listen to what I'm feeling about catgirls. Listen to the contempt beneath my words. Because even if everything I'm saying is true, "catgirls are being cringe online" is a situation so inconsequential, that any amount of emotional energy spent on it is too much.

Harsh but true. And the older you get, the worse this will seem. Actually I personally like guys acting like cats in some ways, but again only if it's separated from the anime hyper neoteny stuff. I dunno there's a sweet spot where it can kind of work but at the same time I wouldn't want to live in a 24/7 petplay fantasy. Also obviously I'm a nerd.

But then I'm non-binary and really don't like daddy/mummy kink or those words in a sexual context (and apparently that's recently become very fashionable,) so what do I know? There are probably women into that somewhere. On fetlife etc.

Also just found this other account because I noticed the femboy responded to her multiple times and it's a similar note:

idk man the longer i transition the more i feel like i'm just never gonna be accepted or seen as a woman by cis people. like i'm just relegated to being either still a man to them or at best some weird 3rd gender.

thought was brought on by a cis dude ranting about how trans women were disgusting and male brained, while other cis ppl who are otherwise nothing but friendly to me said "he's not being transphobic, it is true that trans women are socialized as men"

Another tweet by this same account:

anyone order a catgirl maid with a dck?

People also assume shoeonhead is a trans woman or femboy because she's stereotypically coded that way and she's a cis woman:



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZQxOcLhi_s

is this born a woman?

I can tell you are transgender, you look very much male

Shoeonhead looks what t******* want to look like. She literally looks like a t***** as a real woman.

nevermind your a woman not interested

Shoe is a trans coded cis woman and Keffals is a cis coded trans woman.

Shoe: "I hate that I understand this." Lol.

It's just how people's minds work unfortunately.

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeands...-war-and-peace

Tim Dowling: my wife has an unwholesome attraction to the actor Paul Dano

"I have strange feelings for him," my wife says, meaning the actor Paul Dano.

"Maternal feelings?" I say.

"No," she says. "They're not healthy feelings. I can't explain."

"I'm not asking you to explain," I say.

Napoleon retreats from Moscow. Pierre is rescued. My wife shares her complicated feelings for Paul Dano with a friend, by text. War And Peace ends in a way that my wife, due to her temporary inability to separate actor from character, finds unsatisfactory. "She's annoying," my wife says.

My wife is still going on about her unwholesome attraction to the actor Paul Dano while I'm brushing my teeth. "I don't know what it is about him," she says, from the bedroom.

"I think it might be a good idea if you stopped talking about it for a while," I say, in the diffident voice of the actor Paul Dano.

A brief silence follows. "Do that again," she says.

"Do what?" I say, in the voice of Paul Dano. "I'm not really aware that I'm-"

"Oh my God," she says. "You sound just like him. How are you doing that?"

I don't really know how I'm doing it. It could be that Paul Dano and I share a naturally hesitant manner of speaking, or it could be that we have similar accents because, as I will later discover, we both come from the same part of Connecticut. To be honest, the impersonation doesn't sound that convincing to me. I turn off the bathroom light and sit down on the edge of the bed.

"It's doing something to my brain," she says. "I think it's giving me MRSA."

"You mean ASMR," I say, in my voice. "Like in those videos where the women fold towels."

"Yeah, that," she says.

"MRSA is a superbug," I say.

"More please."

"More of this, do you mean?" I say, in the actor Paul Dano's voice.

"Oh my God!" my wife says.

"Can we stop now?" I say, in my voice. "It's starting to make me uncomfortable."

"Just until I fall asleep," she says.

"You could watch a bit of the towel-folding lady on your phone," I say.

"It's not the same," she says.

"I'm afraid that you and I can never be together," I say, in the voice of actor Paul Dano.

"I think you'll find we can," my wife says.

What is the Guardian news website?

The comments are hilarious too:

Thank goodness she drifted off to sleep. I thought you were heading towards some 50 Shades territory there.

I don't know I think it's mostly just the hair and the glasses honestly. Although... My brain can't decide if he's hot or not help.

"Why do you become obsessed with certain aesthetics?"

Combination of very fetishistic and undiagnosed autism I think.

Oh is he playing a Spoiler: killer in that film? Lmfao that tracks. Fucking femcel aesthetic.

The hot ones with glasses are either killers/super villains, or musicians. Sometimes internet radfems have this kind of look too, but they too are crazy and much less hot.



Imagine if I had an 'advice' column like this xD cancelled in 2 seconds.

I am very bored.

[Doseone]

Now this is more like it.



This comes close to my beliefs. I believe we're the void/pure consciousness in which all of this appears.

[Heelsbythebridge]

Useless level 1 service person strikes again.
Ughhhh can we get someone else for our account. How did this person get her job

[Nyctophilia]

The answer is both. They have dualistic mating strategies.

Yep

Mate with the alpha and have the beta raise it. Preferably women would choose a man who is both attractive and can provide but it's not easy so they just use 2 men to accomplish this

Nope. Why do they think this is a common way of resolving that? There's not any data that supports this.

It depends at which point they are at in their lives. For a chastise woman, this won't matter, but the majority of women are not 100% abstaining from intercourse before marriage. So, for the majority of women, it boils down to when you ask this question. Women will probably prefer more masculine men when they are young (they will nearly always prefer masculine men, tbh), but as they age, finances become so much more important, that the degree of masculinity can be not considered at all, so long as that male is willing to bear financial burden. So, in short, her wants will change to needs, which will neglect a lack of masculinity if need be.

Again nope the reverse is true as a general rule.

It always depends on the motive of the woman, or any person in general.
Not all realtionships are formed based on sexual attraction and the desire to have a family.
Some people want to feel powerful and to control people.
Others want to feel controled.
Others want maximal freedom, etc.

Lol:



Since most women don't enjoy casual sex, and only those who do really mess around with guys people think of as 'alpha' in current culture, the most common solution to not finding a guy who balances feminine and masculine traits is to just stay single, and definitely don't have kids, which is what we're seeing now a lot more because women (in general obviously,) aren't being (successfully,) coerced into going against their personal choice anymore.

Telling every guy to be an 'alpha' is very dumb but that's basically happening now. There are not enough women interested in casual sex for that to work out. But luckily psychopaths have a solution for that lol:

"Be their boyfriend for three months and be in a relationship with them. That is the recipe. I'm sorry guys. You want a virgin and [BEEP] them the next day? Don't ask me how I don't know. I don't think anyone knows. I don't even think it's possible. You have to be their boyfriend for an extended period of time. You then have to take their virginity on the second month anniversary or something along those lines and I'm going to teach you how to do it while still being in a playboy lifestyle scenario.

What you do with your virgin is you turn everything into a date. I need to go for a business lunch with my brother and friends I make sure she's there. If I have to go for a drive I make sure she's with me. If I have to go to a club she's part of my double booking she's always with me. At least three or four times a week regardless of what I'm doing. I've got in a lot of lunches and dinners, I eat at restaurants a lot. I take her to a restaurant, nothing in my life has changed. I'm not going out of my way. I'm not making specific time for her. I'm not trying my best to take her on a date.

Now to me I'm fucking my girls, I have my girlfriends, my relationships, I'm getting my sex. I'm having my drinks, hangout with my friends. Nothing has changed in my life. Apart from there's a quiet girl next to me half the time when I'm out and I would otherwise be alone. But to her, in her mindset, Tristan is my boyfriend.

Needless to say lots of young women aren't impressed contributing to the current discourse about consent, rape etc.



Well it's not difficult for older women to have sex with teenage boys. Many female teachers do it. You can imagine it happens more times than people know given it's taken less seriously than the reverse. It's just not ethical or legal in most countries to have sex with your students or from a position of power/authority. And obviously having sex with 15 year olds is also illegal in many countries.





The teachers aren't all conventionally attractive either from what I've seen but those stories where they are do get the most attention and more men saying 'I wish that was me at their age.' Maybe when you hit about 50 it probably gets harder. Not really if you're rich/high status enough though... I mean there are a bunch of historical accounts of older wealthy/famous women who were surrounded by young guys... It's not something most women seek out but it's certainly possible.

Contrary to women, older men can compensate for their age by status and wealth, e.g. Donald Trump is born 1946 while his wife is more than 20 years younger, in fact men's dating desirability peaks a lot later than women's (see figure).

I just don't think they're paying attention:

After Catherine, Potemkin had other lovers, including long-lasting affairs with his five nieces. Catherine's final favourite was Prince Zubov, a man nearly 40 years her junior who enjoyed short-lived wealth and elevated status for the remaining years of Catherine's life. Zubov may have been her last favourite, but Potemkin was always in her thoughts and she wrote to him often.

The disparity isn't occurring because it's less possible, but because women have lower status on average. Eg: how many female billionaires are there relative to men? Trump is a billionaire lol. And because most women aren't really inclined to live that way. Kind of explored here:



A lot of women like feeling young so it makes them feel insecure dating a younger guy. She ends up comparing herself to his mother for example.

Then again they need this to be true because they feel disempowered sexually. It doesn't matter what actually happens in reality. It's also funny in this guy's case because he's a psychopath and psychopaths often like power more than sex anyway lol.

Also lol:



"Every woman should be married. No man should."

Psychopaths are above all ridiculous.

I do think a lot of women have this kind of cynical view on things too. "Exploit men so they're not exploiting you." Kind of ignores intimacy, reproduction, orgasms etc... In favour of this very capitalististic mindset.

Unfortunately women don't really have as many orgasms during casual sex, or with men compared to women:

At least 92% of women orgasm when pleasuring themselves. Women also orgasm more when having sex in relationships compared with casual sex. In a study of more than 12,000 college students, only 10% of the women said they orgasm during first-time hookups while 68% said they orgasm during sex that occurs in a committed relationship.

Women also orgasm more when having sex with other women. In one study 64% of bisexual women said that they usually or always orgasm when being sexually intimate with other women.

Heterosexual men were most likely to say they usually-always orgasmed when sexually intimate (95% ), followed by gay men (89% ), bisexual men (88% ), lesbian women (86% ), bisexual women (66% ), and heterosexual women (65% ).

I think what's particularly off putting is the lack of reciprocity. If a hot young guy has sex with someone like Catherine (lol just referring to her by her first name.) in exchange for money/power etc then it's more understandable. She had relationships with mostly younger guys like there was a guy who was 17 years younger, a couple who were 10 years younger than her, too lazy to check all the age gaps but yeah. In general she was judged for having so many partners and they weren't, but Zubov was judged more harshly because of his corrupt nature:

Catherine showered Potemkin with wealth and titles, including that of prince of the Holy Roman Empire (Reichsfurst), and remained devoted to him until the end of her life. But their physical relations probably ended soon after Catherine took one of her secretaries, Pyotr Zavadovsky, as a new lover in 1776. Potemkin himself was spectacularly unfaithful, taking at least one of his nieces to his bed. But they remained close and affectionate allies, and despite his lingering jealousy Potemkin had to tolerate Catherine's taking a succession of young lovers.

In August of 1789 the sixty two year old Catherine wrote to Potemkin that she had "returned to life after a long winter slumber as a fly does." A new friend, "A dark little one," had made her "well and gay again." The new favourite was a twenty-two year old Platon Zubov, a pretty young aristocrat whose arrogance and corruption would appall even the hardbitten court of St Petersburg. And Zubov played shameless on Catherine's maternal instincts. "Our baby weeps when denied the entry into my room." Catherine wrote to the long-suffering Potemkin.

As young minions succeeded each other monthly in Catherine's heart, Potemkin did not attach importance to her new liaison. Catherine was over 60, Zubov was just 22. The old courtier did not believe that the connection would last for an extended period of time.

Zubov, however, managed to establish a strong hold of Catherine's affections and character. In 7 years, he was made a Count and then a Reichsfurst, or Prince of the Holy Roman Empire, becoming the fourth (and last) Russian to receive the title.[1] Upon Potemkin's death, Zubov succeeded him as the Governor-General of New Russia (Yekaterinoslav Viceroyalty).[2] As Fyodor Rostopchin reported to Semyon Vorontsov on August 20, 1795, "Count Zubov is everything here. There is no other will but his. His power is greater than that of Potemkin. He is as reckless and incapable as before, although the Empress keeps repeating that he is the greatest genius the history of Russia has known".

But in this case you have this older guy - I don't even know who this guy is besides the fact that he works with the Tate brothers. Grandpa beard. Just uses women for sex and to make him money. They don't get anything out of this deal. He's taking most if not all of the money. Honestly it's difficult to know how he would appeal to a woman in the first place and probably exaggerating his appeal to some degree.

I mean I get how Andrew Tate did it he was physically fit which some women find attractive, he has a career as a pro boxer or something and has some ability in chess. He dropped all of this but I can see how initially he could have convinced women by being higher status + lying about relationship commitment to less discerning women, and then at the point where he has money he can use that to manipulate and so on.

The ideal dream of a teen girl/young woman is like a committed long term relationship with a guy in a kpop band or some famous athlete etc. Not that that's realistic at all, but yeah. So this guy has to uh 'emotionally compel.' (Lie.) He can't attract a rich woman to buy him stuff because he's not young and cute.

There's an element of female sexuality which combines the mothering instinct with sexual desire but only certain guys can trigger that combination of feelings. You don't want to seem so childish the sexual component is removed or vice versa too manly that it doesn't provoke that reaction at all assuming you want resources from women. Obviously the 'mummy kink' thing is really popular atm but I don't think it's always that literal can be more subtle. Obviously you don't have to be sexually appealing to get resources + power if women just want to mother you though, that can work platonically too. Depends if you also want sex from them.

Since he has to take this approach, it's in his interest to incentivise as many young women as possible to make money this way so he can ideally get access to more and legitimise his lifestyle.

I would teach my daughter that the fuzzy thing between her legs is her #2 money-maker and men are stupid.

You mean her vagina/cunt etc? Yes most people are scared of that body part. It has a lot more power over people which is why most people can't speak its name or try to use a cutesy term.

"I would convince my daughter to be a psychopath" OK. Well genetics might do that anyway.

So he seems to be some kind of 'magician' or 'wizard' which I guess explains the beard. So his manipulation tactic must have something to do with that. But he's not really doing that at all. He must have made money at some point, somehow, because he's bragging about that (or lying about that.)

I am The Greatest Hypnotist the World Has Ever Known

and train Men of The War Room how to persuade Hot Young Women my Gs are

The BEST Possible Choice for her to have a Happy, Wild, and Exciting Life With.

That I ALSO CONVINCE them how to TRULY BECOME THAT MAN
is the MAGIC!

Some call me a wizard, a sorcerer, a mystic, a magician, a spell-caster, a dream-weaver, a catalyst, a change agent.

Not an ally, not a friend; I am something you will never comprehend.

Just a Mirror Hypnotist.

When you look into my eyes do you see the greatness I see in you?

Now he's almost quoting Prince lol. Which is very ironic. Because obviously Prince was more of a wizard than he could ever be.

Within The War Room

I am a storyteller
I am a raconteur
I am a wordsmith

spinning worlds of wonder, glory, and magic.

"Have a seat, sit for a spell, and let me tell you a tale of Old Wudan ..."

The Tales of Wudan are original stories written by Andrew Tate himself in the height of his fighting career.

The wudan (Chinese: 武旦; pinyin: wǔd?n; lit. 'martial female') is a female role type in Chinese opera and a subtype of the dan. Wudan characters are warrior maidens in combat, and wudan actors (almost always actresses) must be trained in martial arts with theatrical versions of traditional weapons, as well as in acrobatics and gymnastics.

Looks to me like you can't escape your shadow lol.

Tate has a court wizard

Nope.

Lol as BAP would say:

Saddam Hussein was like this: he was a transsexual in his soul.

No not that but it is still hilarious out of context.

This is why the Greeks and many other ancient peoples knew that women are more likely to be Oracles and to know the future and also the intentions of others (they "know" the future from innate sensation of the intentions and the blood of others). Cassandra was such a prophetess, and even the great seer Tiresias was said to have turned into a woman for a while.

Many shamans practice transvestism among various peoples--fools interpret this as "gay rights," not seeing the cultic understanding of femininity. The Pythia was a woman, and the ancient Germans always
consulted women before great decisions, because they could provide a different and more direct view of things.

Oracles in nature are already rare enough, and how many have been lost to us because they were misled by the snakes who seduced her into thinking she should ape the snappy, chatty self-consciousness of the midget homosexual and "comedian"? They know how powerless we are without knowledge of the future; they keep this for themselves.

But I think any creative people do this to some extent and can/are still doing this. So I don't entirely agree.

Also the whole point with Cassandra was that nobody believed her anyway:

Cassandra or Kassandra (/kəˈs?ndrə/;[2] Ancient Greek: Κασσάνδρα, pronounced [kas:ndra], also Κασάνδρα, and sometimes referred to as Alexandra)[3] in Greek mythology was a Trojan priestess dedicated to the god Apollo and fated by him to utter true prophecies but never to be believed. In modern usage her name is employed as a rhetorical device to indicate a person whose accurate prophecies, generally of impending disaster, are not believed.

Sometimes I'll fabricate absurd backstories for myself when I?m made to go to social or networking events. Told this dumb [BEEP] at a wedding that I served in the French Foreign Legion and she ate it up. The term "NPC" isn?t harsh enough for these people.

People are just openly admitting to being psychopaths on social media every day in such a blatant way lol. It's just amazing. First of all compulsive lying like this is a trait of psychopaths, people with NPD and ASPD among other conditions. Like they lie for fun. Very common.

Then word for word what he's describing here actually (I re-watched this video a few days ago so it came to mind):

If you're preyed upon by a psychopath which you will be to some degree at some point in your life. The psychopath who will be narcissistic will presume that you're stupid and that you deserve to be taken advantage of because you're naive and stupid so it's actually a good thing that he's doing it. His proof - and I'm saying he because there are more male psychopaths - the proof that you're stupid and naive is that he can take advantage of you. And so if you were wiser you'd know his tricks and it wouldn't be morally necessary for him to show you just exactly who knows what about what and so the psychopath will use his ability to fool you as proof of his own grandiose omnipotence and narcissism.

Amazing. (Not entirely convinced there are more male psychopaths though. I expect the gap is smaller than people think anyway.)

Several people weren't falling for it, but a couple of people agreed but I get the impression they're also misanthropes and/or people with psychopathic traits.

[Nyctophilia]

This is interesting. Just in the US though:





Also speaking of what I said about shoeonhead yesterday (and how people keep suggesting she's a femboy or trans woman):

"she's trying to sound like a man to mock me"

i was literally just speaking in my normal voice

how over is it for me

I don't even think her voice is that deep. It's weird that people keep pointing out. To me what stands out more is that she has 'male-coded' vocab (not sure how else to put it,) because she spent so much time in male spaces online (I assume.) And there is no difference lol she's reading most of the tweets in the same voice pitch. She switches to a higher pitch irl or when talking to people live because she gets anxious. (That's not actually a good thing, but it's common.)

This was the tweet btw lol:

idgaf about "male loneliness" like bro if you can't meet a girl just dial up the [BEEP] homie and hook up like a normal person. god.

Twitter.

[Ironman]

I might be starting to get my sense of smell again. Slooowly.

[Nyctophilia]

I don't know I think it's mostly just the hair and the glasses honestly. Although... My brain can't decide if he's hot or not help.

"Why do you become obsessed with certain aesthetics?"

Combination of very fetishistic and undiagnosed autism I think.

Yeah uh in this gif I think it's because his facial expressions make him look kind of shocked and turned on and a little bit crazy (or you can interpret it that way,) which is a good combination.

*searches for Paul Dano long hair*

Pin on lesbians

On pinterest instead of tumblr this time lol. Edit: but obviously Tumblr too:

why does paul dano look like a hot lesbian

Oh no he's wearing a crop top.

Hahaha exactly. But this is the worst song choice ever:

If only baby me knew her Paul Dano obsession would get so much worse in the coming years.

I haven't seen any of these films lol. I think I'm safe though (if I don't watch any of the films/read fanfiction,) he doesn't seem to have long hair these days and I'm pretty invested in young Geddy Lee (another tumblr 'lesbian') at this point:







Not bad though. 🤔 If glasses character wasn't just playing the young version of a serial killer I could have gotten more invested. And I'm always looking for new fantasy options so I don't just fixate on the same guy for 5+ years.



Peak Paul Dano is femcel Paul Dano actually. Because of the hair.



Nah it was but I think it's this gif now:



It's cute that it's implied that I'm not some different variant of psycho loser really. There are some other posts like this on tumblr (well screenshots of tweets on tumblr.) I mean Paul Dano has been in a relationship with someone for the last 16 years. Also ironically:

Dano, 37, who appeared in 12 Years a Slave and There Will be Blood, said he wanted the character to have a "sense of purpose" and went online for research forums linked to the incel subculture, which promotes violent misogyny.

He said: "I found what people were saying on Reddit and Twitter the scariest part of the film, even more frightening than the violence, because it is the most real... There are people who feel unheard, unseen and angry. It?s horrible and I don?t know what we do about it."

And as bad as that is, moreso on twitter, you should see what they say on incel forums. Sometimes just graphic violent rape fantasies etc supposedly about people they know and things like that.

They mispelt underaged terribly wrong and now I'm going to pretend what they're saying has something to do with dragons.

I've noticed several things:

1. For some reason the hashtag #danocel exists.

2. Some people who resent white guys are really mad about people finding him attractive it turns out hahaha:





3. The predictable thing:

pretty sure paul dano belongs to the lesbians right ?

saw someone say the lesbian gaze and showed pics of paul dano over and over again. do not involve me in ur mental illness

#personal #delete later #this is a joke!

They didn't delete it later lol.

wish someone would want me the way lesbians want paul dano

Ngl I never considered that cishet ppl were also into Paul Dano, like fandom-wise. I only thought lesbians and transmascs were just really into him.

The things I have seen.

i literally hate to say it guys. i hate to say it. i wanna [BEEP] paul danos boy [BEEP] i hate to say it but i needed to say it

#paul dano #i'm sorry #the riddler #f word #fuck word #seggs #lesbian #lobotomy

Paul danos riddler is to transmascs what vriska was to lesbians

I'm constantly reminded of this video because some posts relate to this lol:

In the digital realm where we become disconnected from our bodies. The laws of nature are felt as oppressive to the pneumatic spirit and ego. Gender dynamics through not only complex philosophy but through the immediate proof of digital eroticism - porn. Through these disembodying effects the femme boy has become a mainstay of modern sexuality a great object of desire arising from the intricate machinations and turmoil of the digital human.

[Nyctophilia]

Was the stage positioned on purpose in a way that some people need to cover their eyes from sun to see you? Does this have any hidden message to unlucky ones in a right row? That real life "youtube video" difffers from experience from home, how you can't pause anything, lower the brightness, remove the wind, how indifferent the elements are to the human wishes. Even if it was not on purpose and was a poor organisation on your part I have found a meaning in it. This was a truly spectacular perfomance, and your guests became a part of it.

Stage? I thought that was a minibar. This place looks like it's designed for hippie parties after dark.

I thought they were in some kind of scrapyard lol.

If you lived in England I'd attend in a heartbeat

Most of the interesting YouTubers who do stuff like this seem to be in the US. Though realistically I'd be too socially anxious to go to such a small event because I like the idea of just going to places and not having to talk to people as a compromise I can mostly do that at concerts but it's not realistic in many places/events (especially if the point is somewhat to get people to communicate irl,) and then there's the fear that it's going to end up turning into some cult thing lol.

😂 you see:

whens the next cult meeting?

Every small group whether it be a music fanbase or whatever starts to make ironic jokes about this that are potentially not jokes these days. Not overly reassured by his comment here:

what does this sound like? It's an accusation that I've had before which is that of cult. I'm an occultist but I'm here and I'm happy to say that cult is a four letter word a smear against communities you'll find any community online that grows is going to be widely despised if not accused of being a cult. Why is this? Because as the aeon has shifted as culture has become weaker and weaker, monoculture weaker and weaker it must viciously attack all alternative cultures. And this is why a scapegoat like Charles Manson was ideal when in the 1960s alternative subcultures were beginning to gain power over the American Youth. This was a nightmare to popular culture.

Not that I haven't heard similar comments before and can see the point and how everything about modern society effectively work to break down communities and increase atomisation, but similar comments I've heard before came from even less trustworthy sus people. I don't trust anyone. Also the bolded part sounds like a conspiracy theory but I'd need him to expand on what he means. Like if he thinks that was purposefully engineered no? But if he means people used that as an excuse to kind of denigrate any kind of alternative subcultures/groups etc yeah that tracks.

Wanting to find the balance between listening to ideas, and getting sacrificed in some weird ritual lol.

I'm also thinking about this especially the red part:



This table also applies 98% but I don't know if that's because it's basically zodiac-like and describes most people, possibly most socially anxious or neurodiverse people anyway and I have been previously diagnosed with selective mutism and social phobia obviously.

[Doseone]

Imagine how powerful humanity would be if they worked as one.

[Doseone]

So I'm 34 today. I don't celebrate birthdays, though. It's just crazy to think that I'm already this old. It seems like yesterday that I was 19.

[Nyctophilia]

So I'm 34 today. I don't celebrate birthdays, though. It's just crazy to think that I'm already this old. It seems like yesterday that I was 19.

Happy birthday. Time seems to move really quickly when you get over a certain age. I feel like no time passed between when I was 30 and 32 (this year.)

[Otherside]

Logging onto social media tonight to discover that every other person appears to own an American XL Bully, and they're actually just "big old softies that are misunderstood and wouldn't hurt a fly."

Oh, other than the fact that one guy has been mauled to death by two of them, a few others have ended up in hospital, and how XL Bully attacks now make up 70% of all dog attacks deaths.

[Doseone]

Happy birthday. Time seems to move really quickly when you get over a certain age. I feel like no time passed between when I was 30 and 32 (this year.)

Thanks. Yeah, time is weird. lol.

[Nyctophilia]

Aella posted this twitter thread:

imo we'd be more accurate in conceiving of fetishes as more similar to sexual orientations - it's just instead of your nonstandard sexuality deviating along lines of gender, it can be lines of sensation, species, size, clothing, body parts, etc.

They have similar origin; probably partially innate/hormonal, partially early environment. In milder cases, can be conditioned. Fetishes, much like homosexuality, presents differently in males and females. They can be narrow (being gay) or broad (bisexual)

for many, fetishes are a required part of sexuality. Much as being gay means you date gays and join gay subculture, many fetish subtypes only allow people sexual satisfaction when they date compatibly among those who share their proclivities. It's an entire sexual way of being.

I think a cultural mistake we're making is not allocating certain fetish presentations the same level of seriousness as we do sexual orientation. These people are going through what gays did pre acceptance; "something is wrong with me" "why don't i wanna [BEEP] my wife"

People used to view homosexuality as a deviant paraphilia for exactly the same reasons - but turns out if you just put gays together, suddenly they have pretty fulfilling sex lives. They wanna [BEEP] if it's a husband! The same damn thing happens for obligate fetishists.

We don't have "straights", "gays", and "weird fetishists" - we basically have a big continuum from common to uncommon sexual interests. It's just that out of the fetish landscape, 'gender' is an uncommon interest that's easy to humanize, and so it's the first to gain acceptance.

Two women holding hands, dressed in bridal gowns is an expression of an uncommon sexual interest that tugs way more effectively on heartstrings than a woman vacuuming a man immobile inside two big sheets of latex. Hard to make that one relatable.

This is very controversial to a lot of people but I've thought this for a long time because I believe this has negatively affected my life on a personal level and many others I've heard talk about their sexuality. Plus there are sexual interests that are associated with some transgender expressions that are demonised as being 'fetishes' anyway. Then you're still seen as creepy and bad and expected to downplay certain things. There's also this idea that fetishes are purely sexual but they're not and they often have romantic elements for a lot of people.

Take the subreddit r/rolereversal for instance that's a romanticised version of a fetish. People who aren't super conservative would probably balk at the idea of that being considered a fetish because it's not super rare and it's not really harming anyone but it still falls into the ballpark. So I stumbled on this subreddit again recently and actually wrote this out earlier coincidentally:

I wish there was some kind of relationship focussed subreddit a bit like r/rolereversal but for non-binary people. Like more relationship dynamic subreddits. The non-binary subreddits that do exist haven't generally been relateable or useful to me when I've stumbled on them over the years (not that I've really browsed them excessively ever.) Probably stumbled on more relatable stuff looking up bigender on tumblr. But I want to find stuff more focussed on relationship dynamics anyway.

I know there are some non-binary people on the rolereversal subreddit but that's not really the point of it/main focus. Non-binary dating posts on other subreddits tend to consist of something like 'my straight boyfriend doesn't accept me and is transphobic' or 'I'm scared I'll never find someone because I'm attracted to men.' Or 'Is my boyfriend gay if they're in a relationship with me?' Then people will tell them to date trans/non-binary people if they're having issues, and that's about it.

I want to date someone who is more feminine though dynamic wise. Which rules out most trans guys even if I find them attractive (which I can do but usually don't. But even if I'm physically attracted there's still the dynamic issue.) I think probably in the past I wouldn't have cared as much or could have enjoyed the idea of two somewhat masculine people, but I have had relationships with guys in the past, and it didn't really work. Maybe because they're straight and there were sexual issues as well I dunno. But at the same time I don't really want things to be black/white but I think it's an important component. Anyway it feels mostly hopeless because it's too late to be experimenting. I never really wanted to experiment irl. I mean I technically already did and that didn't work and it's like how many relationships do I have to have where it just feels wrong? I wanted to magically figure out what I wanted and how to find that before trying again which is probably unrealistic.

Then it seems like pursuing a relationship with someone transfemme just gets you called a chaser 9/10. I saw some tiktok with this trans woman recently who went on a date with a cis lesbian woman and at one point she mentioned that she'd dated a bunch of trans women in the past which I assume she stupidly brought up because she thought it would be reassuring or something? Like 'I don't mind' (but no trans women hate that lol.) And then she was like in the video 'I'm never dating a cis woman again.' :/

It's not much better if you're afab and non-binary from what I've seen. Maybe that's just because people bring up examples where people use really clunky language like that twitter thread I brought up before where they worded things awkwardly and people were threatening them with violence and saying that 'theyfab chasers are the most evil demographic in the world' lol. There were loads of responses and all but one I think incredibly negative.

And this kind of thing is all I see. People yelling at people for how their sexuality works, or talking about how transphobic their cis partners are. There's actually no advice or useful discussion anywhere. That I've ever stumbled on lol. It almost seems impossible I think though for some people.

[Nyctophilia]

I was worried my milk bottle might fall off the edge of the counter so I imagined an alien intermediary came to talk to the 'Human Gods.'


You are God but not in the grandiose sense you like to imagine where you attempt to stand out and believe you're superior to everyone else in your species, but collectively where everything you imagine - every daydream and nightmare that occupies your mind - becomes a reality. Not an alternate reality, not your alternate reality. You are building reality itself.

There were always many mundane thoughts 'What would happen if the milk bottle fell off the edge of the counter before you screwed the lid back on while you took your eye off it to quickly put something in the bin?' Sometimes you're even somewhat conscious of that 'I wonder if there's an alternate reality where that happened to me?' You make it about you again of course because everything is about you.

The idea that you could really have control on a larger scale is not one most of you want to entertain because that would make you responsible, and it would make you alone. So you come up with these conspiracy theories even among your own people - trying to figure out who's really in control. What demonic supernatural force they work for. And what the plan really is. The irony is you're all correct simultaneously. You are all creating reality.

Right now most of you have lost the ability to imagine a future different from the present. When you do it's just fear and negativity. Seeking out intoxication and constant distraction from your own mind. Clinging to nostalgia at an ever increasing rate to combat your own loneliness. I wanted to know what led to that imbalance this time.

Some of you are self aware about that too in your own myopic way:

"The slow cancellation of the future has been accompanied by a deflation of expectations." - Mark Fisher. Ghosts of my Life: Writings on Depression, Hauntology and Lost Futures.

Maybe this was still somewhat a response to Francis Fukuyama who declared liberal democracy the end of history:

"What we may be witnessing is not just the end of the Cold War, or the passing of a particular period of post-war history, but the end of history as such: That is, the end point of mankind's ideological evolution and the universalization of Western liberal democracy as the final form of human government." - Francis Fukuyama, The End of History and the Last Man

After all he'd mentioned him before in Capitalist Realism: is There no Alternative?

"Fukuyama's thesis that history has climaxed with liberal capitalism may have been widely derided, but it is accepted, even assumed, at the level of the cultural unconscious. It should be remembered, though, that even when Fukuyama advanced it, the idea that history had reached a 'terminal beach' was not merely triumphalist. Fukuyama warned that his radiant city would be haunted, but he thought its specters would be Nietzschean rather than Marxian. [...] a detached spectatorialism, replaces engagement and involvement. This is the condition of Nietzsche's Last Man, who has seen everything, but is decadently enfeebled precisely by this excess of (self) awareness."

But Fukuyama was also scared of the future (at this point it's really just me again critiquing Fukuyama lol):

In 1989, Francis Fukuyama made his now-famous pronouncement that because 'the major alternatives to liberal democracy had exhausted themselves,' history as we knew it had reached its end. Ten years later, he revised his argument: we hadn't reached the end of history, he wrote, because we hadn't yet reached the end of science. Arguing that the greatest advances still to come will be in the life sciences, Fukuyama now asks how the ability to modify Human behaviour will affect liberal democracy.

[...]

In Our Posthuman Future, one of the most important living social philosophers begins to describe the potential effects of the biotechnology revolution on the foundations of liberal democracy: the belief that all human beings are equal by nature.

There was a time when evolutionary theorists like V.C. Wynne-Edwards postulated the existence of species-level altruism, but modern kin selection theory argues against the existence of strong group-selection pressures. It postulates instead that altruism arises primarily out of the need of individuals to get their genes passed on to successive generations. Human beings will by this account be altruistic primarily to family members and other kin: a political system that forces them to spend their Saturdays away from their families, working on behalf of the 'heroic Vietnamese people,' will meet with very deep resistance.- Francis Fukuyama, Our Posthuman Future: Consequences of the Biotechnology Revolution

And yet this isn't true for everyone.

The preceding example demonstrates the ways in which human nature and politics are intertwined: kin selection indicates that a political system that respects the right of people to follow their own individual self-interests and attend to family and friends before they attend to strangers halfway around the world will be more stable, workable and satisfying than one that does not. Human nature does not dictate a single, precise list of rights: it is both complex and flexible as it interacts with various natural and technological environments. But it is not infinitely malleable, and our underlying shared Humanity allows us to rule out certain forms of political order, like tyranny, as unjust. Human rights speak to the most deeply felt and universal Human drives, ambitions, and behaviours, will be a more solid foundation for political order than those that do not This explains why there are a lot of capitalist liberal democracies around the world at the beginning of the twenty-first century but very few socialist-dictatorships. - Our Posthuman Future: Consequences of the Biotechnology Revolution

Of course this is somewhat paradoxical as anything Humans fight for, especially in great numbers, can't really be against Human nature and drives. Except perhaps if you believe this is true:

History has brought about huge changes in human perceptions and behavior such that a member of a hunter-gatherer society and the inhabitant of a contemporary information society seem in many respects to belong to different species. Evolving human institutions and cultural arrangements have produced different human moral attitudes over time. But nature puts limits on the kinds of self-modification that have hitherto been possible. - Our Posthuman Future: Consequences of the Biotechnology Revolution

That some people are less Human than others. That some desires are less Human than others.

So if Human rights rest on a substantive concept of nature, what is that concept? Can it be defined in a way that does justice to everything that is known scientifically about Human behavior? Up to this point, I have not put forward a theory of Human nature, or even a definition of what Human nature is. There are many -- most commonly in the social sciences, but among natural scientists as well -- who would deny that Human nature exists in any meaningful way. Hence we need, in the chapter that follows, to examine what a species-typical behaviour is, and what it might be for our species.

The definition of the term human nature I will use here is the following: human nature is the sum of the behavior and characteristics that are typical of the human species, arising from genetic rather than environmental factors.

^ here he seems to allow for the idea that some thoughts/desires/behaviours that a Human displays could be inhuman because they're not typical.

This definition of Human is common. As an example if most female Humans don't have the desire to penetrate other people (which as far as I can tell they don't,) then any female Human who has that desire would not be Human. Or not entirely Human (even though penetration isn't a behaviour unique to Humans in the first place.) Many people define Humans as being 100% sexually dimorphic so anyone who deviates from gender norms - especially in a sexual context - become alien others. Even moreso if they modify the body or language to highlight this fact. We are pushing an inhuman agenda. This is just a very common politically current example but there are lots and lots of examples of this ranging from people who display emotions differently (common for autistic people who are seen as robotic and alien,) to most people engaging in criminal behaviour, to various ideological or spiritual beliefs which are defined as inhuman etc.

Quotes about Steven Wilson and his music (but I mentioned all this before it's just such a perfect example of what I'm talking about):

I love his music but there's something about it that seems alien. He doesn't seem to understand love, sex, loss and life. It all sounds great but it comes off as though he's playing a part like an actor and not emoting like a human. Am I alone in these thoughts?

Better than most prog bands sure. Doesn't take much though. Can't hold a candle to Cohen or Cave. He doesn't rock hard enough; he doesn't FEEL it. He's a lame alien

No, I feel like the way you describe it is perhaps approaching his songs/lyrics from the wrong way of looking at it.

He's a storyteller. His songs are 99% of the time telling a story from a character's point of view. A lot of these characters are fundamentally flawed (arent we all aha), and that alien vibe you get is often because his "characters" are so disconnected from what we think of as "normal."

I don't think he's just playing a part, he's setting the scene for situations

Some of his music has some genuine emotion, like Together We're Stranger, Blackwater Park, or PT albums like Signify, Lightbulb Sun, and Metanoia (btw, why does nobody ever talk about Metanoia, it's fantastic). Most of his recent work is still good but Happy Returns doesn't make me feel sad and Permanating doesn't make me feel joyful. It's all a little flat in terms of emotional impact. Maybe there's a chance of that old spark coming back with the new album.

Song was pretty relatable to me (because nothing changes for me,) and actually one of my favourites from that album I go back to a lot lol:



Also kind of weird that the music video came out a bit after I had a haircut + colour similar to this (I also have a round face.) The album was loosely based on a real person though Joyce Carol Vincent who didn't look anything like the person in this video.

He wrote a song from the pov of someone waiting for aliens to come pick them up after a war too lol:



People lose their Humanity every day. And many people don't care (that's why the subreddit voidpunk exists for example.) I'm ambivalent myself about whether it matters. The people who argue the most forcefully for strict objective categorisation that you can't deviate from are the quickest to chuck people out of the Human species category when it suits them.

After that Fukuyama attempts to expand the definition of typical:

The word typical requires some explanation. I use the term in the same way that ethologists do when they speak of "species-typical behavior" (for example, pair-bonding is typical of robins and catbirds but not of gorillas and orangutans). One common misunderstanding about the "nature" of an animal is that the word implies rigid genetic determination. In fact, all natural characteristics show considerable variance within the same species; natural selection and evolutionary adaptation could not occur were this not so. This is particularly the case with cultural animals like human beings: since behaviors can be learned and modified, the variance in behavior is inevitably greater and will reflect the individual's environment to a greater extent than for animals incapable of cultural learning. This means that typicality is a statistical artifact--it refers to something close to the median of a distribution of behavior or characteristics.

But a lot of people don't operate that way. They stop at 'typical.' And you can become less Human categorically in people's minds. You can dehumanise Humans, and people do this all the time with their political opponents to justify oppression and violence against groups of people.

The distinction between therapy and enhancement has been attacked on the grounds that there is no way to distinguish between the two in theory, and therefore no way of discriminating in practice. There is a long tradition, argued most forcefully in recent years by the French postmodernist thinker Michel Foucault," which maintains that what society considers to be pathology or disease is actually a socially constructed phenomenon in which deviation from some presumed norm is stigmatized. Homosexuality, to take one example, was long considered unnatural and was classified as a psychiatric disorder until the latter part of the twentieth century, when it was depathologized as part of the growing acceptance of gayness in developed societies. Something similar can be said of dwarfism: human heights are distributed normally, and it is not clear at what point in the distribution one becomes a dwarf. If it is legitimate to give growth hormone to a child who is in the bottom 0.5 percentile for height, who's to say that you can't also prescribe it for someone who is in the fifth percentile, or for that matter in the fiftieth? Geneticist Lee Silver makes a similar argument about future genetic engineering, saying that it is impossible to draw a line between therapy and enhancement in an objective manner: "in every case, genetic engineering will be used to add something to a child's genome that didn't exist in the genomes of either of its parents."

[...]

It has often seemed to me that the only people who can argue that there is no difference in principle between disease and health are those who have never been sick: if you have a virus or fracture your leg, you know perfectly well that something is wrong.

And even in the cases where the borderline between sickness and health, therapy and enhancement, is murkier, regulatory agencies are routinely able to make these distinctions in practice. Take the case of Ritalin. As noted in Chapter 3, the underlying 'disease' that Ritalin is supposed to treat, attention deficit-hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), is most likely not a disease at all but simply the label that we put on people who are in the tail of a normal distribution of behavior related to focus and attention. This is in fact a classic case of the social construction of pathology: ADHD was not even in the medical lexicon a couple of generations ago. There is, correspondingly, no neat line between what one might label the therapeutic and enhancement uses of Ritalin. At one end of the distribution, there are children almost anyone would say are so hyperactive that normal functioning is impossible for them, and it is hard to object to treating them with Ritalin. At the other end of the distribution are children who have no trouble whatsoever concentrating or interacting, for whom taking Ritalin might be an enjoyable experience that would give them a high just like any other amphetamine. But they would be taking the drug for enhancement rather than for therapeutic reasons, and thus most people would want to prevent them from doing so.

What is more important is to think about the design of institutions that can make and enforce regulations on, for example, the use of preimplantation diagnosis and screening for therapeutic rather than enhancement purposes, and how those institutions can be extended internationally.

The politics of Ritalin is very revealing of the impoverished thought categories by which we have come to understand character and behavior, and it offers us a foretaste of what will come if and when genetic engineering, with its potentially far more powerful behavioral enhancements, becomes available. Those who believe that they are suffering from ADHD are often desperate to believe that their inability to concentrate or to perform well in some life function is not, as they have often been told, a matter of poor character or weak will but the result of a neurological condition. Like gays who point to a "gay gene" as the source of their behavior, they would like to absolve themselves of personal responsibility for their actions. As the title of one popular recent pro-Ritalin book puts it, "it's nobody's fault"

When you think about it this is a surprisingly anti-right wing core view. 'Hierarchy exists but do not attempt to enhance or change yourself.' He claims to be a liberal, probably wouldn't consider himself 'right wing' but that doesn't really matter because right wing people (pro hierarchy,) are all on this train. There are limits they've created to what people should be able to do and modify. Not just technical but ethical. "Even if it's possible don't do it."

Fukuyama quotes this in the book:

"All beings so far have created something beyond themselves; and do you want to be the ebb of this great flood and even go back to the beasts rather than overcome man? What is the ape to man? A laughingstock or a painful embarrassment. And man shall be just that for the overman: a laughingstock or a painful embarrassment. You have made your way from worm to man, and much in you is still worm. Once you were apes, and even now, too, man is more ape than any ape." Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra 1.3

It's a kind of ongoing Ship of Theseus dilemma too. 'We have to define what is Human. If people change too much in too many ways are they still Human?'

This thought process of separating enhancement from therapeutic is applied to gender transition too where you must be suffering from extreme gender dysphoria in order to modify your body and modifying social categories (such that a trans woman with a beard can go into the women's toilets,) receives the greatest push back in some sense because that's basically just creating an entirely new game. This is a debate within the trans community too not just outside of it. Dysphoria is something most trans people struggle with to varying degrees (both social and physical dysphoria.) But it's obvious to me now that nothing makes transphobic people more pissed off than someone who just seems happy and isn't emphasising their own suffering.



^ Not even limited to this really people hate people who seem naive and bubbly. It's just worse in this case because she's talking about trans stuff. Also the amount she talks about it annoys people too. Just like people are annoyed by autistic people because they like to talk about their special interests a lot.

Also on the one hand I do think it's insane that she was invited to the white house but on the other she had such insane backlash from conservatives for no reason that it made sense based on the tribal nature of the culture war and also it's very similar I think to the reason BTS were invited to the White House - a South Korean boyband derided globally for encouraging men to be feminine, and a group that is mostly loved by teenage girls. Who we've all decided we hate for some reason. There's nothing edgier than being a teenage girl.





'I thought this was going to be a sequel to the art of war it kind of is but like it literally isn't.' 🤣

Nothing edgier well at least where conservatives are concerned. Oh and they know this that's why they're ironically going to Barbie films now. 'My producers dragged me' OK.



In that video too when discussing Dylan Mulvaney and the tampon thing:

It's not that we feel threatened. It is that it feels like you are making light of being a woman. Like anyone can be one. like a tampon makes you a woman. Having a period is a sacred thing for women. Sometimes it has brought woman trauma starting their periods. It is one thing that makes us a woman and it is emotional. Some women don't even like to talk about their periods. It is extremely personal.

I know this is common and I also hated the idea of starting it. My mum has done that kind of thing - whispering in public in shops or whatever about it before. I think I probably learnt about it from school first? Many years before I started it since I didn't start mine until I was 13 and a 1/2 but there were lots of girls who started at age 10 or so. Even years after I started my period I denied having started it to another girl asking about it because I didn't want people to know I guess she suggested I see a doctor haha. I also tried to pretend it wasn't happening the first time I had one because I didn't want to talk to my mum about it so I ended up using some free pads we were all given at school and then that wasn't enough so I bled everywhere and had to hide that. Eventually I developed my own coping mechanism where I see it as an edgy thing that has the power to creep other people out which makes it powerful - also bleeding is pretty metal and demonic. But of course I do still occasionally have disgust if I bring it up in convos irl. None of what I've just mentioned is ideal obviously. The opposite extreme 'oh it's sacred and feminine #goddess cult~' isn't good either imo because it's still not neutral. Feeling so ashamed and weak etc isn't ideal. Making the case that this defines women seems chauvinistic or potentially just another case of defining suffering as womanhood (if you feel bad about periods.)

Also in spite of what I just mentioned Dylan's comments didn't bother me at all. As long as she's not chasing me around trying to force tampons on me when I didn't bring it up, which was not what she was suggesting, I don't care. I'm a bit weird though (LOL OBVIOUSLY.) But I kind of think guys with period fetishes are cute anyway (and that's what's triggering most people here obviously.) I found some website where someone was talking about that before. Not something I'd personally want to engage in with someone directly, but his general thoughts about the development of this etc were cute. Like you could tell it was a kind of submissive thing for him so it wasn't threatening to me personally.

There was a 'luxury portaloo' (that's how the company branded itself,) I used recently which had separate male and female toilet rooms with multiple cubicles. I was there with my brother. The water didn't work in the male toilet so my brother decided to go into the female toilet. I usually go in female toilets in public as it gets less questioning. I went into the male toilet after that because I wanted to know what he was talking about when he said it had less cubicles and wasn't as nice as the female one. No one was around and so none of this mattered at all. He said 'there aren't as many cubicles because there are urinals.'

Earlier that day we'd been talking about something else and he mentioned some awkward encounters in male toilets he'd had before because of the social norm where everyone uses a urinal. Like one time trying to use a hand dryer that was placed right next to one. Not always enough room. He doesn't like using them. This isn't the first time I've heard him bring up his discomfort with urinals either over the years. I commented that I found it amusing that so many men have a kind of pathological fear of being gay for all kinds of silly reasons (just check out the 'fellas is it gay' meme lol birthdays are 'gay,') but then just get their dicks out together in public because it's a social norm.

"That's a bit weird innit?"

But that's because they don't worry about being gay. They worry about seeming like an effeminate homosexual male who bottoms during sexual intercourse. They worry about being seen as feminine and weak.

(Also yes this whole situation was a really weird [BEEP] example of synchronicity.)

Fukuyama also quotes this in a section titled 'why we should worry'

"Take Ectogenesis. Pfitzner and Kawaguchi had got the whole technique worked out. But would the Governments look at it? No. There was something called Christianity. Women were forced to go on being viviparous." Aldous Huxley, Brave New World

This is another serious concern people have atm. Surrogacy, the idea of artificial wombs and womb transplants all attract quite a lot of backlash and concern.

Fukuyama doesn't seem entirely opposed to the idea of genetic engineering? But is emphasising caution.

Many kinds of characteristics that a parent might want to give a child have to do with the subtler elements of personality whose benefits are not as clear-cut as looks or intelligence. Parents may be under the sway of a contemporary fad or cultural bias or simple political correctness: one generation may prefer ultrathin girls, or pliable boys, or children with red hair--preferences that can easily fall out of favor in the next generation. One could argue that parents are already free to make such mistakes on behalf of their children and do so all the time by miseducating them or imposing their own quirky values on them.

As noted in Chapter 3, we are already using psychotropic drugs to androgynize our children, giving Prozac to depressed girls and Ritalin to hyperactive boys. The next generation may for whatever reason prefer supermasculine boys and hyperfeminine girls. But you can always stop giving drugs to children if you don't like their effects. Genetic engineering, on the other hand, will embed one generation?s social preferences in the next.

Parents can easily make wrong decisions concerning the best interests of their children because they rely on advice from scientists and doctors with their own agendas. The impulse to master human nature out of simple ambition or on the basis of ideological assumptions about the way people ought to be is all too common.

Brings up David Reimer who transphobic people (or just anyone who dislikes androgyny really,) like to use to argue against people choosing certain things for themselves that go against sex norms.

In his book As Nature Made Him, the journalist John Colapinto describes the heartbreaking story of a boy named David Reimer, who had the double misfortune of having his penis accidentally cauterized as a baby during a botched circumcision and falling under the supervision of a noted sex specialist at Johns Hopkins University, John Money. The latter stood at one extreme of the nature-nurture controversy, arguing throughout his career that gender identities are not natural but constructed after birth. David Reimer provided Money with an opportunity to test his theory, since he happened to be one of a pair of monozygotic twins and thus could be compared with his genetically identical twin brother. After the circumcision accident, Money had the boy castrated and oversaw the raising of David as a girl named Brenda.

Brenda's life became a private hell because she knew that, despite what her parents and Money told her, she was a boy and not a girl. From an early age she insisted on urinating standing up rather than
sitting down. Later,

Enrolled in Girl Scouts, Brenda was miserable. "I remember making daisy chains and thinking, If this is the most exciting thing in Girl Scouts, forget it," David says. "I kept thinking of the fun stuff my brother was doing in Cubs." Given dolls at Christmas and birthdays, Brenda simply refused to play with them. "What can you do with a doll?" David says today, his voice charged with remembered frustration. "You look at it. You dress it. You undress it. Comb its hair. It?s boring! With a car, you can drive it somewhere, go places. I wanted cars"

The effort to create a new gender identity wreaked so much emotional havoc that by the time Brenda reached puberty, she broke free of Money and had her sex change reversed through penis reconstruction; today David Reimer is reportedly a happily married man.

Of course two years after this book was published, he committed suicide. Just like Mark Fisher.

Nowadays it is much better understood that sexual differentiation begins well before birth, and that the brains of human males (as well as other animals) undergo a process of "masculinization" in utero when they receive a bath of prenatal testosterone. What is noteworthy about this story, however, is that Money could assert for almost fifteen years in scientific papers that he had succeeded in changing Brenda's sexual identity to that of a girl, when exactly the opposite was the case.

Me and my brother are both more androgynous than him. He seemed like a very masculine person. My brother is mostly masculine but still went through a phase of playing with and looking after a baby doll as a kid. I liked toy cars and dolls and I always wondered in the back of my mind what the point of brownies (girl scout equivalent in UK,) was when we mostly played inside and never did... Anything. I don't really remember doing much of anything. We role played Harry Potter once at this camp during the weekend which was fun but we never actually went camping or did anything outside much at all (we'd just sleep in dormitories at this one place with bunkbeds when we went there.) I always remember wondering why we never actually went camping. 'Isn't that what kids in these groups are supposed to do? Why do we spend most weeks inside doing random things?' There were badges we'd get for doing certain things and I know I got a bunch but I have no memory of any of that either. So I assume it wasn't a formative experience really lol.

There were these two girls who were friends and would always wander off and just play together lol one had this beanie baby she'd bring everywhere and was very special to her. I only liked going because I got to hang out with my cousin who I was close to... After she left (she was older than me, so aged out of it before me,) the whole thing became less interesting but I kept on with it till I guess the following year. I was made the leader of one of the groups or something by this point though I don't really remember that meaning anything significant and like I say most of my memories are vague lol. Also there was this incredibly cringe initiation ritual essentially with some kind of motto involving the queen I think lol.

So at this point I should probably also point out that the particular brownies I went to was ran by my aunt. My mum also helped out at certain points over the years on/off and my brother was there most of the time. I guess because he had nobody to look after him otherwise (I mean my dad was around but he worked though he finished at about 6-7pm and ???) But he also didn't really participate. I think sometimes socialised with the girls who wandered off and was kind of a irl troll sometimes. Which makes perfect sense to me given the dynamic. I'm sure there was some attempt to like create a narrative around that at some point but don't really remember. In this kind of limbo state where he's not really allowed to participate but also just is sometimes. When we went on trips he was there too.

One memory I have is of having to go to the toilets there late at night when most of the school was dark and creepy. I think either I imagined the possibility of it being haunted with ghosts, or someone did. Augmenting reality again.

So I think about that sometimes (including yesterday cause I saw some stuff while walking,) when I see certain activities for kids and teens about how boring/empty my childhood and especially teen years were in that regard. Like I made my own entertainment sure climbed trees, went to the park with family, messed around with scooters and skateboards, and played video games along with all the stereotypical girly stuff. Was a bit more adventurous when I left the country completely. I don't think my childhood before the age of 11 was bad I enjoyed it at the time, the only issue was bullying in school. But due to a combination of social anxiety, motivation issues, and just boring stuff being the norm I never really stuck with or in some cases even started doing anything most of the time when it came to clubs etc. This just got worse as I became a teenager.

Whether that was tap and ballet, fencing, acting stuff, music school (tbf my mum actually took me out of this after I missed a couple of weeks, but I was finding playing the recorder boring anyway,) cello lessons, netball - tbf netball is boring basketball, the anime and manga club I went to in sixth form once and then never returned to lol. The biggest issue was the presence of other people because of my personality and anxiety issues but I also don't stick with things most of the time not involving other people either (like teaching myself various programming languages, artistic stuff, writing, teaching myself to play the guitar, trying to use Reaper to make music. I think my record was the time I bought some knitting needles lol and then just never used them at all. Tons of unread/unfinished books too over the years.) My brother is very similar so it's partly genetic and/or shared environment factors I think (our dad is like this too.) I've been making gaming videos for a couple of years but already struggling with keeping up with that.

It's also like that Parks and Rec episode where Ron and Leslie have competing groups. Can't find all the relevant clips though:



Leslie's group is about maximising fun and Ron's about survival. Ultimately most of the people from Ron's group decide to go to Leslie's group. I would say my experience wasn't like either though as I have few memories, and most of the time it felt like very little was happening.

Leslie feels bad because Ron is left out so she ends up encouraging boys and girls who like the idea of Ron's activities to join up to his group. This would annoy a lot of people because you're not supposed to have mixed sex groups. They say while making absolutely no groups for androgynous people to even attempt at a compromise. Though of course that would be unfeasible in much the same way as trans sports categories are.



LOL April. Her character really resonates with me because she's completely demotivated and bored with life, and uses creepy edgy [BEEP] as a coping mechanism. I quote this show way too often but the reason I identify with it so much is because Pawnee reminds me of my hometown. It's like this place that everyone thinks is [BEEP] objectively it's really not the best, and I think being from somewhere like that might even contribute the most to this attitude. She's a purposefully extreme example of the type but very common.

She has to make up insane stuff to entertain herself and so does her best friend:



Orin is actually my favourite parks and rec character tbh lol. But he's barely in the show.

The best scene though is when Ron is like 'you forgot to paint a painting son.' And he's just standing in front of an empty canvas.



"I like people, places, and things. And Pawnee is my favourite place in the world~"

"What? We don't get cash this is for a fence? Oh my god... I quit. I quit."

"No I didn't win, but at least I didn't make any new friendships."

So I was walking with my brother and we ran out of footpath so we just started walking on the road verge and when a car passed we'd jump up onto the verge then continue walking on the road (it's much slower to keep walking on the verge. I mean it was raised and not flat or level with the road + stinging nettles, lots of overgrown bits + random holes etc) and at one point my brother wanted to turn back because we couldn't see that far ahead to know if the verge was big enough to continue doing that. But I was really determined at this point so was like 'well what if we get closer and look because we can't really see from here.' I wasn't 100% sure either but I did really want to continue. He was like 'we're not going to do this just because you really want to get to where we're going.' So we kind of debated this and in the end we just kept going and it was fine. And it was actually fun like an adventure. "A video game irl." Although in the end

I STILL DIDN'T SEE THE FUCKING MANSION LMFAO. (There's this place I keep trying to get to. I have similar issues in dreams sometimes though not this specific scenario. I'm probably going to wake up soon and realise my whole life has been a dream.) It was that hotel further away all along. And we got to the estate so late that the stuff that was there was closed anyway. But I did see some other cool stuff like this abandoned house that is now dangerous to go in (there were signs around,) and home to barn owls apparently. Lots of pheasants (I think they were pheasants,) around that look funny when they run.

And once again I'm reminded of this video because everyone's outlook is always negative: