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SC GOP Reintroduces Bill to Punish People Getting Abortions With Death Penalty

This week MAGA extremists in South Carolina introduced a bill mandating the death penalty for women who seek an abortion. And I am guessing this is probably the first you’ve heard about it. Sadly, corporate media remains criminally silent on these grotesque attacks on women’s health and basic rights. It is critical we remain aware of these threats, because they are real, and that we remain active in responding to these threats in real time. Let’s Address This.

I looked and apparently about 42% of South Carolina are pro choice. It would make me very happy if they all left the state and it just collapsed.

"i love babies, and I don't care how many mothers I have to kill to protect them"

Pro-lifeing them right to death

Lol.

They don't care how many of the babies they later kill through their other policy decisions either.

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This is just straight up venting honestly.

I'm a 29 old male. For some reason I'm not attracted to what many men are attracted to: feminine, cute, short girls. I do not feel sexual or romantic attraction towards them, and I can very well be a friend with one but they're not really a partner material for me.

I've had one relationship before, and it lasted four years. My ex was my height, physically fit and slightly dominant. She liked guys with long hair and not too tall, so we fit each other very well. After we separated and I got over her, I started to look for girls to date, and met a few, but nothing ever developed and I simply don?t find romantic interest in them, other than that I don?t want to be single forever.

I even started wondering if I might be gay, but I'm definitely not. No attraction towards men whatsoever.

I realized that, even as a teenager, I always fantasized that my girlfriend would be tall and slightly masculine, someone like a peer to me. As if the traditional roles were a bit reversed. I don?t know why that is. I know it's weird. I sometimes wish I had more common taste, so that I could more easily find people to date, but it is what it is.

It's been two years single now. The dating pool for people like me seems near non-existent, but I was lucky once. How do I go about trying to find a compatible match?

Yeah I'm stuck in a similar but opposite kind of hell where I prefer guys with long hair who are androgynous. Unfortunately I'm non-binary and also short and 'cute' which is completly wrong for my gender/gender expression.

I don't present femme though and one guy in my past nit picked me about not wearing dresses (among other things,) but I'm kind of grossed out by being in a heteronornative relationship I've realised (maybe thats not it I dunno. There are several overlapping problems which make me functionally borderline asexual, but regardless dating guys felt wrong anyway.) Which means I'd prob have to date a more feminine person somehow so they don't see me that way? Impossible almost unless I date femme woman and even then I'm still 5'2"

Like this couple (Not that I'm like either of them I'm more alternative too when not completely apathetic and not giving a fuck,):



I doubt I'd be happy being expected to be 100% masculine either.

I don't know its weird having multiple conflicting preferences regarding my own role and the people I'm attracted to and then my personality which doesn't work anyway and I have the sex appeal of a potato (regardless of gendered standards,) and so on.

Imagine like early 2000s Avril (mostly because I just went back to a previous page in this thread to find a video link lol,) but I'm 33, don't wear makeup including eyeliner, if I leave the house I have to wear glasses (which I have not changed since 2010 so they're still like rectangular ones - completely out of style and I don't care but I do personally think other glasses are attractive these days,) and I have 0 swag and less attractive face. Nerdy Avril. We have a similar build I think. That's me atm especially with my current hair cut that will eventually be going (I'm still in a competition to grow it to my waist just to say I did but it's driving me insane and it's approaching borderline self harm.)



You see how much confidence she had? I don't have that either. This isn't a good video showing what I mean. I picked this one because:

Strangely, she looks very sad

And eventually she agreed and started being more bubbly.

That's the superficial aesthetic though.

Basically it's that trans guy who never medically transistioned kind of vibe not Avril me I'm trying to describe the collage of my cursed existence (very select group, also some trans guys are like this too but have medically transistioned) rather than tomboy (but I put in so little effort to my aethetic now lol. I'm hoping to change that over the next 2-3 years and have more alien stuff.) But again without the confidence in my case. That works a lot better on people who aren't me and don't give a [BEEP] about other people (and are more confident,) case in point (he is a genderfluid trans guy he's made videos about this to be clear I'm not outing someone):



Omg I forgot but days ago my brother said I looked like this guy from Conan. I've forgotten his name. James Earl Jones played him? because of my hair and I was wearing a dressing gown over a jacket because it was so cold. Thulsa Doom. I haven't watched that film. He was just sat there laughing for like 5 minutes.

He comes up with the weirdest [BEEP] lol. I prefered grunge musician.

I like how based on what I've said you would have no idea how to picture me now lol. I am actually white though not black.

I am an evil wizard though. That part is true.

I am the void itself.

I was looking for a meme but then found this:



Is mermaids a video game or something? If not I used to do this as a kid roleplaying by myself lol.





"While I seek to enslave the other, the other seeks to enslave me."

"It's quite a cynical view of personal relationships"

Oh no what he described is a perfect description of how psychologists/therapists etc say people with schizoid personality disorder view relationships. Like the slave/master/exile dynamic but I'm too lazy to search around right now.

I vaguely remember someone elso pointing out an overlap between existential philosophy and the disorder too.

I like the art style of this meme. It makes me think of some kind of retro video game or something.

Ha! My ex said he likes tomboys too.

He ended up leaving me cuz I wasn't feminine enough. Including old fashioned gendered roles.

Good luck my friend. You'll find her.

A guy who kept telling me to wear dresses and commenting on my masculine traits, also that I wasn't traditional in some ways started dating a mildly tomboyish woman with short hair lol.

I've posted about him too much but he was very confusing because he was quite traditional in some ways, and did that but then one time asked me to save him from a spider and called me his hero on facebook?

I think I just come across as socially weird to people and that's the main problem and social anxiety is a major problem unless you're comfortable in that role that sticks you into. The problem is bigger than that though it's like I didn't come with any kind of scripts preinstalled that other people have. Another reason to suspect I have undiagnosed autism honestly.

I couldn't have dated that guy anyway by that point as I'd broken up with someone else in our social circle. Too messy.

Date a bisexual girl

Most of them are feminine. Everyone in this thread has different and confusing definitions of every term. I hate communication now honestly.

I'm a feminine male with a masculine female. It's great. I recommend looking for females in a male dominated career path. Engineers/scientists. Military is a decent place. You might also check the woods. If a wild female ranger appears, let her know you're in heat.

Feminists are fun, and easy to find. Look for the girl in shorts with her legs unshaved.

Haha, straight to the point! Glad you found your other half!

I work in IT, pretty male dominated, The few girls we have are nerdy, but feminine. Except for one lesbian. I don't want to date someone from work though, it seems like a life complication.

Nah I don't shave my legs but I'm still nerdy. I can imagine the type. I bet he's looking for someone who works out and is sporty and socially confident so nerdy women are masculine in the wrong way and too feminine overall. Military would probably work though yeah.

Sports tomboy or like kinda nerdy tomboy?

Is there a big difference? My ex was both sporty and worked in IT, so I guess both are okay? I exercise regularly myself and I am a bit nerdy, so I guess both can be a common interest for me.

Lol yeah huge difference. One is a tomboy the other is a 'trans woman' or femboy even if they're a cis woman, or your coworkers most likely:



Lol no but sometimes. We live in the reality where people get annoyed that you're not a femboy and maybe call you transphobic. For cosplaying Link? Completely defeats the point of the character design which was purposefully designed in an androgynous way so anyone could identify with him. We've also now invented 'femme tomboy' apparently:

if you look at the way he sits but also speaks and look at the body language you will see what he is

if she wore a swimsuit you'd stop saying such things as your jaw would drop to the floor.

pretty sure I wouldn't because clothes have nothing to do with what I'm reading with my eyes

Nah, Emiru's a Femme Tomboy. Not a full tomboy cus she occasionally dresses like a girl, but mostly a tomboy.

Feel like I'm reading an entry on urban dictionary.



I was curious after stumbling on some videos by her where she talked about this but seemingly for the past 4 years or so on/off she has to deal with guys demanding to know if she's 'really female' and the complete opposite people getting annoyed that she's not a femboy. Because she does cosplay basically. I noticed this before stumbling on her with other people online though. There was this British YouTuber in the late 2000s/early 2010s who had a bunch of people insisting this.

I was fascinated because it's like people who are visually passing as female but more popular with male viewers and they think this is either funny or... They genuinely believe it sometimes (though you can find similar people irl in some environments who will say similar things even back in the early 2010s,) and the British YouTuber was before the femboy subculture took off too. It's always someone with the same kind of appearence and mannerisms. Like clearly female and more feminine than butch, but slightly boyish with more nerdy guy interests.

Then people start reacting this way.



How are you? What?

What is this? Was there a meeting somewhere?

Anyway and it sort of happened with shoeonhead too lol. She also has a lower voice I guess.

If you ever come out as trans or non-binary though they will insist you are the opposite of whatever you say obviously. Or if they don't pay much attention or you don't show photos they will just think you're a trans woman again because they think all trans people are trans women. That happens on twitter.

"Are you a girl?"

"Depends. Which answer is more likely to make you to leave my stream and never come back".

"Because whichever it is, it's that one".

Lol.

https://www.sportskeeda.com/esports/...-twitch-stream

Good to know there are people out there who feel similar! Hope you're happy with your partner! Sometimes it feels like I'm all alone in this, and it's even awkward to bring it up with someone.

My ex also sometimes wore a skirt (when it was hot) or would put makeup on (when attending some social gathering) but most days she wore gender-neutral clothes and no makeup. It's not as much about appearance itself as it is about the relationship dynamic I think. Feeling valued and appreciated for who you are, not for who you pretend to be. Although clothing can signal such preferences I guess.

Mostly I feel shy about it, to be honest. It feels like I don't dare to mention it when I meet someone, because it sounds weird and somewhat inappropriate, like some kind of kink. Not something you bring up on the first date. Maybe I'm too self-conscious.

I do have a Bumble account, but not much luck on it so far. I post my pictures there so one can see I have long hair, but I mostly write about my interests in there, as in sports, gaming, music. It feels like it's hard enough to get a match without making it weird.

It is a preference, but an uncommon one, or so it feels. One does risk getting rejected when opening up about personal feelings. It is a bit hard.

I guess you are right, in of itself it's nothing to be ashamed of. However, it feels as though all the girls I dated (other than my ex) had these expectations on what a relationship role is, and it just feels like I would immediately disappoint them if I was honest. As if telling a teacher you forgot your homework or something.

I am actually looking for D&D groups near me! Not for dating as such, but for socializing and gaming. Perhaps one can find someone there. I will continue with Bumble, but I think your suggestions make sense and I can modify my profile a bit.

I guess you could try getting advice from the role reversal subreddit but there are no dating sites or anything like that. It's also not quite what he's looking for since he said he's looking for a peer.

Please checkout r/rolereversal you will find your crowd there

Lol I just said that then read this but the thing is when I go there I mostly just find arguing because people vary in how they deviate from gender norms in all kind of ways and so there's complaing about women who want to have strap on sex, there's complaining because like me most of the women there aren't that masculine or muscular which is preferred, most of the guys aren't femboys and complain about that. There's complaining. For some reason there's a bunch of guys who go there when the only thing they really want is just to be cuddled/shown affection which is messed up and says a lot about modern relationships And Northern European/Germanic cultures combined really.

Also lot so of the negtives of progressive culture there which is like subtly sex negative and naggy 'stop sexualising people' kind of thing. And finally still no real advice on where to find people. But I don't go there reguarly that's just what I've ran into several times.

Technically though it is sort of the place to go though. Technically.

Damn, that's like the story of my life. I understand you very much since I'm also a more masculine and buff woman (not tall though) whose only type are feminine men with long hair. I never ever managed to find a straight guy who would fit into my criteria and it was frustrating as hell. While I am sorry that you experience the same pain as me, I am also glad that I'm not the only one with this problem, since it is really confusing and makes you wonder if something's wrong with you. We do exist though, even if we are few, just keep on looking.

A lot of this resonates with me, I'm a guy with some feminine traits who absolutely loves tomboys, and I wish there was a way to easily find women with more masculine traits through the standard apps.

My previous relationship was with a woman who was pretty feminine in appearance, but had some masculine and dominant traits. We talked about fantasies and kinks, and I told her I have a thing for tomboys / tomboy traits. She turned out to be enthusiastic about indulging in this fantasy for me! Whenever we'd hang out at home from that point onwards she'd wear gym shorts, boxer briefs, no bra / sports bra, baggy t-shirts / hoodies, no makeup, etc.

It drove me wild.

This is just to say you can craft something you want too, as opposed to limiting yourself to only searching specifically for it.

Hahaha force masc your girlfriend. I don't feel comfortable doing that though and my ex even refused to wear eyeliner one time I asked. Not a good idea to view people as projects really.

Women are (on average) unfortunately more agreeable though. Put aside their own preferences more. But if they really dislike something they might do it and resent you later.

Also I was curious as I realised this thread was from 2 years ago and the OP is still single (or single again,) but posting on the role reversal subreddit. Apparently he liked it when guys catcalled him and assumed he and his ex were lesbians in the past or people mistook him for a girl. He said it made him feel more confident about being attractive to his ex because they they thought he was attractive but as a girl? I think his reaction to that was interesting (in that most guys wouldn't feel that way.) But he likes working out and looking more masculine now + he's 30+ so hoping to find someone OK with both.

I've only been in one relationship so far, it was RR and she initiated it, mostly. While I'm into RR, I have no idea how to bring it up to a girl without it becoming awkward. It does limit my interactions with women, the fear of being judged or seen as a weirdo takes away the courage to initiate romantic contact.

I guess it is easier for girls to break gender norms and take the lead than for men to do the opposite. You can see a lot of strong-willed girls in media being celebrated, but not often men who embrace their feminine side, for example.

Unless you are very socially confident it's not easy having to ask people out no. That's why sapphic women often end up in this situation where no one takes the initiative or escalates anything. You know like the 4chan greentext post I posted yesterday lol.

As to being perceived as weird, I agree overall. I was a goth in high school. [...] It stood out extra because I was a boy, the only goth at school, where we had about 3 goth girls. It's easy to ignore prejudice and haters precisely because you don't care about their opinion. That's good, I did that for years. But when a love interest is involved, their opinion of you matters, because you want to attract them. Your love life is at stake.

Paradoxically, a girl got attracted to me because I was a goth and asked me out, but I refused. I had no interest in dating in high school. She had this kinda pastel-anime thing going on. Sometimes I wonder what would have been if I agreed to date her. Oh well.

I feel really confident somehow that I would have been into him back then and he would have rejected me or otherwise made it really clear (before even getting to that point lol,) that he wasn't into me even in an insulting way like some people I knew in my past lol. Not that I've ever liked pastel colours but yeah I just know.



It's snowing in Birmingham? Oh wait this video is 4 weeks ago nm it was snowing here too back then.

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'sickest Runescape drop ever'

Lol I see what they did there..



Me looking for music for my video:

"OK well this works well. Let me just check that this guy was the composer of thi- oh he was arrested and is in prison now for Spoiler: sexually assaulting a minor god damn it musicians can you stop."

Someone saying he looks like he commits the crime before he committed said crime has not aged well at all. Up there with that "there will be a femcel shooter who name drops radfemhitler in the next 2 years" tweet.



"And I just want a million pounds."

Dollars will be fine too.

I already had a dream involving my YT channel that came true around the same time that this went down, so I'll prob have to wait till the next 'event'

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They also say that the bottom 80 percent of men are "left to fight for the bottom 20% of females. This works out for about 70% of the males, leaving just 10% of the males to struggle for the bottom 10% of females, who only want access to the top 20% of males."

This isn't the same thing as sex obviously but 20% of women don't reproduce. This has remained relatively stable over time and even before they started keeping records of various things there's evidence of that.

So basically since many women would have sex/relationships with guys they're not that into to have kids, or because they were pressured by family/society, there's still some percentage that never does.

I dont think they were ever going to have sex or even a sexless relationship with those guys.

Like I said (in a previous post I may or may not have deleted,) Humans are kind of but not entirely eusocial.

I also want to point out that historically, it was quite normal for about*15-20% of women to have no children. So 20% failing to reproduce is on the high end, but not historically anomalous. What*is*weird is for the people who*do*have children to have so few. Given that the average US woman has fewer children than she wants, I think there's room to improve this. If just 15% of the women who*already have at least one child*would have one additional kid, that alone would boost this sample's TFR by .23, to 2.1, so replacement level. A TFR of ~1.6(which is the more commonly accepted TFR) would require about 1/3 of women who already have at least one child having an additional kid.

TIL that throughout history, about 80 percent of women reproduced, whereas only 40 percent of men did

If Humans were entirely eusocial some portion would lose the physiological ability to reproduce, and would not be unhappy about not having sex and/or children as they often are. They would also be less destructive.

Female school shooters are in the bottom 20% of women and the bottom 20% of men I guess. They shouldn't be in the latter but they get placed there nonetheless. Because people refuse to see extreme behaviour as female and hell even being very political is considered as being like a man by right wing men...

https://archive.nytimes.com/tierneyl...cky-questions/

"If you make a list of activities that are done in large groups, you are likely to have a list of things that men do and enjoy more than women: team sports, politics, large corporations, economic networks, and so forth."

Men go to extremes more than women, and that fits in well with culture using them to try out lots of different things, rewarding the winners and crushing the losers.

You can probably as with most things replace women somewhat with 'liberal,' or 'creative.' But that's less easy. So "female killers are man-women" happens instead. Tbf "liberal women are man-women" also happens and "right wing women are man-women"

In other words, incels see themselves as that bottom 10 percent, and view their celibate status as a mathematical problem that's rigged against them. It's clear that this fixation also translates into an obsession over not just the sexual privilege that more attractive people have, but the financial one -- it?s precisely because of her looks that Stacy can afford to carry a $2,000 Gucci bag, while Becky?s stuck with her $5 backpack because her selfies aren?t as hot. It?s no surprise, then, that some incels have called for a version of*"sexual Marxism,"*or a system in which every person is somehow matched with a partner of a similar level of wealth and attractiveness.

Will never happen. Only technology is new Human behaviour never is. This would be new so instead you will get sex robots and artifical wombs. Eventually.



Do you think Bjork would have had a kid if she wasn't a famous musician? I ask myself this question everyday (no I don't lol.)

Grimes only had kids with Elon Musk though because of an AI techbro joke:



But sometimes it's probably better not to reproduce with the top 1% of men and this was certainly one of those times in my incredibly biased opinion.

I mean I know David Bowie was dead by the time you were thinking about it probably, which meant you couldn't steal his uh fluids for Satanic rituals as Jimmy Page suggested (plus the antichrist was already born as I said before Marilyn Manson.) But still.

David Bowie used to store his urine in a fridge as he feared that Jimmy Page and a satanic coven planned to steal his bodily fluids to conceive the Antichrist

Bowie became convinced that because*Page owned the former home of black-magic*philosopher Aleister Crowley, who he believed was in cahoots with the witches and was paranoid that they were out to get him and, more crucially, drain him of his fluid. Page?s affiliation with Crowley has seen him accused of numerous otherworldly misdemeanours, including allegedly backmasking satanic messages in Led Zeppelin songs. With this knowledge seemingly at the forefront of Bowie's cooked cerebral cortex, he stocked up his fridge with urine in an erratic bid to keep his soul pure.

I guess it was less of a direct genetic link than a creative one ...



(Yes I am going to keep bringing this Bowie anecdote up it's fucking hilarious and no I dont think Marilyn Manson is the antichrist. I don't believe in that belief system except for amusement purposes and it's all very 1999.)

Elon is rich but is he really the 'top 1%' if most people aren't attracted to him? Or if he's not the best musician? Or if he doesn't have great hair? Depends on the competition, I guess.

I'll just pretend she had kids with Chelsea Manning I guess.

She had two kids by surrogate.

It's much more entertaining for me.



This means we will never know that's fair. Louis is the only one who could get this info. Though this is a BBC thing so...

Damn this post should have ended with 'I'll just pretend she had kids with Chelsea Manning I guess.' Now this entire post is ruined just like my disrupted sleep.

I mean I don't need/want to know (my own opinion is it never happened anyway.) It's just if I was the 'demon' from The Witching Hour book by Anne Rice I would do that.

From the author of the extraordinary Vampire Chronicles comes a huge, hypnotic novel of witchcraft and the occult through four centuries.

Demonstrating, once again, her gift for spellbinding storytelling and the creation of legend, Anne Rice makes real for us a great dynasty of witches--a family given to poetry and to incest, to murder and to philosophy; a family that, over the ages, is itself haunted by a powerful, dangerous, and seductive being.

On the veranda of a great New Orleans house, now faded, a mute and fragile woman sits rocking ... and*The Witching Hour*begins.

It begins in our time with a rescue at sea.**Rowan Mayfair, a beautiful woman, a brilliant practitioner of neurosurgery--aware that she has special powers but unaware that she comes from an ancient line of witches--finds the drowned body of a man off the coast of California and brings him to life.**He is Michael Curry, who was born in New Orleans and orphaned in childhood by fire on Christmas Eve, who pulled himself up from poverty, and who now, in his brief interval of death, has acquired a sensory power that mystifies and frightens him.

As these two, fiercely drawn to each other, fall in love and--in passionate alliance--set out to solve the mystery of*her*past and*his*unwelcome gift, the novel moves backward and forward in time from today's New Orleans and San Francisco to long-ago Amsterdam and a chateau in the France of Louis XIV.**An intricate tale of evil unfolds--an evil unleashed in seventeenth-century Scotland, where the first "witch," Suzanne of the Mayfair, conjures up the spirit she names Lasher ... a creation that spells her own destruction and torments each of her descendants in turn.

From the coffee plantations of Port au Prince, where the great Mayfair fortune is made and the legacy of their dark power is almost destroyed, to Civil War New Orleans, as Julien--the clan's only male to be endowed with occult powers--provides for the dynasty its foothold in America, the dark, luminous story encompasses dramas of seduction and death, episodes of tenderness and healing.**And always---through peril and escape, tension and release--there swirl around us the echoes of eternal war: innocence versus the corruption of the spirit, sanity against madness, life against death.**With a dreamlike power, the novel draws us, through circuitous, twilight paths, to the present and Rowan's increasingly inspired and risky moves in the merciless game that binds her to her heritage. And in New Orleans, on Christmas Eve, this strangest of family sagas is brought to its startling climax.

I haven't watched the show and heard it wasn't good (I really don't recommend it based what I've heard if you haven't read the book,) which is a shame because the book is really an epic.

I think liminality is a recurring theme in lot of her work but since she wrote gothic fiction that would make sense. Not just life and death but child and adult etc too. Also gender/sexuality a bit. Lots of ambiguity.

The more I read The Witching Hour the angrier I get about the series

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I started reading The Witching Hour before the series was announced. I was so excited for a true gothic horror series about witches…then I watched Mayfair Witches.

I don’t need to go into why. Anyone who read the books and saw the series know what is wrong with it. I really wanted to like it too, but after Rowan’s cringey meltdown over Ciprean taking the key and I immediately gave up.

When season 2 of IWTV was announced I started reading the Vampire Chronicles and became more involved with the fandom. It really blew my mind that that series could be so incredible and Mayfair Witches so bad. But I guess the difference is that Rolin and Mark love Interview and are passionate about it, Mayfair Witches has no love or passion whatsoever.

I started listening to the audiobook and got engrossed in the story once more. It is so fucking good and it makes me even angrier that the series is so bad. It feels almost insulting that they ignored the nuance and most important plot points and details, and did away with Michael and Aaron because for some reason Rowan needed more agency (nevermind the fact that they are crucial to the plot and vastly different characters with different motivations).

They genuinely didn't give a [BEEP] about the source material or their audience. They probably think we wouldn’t bother reading the book and therefore wouldn’t care. As for those who haven't read the book, they probably thought they wouldn't care if it was good or bad.

It might blow their minds that audiences like to be taken seriously, even if they don’t read the books.

I read somewhere, not sure if it’s true, that the awesome show runner for IWTV got wind of the project and asked for it, bc he always wanted to do it, is a life-long big big fan. We got so lucky. Mayfair seems like someone was assigned the project by AMC against their will, thinks books are stupid, actively provokes fans for giggles, hates their cast, doesn’t believe in costuming, just phoned in the whole fucking thing

This makes me very sad (still) because I haven't read the books since I was a teenager (and never did read the 2nd or 3rd book thoroughly, (but I know it has the potential to be really great,) if they care about costumes and sets (important) and stop trying to girlbossify it or whatever they are doing...

This just means someone hopefully will have to reboot it if the film industry ever improves again...

I think it'd because The Vampire Chronicles is the more popular series esp the first book which has been turned into a film before. So it has more attention and fans. The first Lives of the Mayfair witches book is very long, they are all very sexual (which gen z are getting bored with,) and very dark (moreso than I remember the vampire books I read being yes even factoring in Claudia and the presence of Satan in a later book.)

But yeah despite everything the way she described New Orleans was what interested me about the city in the first place and she the inclusion of like Spoiler: another species basically that she invented like a subbranch of Humanity with the taltos was very interesting as that was basically her own creation very loosely referencing Hungarian mythology (the name she took from that I think,) whereas she rebooted vampires in an interesting and new way by making the audience identify with them (the first to do that I think,) but they were a staple in gothic fiction and folklore before that and were already quite established in their traits by the time she was writing that.

It's like if someone ruined Harry Potter or LoTR honestly... But then they haven't, they? Supposedly The Ring Of Power show isn't great but I still have to watch it (the aesthetics didn't work for me in the trailer tbh,) but at least the film trilogy exists which are really great I think. Also I couldn't get through those books as a teen so can't compare but they seem like great films in their own right at least.

The Harry Potter films were also good except for all the stuff they cut from Order of the Phoenix which I wanted to see visually represented like some stuff in the ministry of magic. I did think the books were better but they were still decent films. That universe was more ruined by the author for me lol.

Absolutely. This is exactly what happened to me - recently re-read all the Witching Hour books and was so excited about the show - especially because IWTV was so good. Couldn’t even make it past the first 3 episodes and was just ranting the whole time. I don’t mind adaptations - clearly IWTV isn’t like the books in many ways but it’s all an improvement imho. The changed they made to Mayfair are nonsensical to me - the casting is bad, some of the choices make absolutely no sense at all. Like I get we can’t have all the incest and molesting (tho there is a smidge of incest in IWTV) but to get rid of Michael and Julian is bizarre. I could go on and on but it’s interrupting my 3rd rewatch of IWTV ….lol

That's kind biphobic no lol but seriously I remember Julian being one of my favourite characters when I was a teenager (as problematic as it all is,) and why can't you have that stuff? Game of Thrones did. The book was adult rated (though I read it at about age 13 XD my mum just bought the first one when I asked in a book shop without inquiring,) so make an adult TV show......



"I grew up reading Anne Rice novels"

Lol she says this in another video "I used to write my own porn bitch."

(I'm not into drag culture at all personally, this is actually one of the very few drag queens I've seen stuff from because of YT clips lol which makes it better.)

Oh no I know, it's very problematic. I just don't care.

And how is any of it supposed to work without Michael? Like if you just wanted to make a show about witches you should have just done that and called it something else

They're definitely going to remove Mona too because she was so problematic being 13 but since I read the books as a teen I thought she was cool lol ... Eh I still find women like that cool tbh (personality wise,) like Aella. It's not my personality at all (outside of being perverted in a creative sense) because I'm very avoidant and risk averse and picky but yeah that's why I enjoy it vicariously most likely.

I actually would kinda dig a video game. I dunno how it’d work but it would have to start with Suzanne calling Lasher and then each generation. I’d like to be able to play as Lasher too, and be able to do things “behind the family’s back” to achieve his aims etc

Yes I feel like different pov would be epic! I’m telling you a video game would be so cool and it would do so well.

Oh yeah that would be cool.

On a related note I'm reading this Star Trek fanfic right now which I'm enjoying except there seems to be this female antagonist who is cast in a villain like role so far basically because she's some kind of rival love interest and described as a nymphomaniac it feels very 2D especially the parts from her pov. Luckily she doesn't seem so far to be a major character I think but it's like the female equivalent of men writing women. Women writing women. You've just created this strawperson where you can clearly see both the author's morality and inability maybe to get into the head of a character like that?

It's like when someone writes slash (male homoerotica,) fanfiction and writes female characters in a way where you know they hate them, and often kill them off, except this isn't slash and she created the character at least.

One amusing thing is it was written in 2009 but the character is called Karen lol.

[Nyctophilia]

I can't remember if I watched this or not before. Maybe.



Lol when he just scrolls through that guys channel as he rants about his Christianity and abstinence and it's just a bunch of video thumbnails with scantily clad women.

The whatever podcast is so transparently grifting ragebait nonsense though and I've managed to mostly avoid it entirely unlike a lot of the other idiots which I can tell is ideal.

COP 50,000.00
I love knowing I live in a world where there are men like you, thank you so much for speaking up, we all need to be more vocal about all this craze.

you gave him $50k??

Lol I was like what the absolute [BEEP]? You donated 50 thousand dollars!? Then realised the currency was Colombian pesos so it's like $11 or something.

[Nyctophilia]

i think it's awful & messed up most trans women are expected / assumed to top and penetrate by cis girl partners. that there's conception most tgirl / cis girl sex is an excersise in lesbian breeding kink

that said i top and penetrate and love to fulfill my massive lesbian breeding kink so you know

They made me in a factory called [redacted]

i don't remember writing this

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I'm still confused. Like for her sex work? Because I assumed that.

Sometimes I scroll through people's social media profiles and wonder if anything they say is a legit preference/thought etc lol. Part of that is that internet culture has become incredibly post ironic but then gets even more complicated when people are obviously selling themselves as a career.

Then gets even more complicated when someone is voyeuristic, avoidant and asexual-adj and Greek goddesses are involved...

I'm linking this since I'm quoting so much but the link is more nsfw (nsfw is literally in the url actually lol):

https://nsfw.substack.com/p/goddess-sex

I didn't really fully understand what was happening when Artemis first approached me for sex. Just that something was taking over me, almost possessing me. It felt good and it felt scary and it made me feel afraid that I was going to be turned into a sex toy for a god -- or a demon.

Artemis and Aphrodite are the easiest to contact. I sometimes pray to them together. You would assume these two goddesses are opposites, even in conflict. But they describe my separate halves well. Aphrodite, my loving, seductive, sexual side. Artemis, my solitary, lesbian, asexual tendencies. Aphrodite protects my heart; Artemis, my mind. Everyone has an Apollonian and Dionysian side, but doesn?t every woman have a bit of Aphrodite and Artemis inside her too?

Well the weirdest deity is Inanna because she's a goddess of sexual love and war. Aphrodite was actually based on one half of her. Aesthetically it's a bit like (but not quite,) someone fused Slaanesh and Khorne (who hate each other,) together.

But Slaanesh and Khorne were created in contemporary Britain because they better represent the current culture's psyche. I actually don't find old gods as interesting as the fictional deities/demons/gods etc people are coming up with in this and the last century for this reason actually. I mean they can be kind of interesting sometimes but Sheogorath and 40k chaos gods kind of describe our culture better honestly.

An anathema to order and peace, Khorne desires eternal war and to grind down both the domains of his brothers and realms of mortals beneath his hooves. He hates magic and thusly sits apart from his siblings, who make great use of it in their endeavors. He despises cowards, wizards, and Bloodshed is his chiefest and dearest desire. The Blood God has little room in his black heart for any other concern, caring nothing for the vast majority of his followers. They are merely tools in which he uses to acquire skulls and build his seat of power: The Skull Throne.

Khorne's rival for power is Tzeentch, the Sorceror God being second to him in power, territory size, and the origin of all magic which Kharneth patently despises. However, it is the youngest and most glamorous of the Gods that Khorne hates the most: Slaanesh, the Dark Prince of Chaos. Khorne views Slaanesh as honorless, frivolous, and weak and finds him not only the most loathsome of his siblings, but the most loathsome being in existence.

However, it is the youngest and most glamorous of the Gods that Khorne hates the most: Slaanesh, the Dark Prince of Chaos. Khorne views Slaanesh as honorless, frivolous, and weak and finds him not only the most loathsome of his siblings, but the most loathsome being in existence.

Slaanesh has little love for any of his siblings, but it is Khorne he deems the most objectionable. Finding the Blood God brutal and crass, Slaanesh has entertained a rivalry with Kharneth for countless millenia and their mutual hatred is eons old. To the God of Pleasure, Khorne is that very worst thing of all: boring.[10] Slaanesh takes deep satisfaction in particular in besting the Blood God and his daemons at their own game: bloody murder and battle.

That's Sheogorath's favourite line too.

You know who else is boring I guess? Elon Musk (hence my last post lol and the way everyone reacts towards him.)

Hobby
The Six Seductions.

Angering Khorne.
Playing The Great Game.
Pleasurable Acts.
Frolicking[9]

=D

I love that.

It's not very hard though is it?

These are khorne's 'hobbies' according to the wiki page I'm reading:

Creating and controlling daemons.

Sitting upon his massive brazen throne which grows ever larger as more skulls are collected in his name.

It would be difficult at times, as the idea of a lesbian Artemis sexually engaging with my body felt at odds with Her virginal and asexual mythology. But what I was feeling was real, and was with Her. She wanted it. And I could sense early on that the way She liked having sex was just as unique as my own preferences (later, I would figure out Her desires were more ace-oriented, again, not unlike myself)

Please see footnote four again. Also, consider that gods tend to present themselves to us in the ways we need to see. "Artemis likes ace sex" seems like an obvious conclusion for an ace woman who wants to have ace sex. Not everyone is going to have ace-coded experiences with Artemis, and I'm uninterested in suggesting my experience with Her is a more authoritative description of Her "true form" than yours. She is showing me specific aspects of Herself for a reason.

I'm not sure what this means.

But even as I write this, I can feel the pull of Her on me. The invisible collar around my neck, the spiritual leash tied to Her hand. [more submissive kink stuff..]

I feel like some part of my body was designed to communicate with deities in a special and even scary way. Like there is a spiritual hole in my chest, a divine orifice. A glove a god can easily slip on and access.

Trans pagans are likely to be possessed and ridden by deities.7 [BEEP] pagan writers think gods seem to like something about transgender bodies. Is our transition holy? Do they see themselves in us? Do they like us? Pity us? Do they find us admirable, maybe a little more than attractive?

I have felt it at times. Artemis slipping in, feeling things out, rearranging the interior of my mind. Getting things in order. The feeling is beautiful and scary. She and the other gods know I'm not ready yet. But one day, it's going to be asked of me. To give my body and mind to them for short stints of time, 10 or 15 minutes, and do some bidding.

This kind of thought process is going to come up later in this post.

It's an open secret though that plenty of [BEEP] pagans have had sexual encounters with gods. It's also a closed one. Many middle-class pagans hide their spirituality because they work in places where worshiping Hades could get you fired. Imagine if your local he/they twink H&R Block accountant admitted to fucking Dionysos as well.

I have far less shame now than I used to, and the topic of god sex itself seems to come up more and more in conversation whenever I discuss paganism in [BEEP] erotic circles.

Two, god sex is highly stigmatized in the pagan community. I find that silly, of course, given polytheistic mythology is filled with deities fucking humans. It seems obvious to me gods would still be doing the same thing in 2024. [...]

But look, many pagans grew up in religions like Christianity, where sex was seen as shameful and antithetical to religion. The idea that religion has nothing to do with sex is a strong one in American culture. So, I get it. That is an uphill battle and it's not a fight I really want to get involved in, because I have no interest in becoming a pagan influencer. I am skeptical of pagan content creators as a whole.

Uh I've mentioned in previous posts that a lot of [BEEP] people (and Bronze Age Pervert who seems closeted to me,) turn their sexuality into some kind of religion. They're usually approaching it from that side of things too like sexuality > religion. There is some overlap with fascism and far right politics sometimes too.

Bronze Age Pervert:

I always loved the statues of the kouroi. I can safely say that upon viewing such statue by myself for three hours (someone let me in to look alone in museum), I was able to ejaculate without touching myself. But I had no dirty or untoward thoughts the entire time.

I have no doubt that the gods, if they exist, would look only like perfected and improved versions of beautiful physiques of young men, just like they showed themselves to the Greek oracles in dreams. They were the first to discover the true biological and physical form of the man, the correct form, the true proportions. I have no doubt also that this force, in being inside us together with others, has made human history, life, and our own minds the battleground and stage of its action, and that passivity in the face of its power is therefore absurd: it calls on us to allow ourselves to be possessed by it, and to wage war on its behalf against its enemies

^ as I said the thought process from before has come up again. Now with war.

Elisar von Kupffer:

Let's talk about Elisar von Kupffer. Who is he? What's he famous for?

So Elisar von Kupffer is a- It's funny. I'm actually looking for the right noun, right? I don't know whether to call him an artist or religious leader, an activist, a fascist. He's all the above.

But he?s a man who lives between 1872 and 1942. He?s born in what is now present-day Estonia, as part of the class of Baltic German overlords there, and throughout the course of his life, he assembles the first ever anthology of gay literature, which is called The Love of Favourites and Friendly Love in World Literature, which is published in Berlin in 1900.3 He creates a new religion called Klarismus or Clearism, which combines medievalist and Christian iconography with ideas about that kind of universal, transcendent spiritual androgyny that he gets out of readings and misreadings of Persian literature and of the classical era. He creates a series of artistic works culminating in the 30-metre cyclorama painting called The Clear World of the Blessed,4 which depicts the Claristic utopia in which many naked androgynes - all of which bear either his face, the face of his life partner Eduard von Mayer, or the face of a favourite local model, "Gino" Luigi Taricco - are depicted.

His work throughout his entire career is informed by a biological racism that understands human cultural output as being rooted entirely in climate and race, which are understood to be linked. For this reason, for example, he settles in Italian Switzerland because he understands it as being a bisexual climate: there?s the Mediterranean homosexual climate and race type, and in the German Alpine, heterosexual climate and race type.5 And so, he?s found in Ticino6 a bisexual climate. That's maybe a more humorous example of this biological determinism. But this also leads him to subscribe to antisemitic conspiracy theories, to be described by Nazi officials as a devoted hater of the Jews, and to several attempts to collaborate with Nazi politicians in order to secure state support and funding for this artwork and for this religious project. He fails, but not for lack of trying, including several extremely warm letters written to Adolf Hitler at the end of Kupffer?s life, where he really praises Hitler, his political project and identifies them as political allies.7

So Kupffer is a really complex, controversial and strange figure. I hope very much that this article is being published alongside some images of his artwork as well, because you really do need to see this art to believe it. It is, I like to joke, mercifully inimitable. It?s really something.

There's also some really interesting thinking that?s been done about the ways that fascist German masculinity of that period - and this all comes from the theorist Klaus Theweleit16 - was really based on tremendously visceral fear and disgust of the female body, especially the working-class female body, as a source of unregulated desires and impulses and flows that were not properly contained within the rationally governed armour of the proper male body politic. And I think Kupffer, while he depicts a really different male body politic - a much more androgynous male body politic -, he?s still depicting this extremely rational control and governed place where everything is in its right position. And I think some of the same fears and disgusts of the sexual, as opposed to the erotic, or the ungoverned body are still really visibly present in his work.

Jack Donovan too (he worshipped Khorne I actaully think he disowned a lot of his earlier writing so yeah. I went to his twitter earlier in the year or something and he'd tweeted something about how a lot of the self help spiritual stuff right wing men are doing reminds him of lesbians decades ago and he found that amusing):

One figure DiBranco highlights is Jack Donovan, whose theories of "gang masculinity?" she writes, compel "men to form warrior gangs to escape domestication of women." Indeed, Donovan is an important figure. Tracking his movements across the far right reveals much about the relationships and ideas propelling it in fresher directions.

"Donovan advocates 'androphilia,' by which he means love or sex between masculine men. He doesn't call himself gay, rejects gay culture as effeminate, and justifies homophobia as a defense of masculinity rooted in the male gang's collective survival needs. This might sound like self-hatred, but Donovan isn't hiding or apologizing for his own sexuality; he's defining it in a way that's radically at odds with prevailing LGBT politic."

"Masculinity is a religion, and I see potential for androphiles to become its priests," Donovan wrote in Androphilia, "to devote themselves to it" in a way that men who understand their manliness through women -- in quantifying the number they?ve slept with or measuring "men's rights" against "women's rights" -- can't. And so androphiles like Donovan have found common ground with the gender-traditionalists and male-advocacy groups elsewhere in the messy carnival of the new right, where reactions to women range from outright hostility to benign disinterest.

And they're not interested in [BEEP] solidarity, either. "Apart from Camille Paglia, of course, I can't think of any interesting lesbians," gay white nationalist James O'Meara told me in an interview. Or as Donovan said, "I think most of them are so married to feminism that I don?t think that's even an option."

I agree with some of Paglia's takes but mostly she writes to appeal to men and from a male viewpoint which is why they like her writing. They don't like women or femininity usually but especially women.

This I guess:



I'm assuming her:

"I think of myself, my own body, as a goddess but I also think of you as a goddess and you as a god," Aurora says to me.

Yeah that makes a lot of sense. I mean it comes across a lot in her music.

On her fourth album, The Gods We Can Touch, Aurora brings heaven and hell back to Earth. She sends shivers down our spines as we convert to her coven descended from the Garden of Eden, the 21st-century children of Eve. As she was the first one to eat the forbidden fruit, we are the first ones to feel no shame when embracing the pleasure and essence of who we are within. Subverting biblical symbolism, inspired by the bravery of the [BEEP] community and pantheon of Greek gods, Aurora ascended to a self-assembled studio in a 400-year-old castle in Norway to give birth to a painfully beautiful project. It's a joy-sprouting celebration of diversity: the message of love embedded there has the power to melt even the coldest and the hardest of hearts.

What I liked about it is to see the mythology of the Western world that I actually resonated with. There's not so much with the modern Western world that I connect with because the Western world throughout history has brought so much destruction and abuse to the world which is very sad. I like Greek mythology because it included more imperfections. They have more room for humane. They have gods and goddesses to celebrate the very things that modern religion puts shame upon like being a woman, being gay, drinking wine, being sexual, being trans. They all had gods to celebrate these things so I wonder what happened on the way, where we lost that kind of freedom? Why do we have the need to impose control on each other with religion? Because faith is a very beautiful thing, it's a big part of being a human, this spiritual side.

Expresses slightly differently depending on the individual. This is why Jordan Peterson decided to convert to Christianity for real btw LOL. He spoke in interviews about how basically with no defence you just get ruled by your lowest instincts and by sex goddesses (usually a goddess he said because it's usually a feminine figure.) I cba trying to dig up the interview where he talked about this. So I'm paraphrasing a bit. He talked about Freud then as well.

I have realised there is some kind of semi conscious war here between spiritual femininity and masculinity as well.

I refuse to accept that Christianity, or the Abrahamic religions, are the solution though.

So boring to me:



I could have used some help from the daedric prince of biscuits recently (as I was making some.) Or not. That doesn't usually go well in the video games lol.

Most people are uncomfortable with people blending the transcendental with sexuality. But most people are uncomfortable with sexuality in general. It makes sense since I've just described how it's dangerous but religion in general can be dangerous.

what if you got to heaven and found out all the gods are tgirl chasers. thousand-year-old goddesses really into the gock. call you brave and valid and ask how big it is in the same breath. stresses they?ve got an IUD and prefer it raw. i think i would die a second time from being too hard

Someone should let that Italian chaser I posted about before know. Only for her to get rejected again because everyone is just larping lol.