Lol wtf is this from? I find it very difficult to find people I relate to too though. The trans community on most websites is mostly transfemme and obviously I haven't transistioned medically. Then there are the trans guys who are basically straight cis guys so I don't relate to that crowd either.Situating transmasculinity and trans manhood, codifying it and giving it tropes, is still a struggle. Part of this struggle is that I have grown to understand my own conceptions of trans manhood as specifically influenced by being autistic: a faggotard identity. In some ways, I have more in common with autistic trans women wracked by the same neuroses as me, than I do-
Since I'm non-binary anyway and also don't relate to most of that culture or people I've come across I just piece together whatever but feel wrong everywhere basically.
Oh right there's a link at the bottom of the tweet...
https://cybercommedia.neocities.org/...d/necromanhood
I like that I didn't even stumble on this via a trans guy but via a trans woman I follow who seems to have a particular interest in transmasc 'culture.'
It's not even unique to a particular country as I have heard similar things from trans guys in non Western countries. They really don't tend to get together, create any kind of culture, have much of a support network etc lol.
I can tell in like 5 seconds that this guy is part of that weird uh... I don't know what to label it honestly. Accelerationist potentially. Neo-gothic. CCRU fans. The writing style is very familiar lol.
Man is dying. And from his ashes, rises man.
As testosterone levels drop in cisgender men, a group unseals their vials thick with testosterone serum. They ready their needles, insert them into flesh, hack their bodies with androgens. The Y chromosome is in decay. This should herald the eventual end of manhood, accelerating towards its own demise. But something is brewing in the depths, a manhood swallowed by unknown currents. The last knife in the throat of masculinity is its corrupt mirror. From the deathbed of manhood, trans men arrive.I struggle with the fact that my body encourages people to treat me in ways that feel very wrong most of the time. That's without even getting into pronouns or whatever which everyone is always going to forget anyway but the other thing is also dysphoria inducing often. I think my brother gets closest.The trouble with discussing transmasculine identity, is that first we must situate transmasculinity. What frameworks does it operate within? What does society know about it? How do we define it? Binary cisgender identities have been codified, with both manhood and womanhood having their own tropes and ideas
It's a bit limiting but I think a lot of people have that cultural background and I enjoy being edgy so. Obviously I'd rather be the latter than the former if it's a choice between just those two. The former is infantilised more.There have been attempts - TERFs sometimes try to push straight trans men as butch lesbians who collapse under internalized misogyny, and gay trans men as fujoshi who dug too deeply into their yaoi fetish. This carries with it obvious parallels to Blanchard's typology on trans women: the self-loathing butches are the androphiles (homosexual in their assigned sex, traditionally perform their identified gender, painted as "the good ones" when a transphobe needs to defend themselves from accusations of transphobia, destroying something beautiful); the fujoshi are the autogynephiles (perverted, mentally ill and/or autistic, forceful, invading gay spaces, amoral). This is not a good framework for understanding transmasculinity, for two reasons. Firstly, Blanchard's typology is bunk, with little scientific basis and more to do with weaponizing hatred against trans women - this is not a good foundation on which to build a codifying system. Secondly, this treats trans men as a derivative of trans women, merely a tacked-on appendix to transsexuality, incapable of standing on its own.
I'm also finding it amusingly ironic that gay trans men are often portrayed as more masculine than straight trans men. In the sense they are seen as aggressive perverts or psychopaths (I guess sexuality is less specific for the psychopath thing some terf actually invented her own typology where it was like traumatised butch lesbians, schizotypal creative types who want to be androgynous gods more often non-binary and are into otherkin stuff etc and then the psychopaths who are into gore, sadism and domination etc, and often want to be as physically strong as possible but she said she thought some fit into multiple categories.) But superficially more feminine in terms of aesthetic and body language. As opposed to poor smol bean traumatised butch lesbians.
Yeah that's what I was thinking lol. The style of writing is similar:
Perhaps, though, this is the reality of transmasculinity: nothing but a mirror image of transgender womanhood. This would explain why "transsexual" is essentially synonymous with "trans woman". Even in her foundational gender accelerationist Blackpaper, n1x presents such concepts as passing and altering the body with hormones as being the domain of a trans woman - does the omission of trans men in this context imply that we are not truly involved in passing or body alteration? Or does it suggest that a trans man doing this is just imitating a trans woman? The theory of Rapid-Onset Gender Dysphoria passed around by parents who wish to discourage transition, while not exclusively dealing with transmasculine subjects, tends to be weaponized against young transmasculine people, painting our gender and transition as a delusion brought on by social contagion. This framework, too, suggests that the true dysphorics, the true transsexuals, are trans women; and that trans men are the result of women wanting a piece of the pie deluding themselves into a fake identity to emulate trans women.
This is accurate. I guess it's complicated though by the existence of trans men who are also non-binary or genderfluid like one YouTuber I follow from the beginning and don't transistion medically but then not transistioning always complicates that in the first place. I don't really read him as a cis woman though but most people do. Again I think it's probably partly (as mentioned) because he's autistic though (also has ADHD,) and alternative in various ways the average cis woman just has a different vibe to me anyway.So this seems to be the answer: the framework for transmasculine identity is that of existing as a shadow. It is banishment from any existing framework, giving trans men two options: either pass and assimilate so seamlessly that you uphold cis manhood in your attempts to achieve it, or be swept away and disposed of so you don't pose a threat. The former kind of trans men make up the large subset of self-described "truscum" and "transmedicalist" trans men, who view themselves as nothing but cis men embarrassingly born without a penis. These types often pass easily and transition young, and are very stereotypically masculine. The latter are, by definition, unseen. The closest thing to a figure of this type is the "Tumblr SJW" stereotype, who are more often depicted as AFAB nonbinary people than trans men. This may account for the proliferation of transmasculine people who, despite initially identifying as trans men and having relatively binary transitions, later proclaim themselves to be nonbinary in an attempt to distance themselves from patriarchy; the type of transmasculine people who scorn men and manhood while pursuing transition actively and presenting as male for simplicity. (Note that this is not to say that AFAB nonbinary people who transition do not exist; it is simply an observation on previously-identified trans men that declare themselves not men for clearly political reasons.) This is actually not necessary to circumvent patriarchy - on the contrary, it only reinforces manhood as concrete, oppressive, and cis. This framework, however, is collapsing. As more and more trans men assert ourselves and our manhood, it becomes more difficult to deny alternative ways of being a man. Patriarchy and manhood cannot maintain themselves without adapting to the loss of chromosomal and reproductive markers of manhood, leaving trans masculinity as the only way out. The realization of the shadow is assured; you cannot declare something imaginary forever.
It's interesting though that I'm sometimes capable of doing this and most people clearly aren't.
Also he's more relatable to me in some ways even though we've had very different lives because he's older and part of the reason I don't relate to a lot of trans people is both age and location as I'm from the UK. So superficially people would lump him with 'tumblr sjw' but he seems culturally distinct to me.
Half way through reading this at this point and I'd probably appreciate this more if there weren't such obvious refrences to Nick Land lol, and then by extention Nyx Land. Like below. It is pretty fun in a 'oh this subculture exists aren't the 2020s weird?' Way. Also I'd maybe like it it was more esoteric (but that might happen later, Edit: It does lol but it really is mostly genderswapped Nyx) and half of this so far wasn't talking about trans politics - typoligical stuff etc. I've not quoted all of it either.
For reference:II - NEO-PHALLUS ARRIVES FROM THE FUTURE
"Neo China arrives from the Future"
This is pretty good:
The neo-phallus cannot deny culpability under lack of control of erections, because the rod or the pump make them ever-present or deliberate. It cannot ejaculate; it cannot release fluid; it is castration as a part of the creation of the phallus itself. This is a chosen castration, affirming the purpose of the phallus as neither reproductive, nor status-based (as many are unsatisfied with the aesthetic results of phalloplasty) - this is a phallus for its own sake. For pleasure?s sake. There is no need to fear castration when castration is part of the (literal) package. Without surgery, the trans man exists with both 0 and 1. This is a symbol of manhood reduced to desire, both of libido and a self-assured, self-constructed gender. This is the phallus stripped of man?s failings.
This is necromanhood.III - VAMPIRIC TRANSMASCULINITY
From the jaws of manhood's decline, trans men clutch it, and transform it. A traditional manhood of old will not make it out alive; only an undead masculinity can escape. If the Y chromosome dies, undead man is XX. If men attempt to run from castration, the undead man does not attempt to decelerate and embraces his castration. From the trans men who stubbornly refuse to denounce the feminine, to the hyper-masculine who will surpass even cis men in the traditional subjects of masculinity, the corpse of man is being revived by those it sought to use.
Transmasculine time sorcery is just one element of undead masculinity, as is the literal castration of the symbolic phallus. It also exists as the other side of trans womanhood: whereas a trans woman will accelerate the process of abandoning manhood and corrupts its ideals of masculinity, reproduction, and the phallus; a trans man disrupts the order and flow of masculinity by moving "up" in a way that should - if patriarchy was functional and not threatened by collapse - be impossible. Every threat to gender posed by a trans woman is mirrored from the other side by a trans man. If a cis man cannot move forward into manhood as masculinity is corrupted by biology and denied by trans women, he also cannot move backwards, as trans men retroactively reshape manhood and revel in its castration. The only option is to die, and then to be revived. Masculinity becomes undead to maintain itself - an undeadness possessed by trans men.Lol it's giving jreg male to male transsexual:If Man wishes to survive, he must synthesize testosterone. This may aromatize into estrogen. Is the risk of gynecomastia worth it? What will this do to libido? What is a man without fertility and sons to pass on his name? The trans man laughs - he knows these risks are pointless, and he has already adapted. Trans manhood arrives from the future. As cis men contend with the "unknown", trans men have already lived it.
I swear this is trans masc and non-binary people's biggest fetish aside from feminising themselves.Vampiric transmasculinity is a joke or theory (you decide) born from discussions with [...] on the subject of these transsexual vampires. The main idea is that a trans vampire's bite would stimulate endocrine function, allowing the vampire to get hormones alongside whatever nutrition blood provides. What is interesting is that, while a bitten cis woman would not experience much abnormal from an estrogen-stimulating bite, a transmasculine vampire's target would likely be feminized. An excess of testosterone in the body is aromatized, a process which transforms it into estrogen. This may result in some form of feminization, like minor breast development. (This is what happens to Big Bob in Fight Club.) In the context of trans vampires, this means the targeted cis man goes through feminization, while the transmasculine vampire benefits from his dose of testosterone. On a broader scale, this is the future of manhood: trans men achieving masculinity as cis men lose it, in an almost vampiric exchange.
Edit: I knew it lol:
Actually this both sounds potentially sarcastic and I have no context for this post.If forcefem jokes are so evil to trans men, why do I, a trans man, keep trying to forcefem my cis husband? Checkmate, transmisandry truthers
Also reminding me of radfemhitler's tweet (this still cracks me up I'm glad I copied and saved most of it somewhere before she deleted her account after that mass shooter supposedly name dropped her. The actual tweet was longer though.)
Did you know that men are capable of two different types of orgasms? All men are bisexual and the proof is in the prostate.
Penile orgasms are accompanied by an erection and the release of semen as well as a corresponding drop in testosterone. Fleeting and much weaker in intensity, the penile orgasm is for procreative purposes, in other words, for sex with women.
But prostate orgasms are full body orgasms that utilize the contraction of three times as many muscle groups, they're actually much more akin to the orgasms that women experience rather than Penile orgasms.The alphas of the tribes would naturally start to fight the betas. The only way to get around this impulse was to continually lower the T of the alphas while preserving the T of the betas so that all the men on the tribe would be on a similar level and able to cooperate and bond with one another.
This redistribution of T is achieved through male-male sexual relations. The alpha, experiencing a penile orgasm would be weakened by the act, while the beta, experiencing a prostate orgasm would feel energized from the act as a woman does while his T levels were preserved. They are now on the same level hormonally.LOLBro, I usually vibe with you but this is just lowkey your fetish
She kind of did a funny role reversal thing but eg this is part of an actual post by someone who was questioning if they're autoandrophilic on reddit I came across a couple of months ago:
I love how they just immediately launched into that.I think I am an AAP
I am into hardcore gay porn and I imagine I am the dominant man, I imagine I [BEEP] another man's masculinity out of him, so I become more masculine and he become more feminine.
This is where manhood will go: to the fujoshi and the butch-forsakers and the ones who did not see "tomboy" as enough. They suck the last androgens from men's blood. You've met your Carmilla, and here is Dracula. Is it any wonder that those fujoshi loved vampire and demon-pact love stories before reaching for their own masculinity? They are not merely transitioning into men, but into vampires. This corrupted manhood will soon be all that is left. The corruption becomes real. The parasite replaces its host system.It doesn't really work for me but clowns were inspied by demons aesthetically and presumably... Some of the entities people see on hallucinogens 'machine elves' etc.IV - CLOWN-ANDROGENS
If we are to establish a framework for trans manhood, we must base it on something. Playing off of cis man as The Joker - such a topical figure in cis masculinity?s last death throes - we can establish a related entity, much like cis woman as Eve and trans woman as Lilith.
Consider a court jester.
This headcannon makes more sense to me though:
Samael (Hebrew: סַמָּאֵל, Sammāʾēl, "Venom/Poison of God";[1] Arabic: سمسمائيل, Samsama'il or سمائل, Samail; alternatively Smal, Smil, Samil, or Samiel)[2][3][4] is an archangel in Talmudic and post-Talmudic tradition; a figure who is the accuser or adversary (Satan in the Book of Job), seducer, and destroying angel (in the Book of Exodus).
Although many of his functions resemble the Christian notion of Satan, to the point of being sometimes identified as a fallen angel,[5][6][7]: 257?60 he is not necessarily evil, since his functions are also regarded as resulting in good, such as destroying sinners.[3]Because:In the Kabbalistic work Treatise on the Left Emanation, Samael is part of the qlippoth, prince of all demons, and spouse of Lilith.[6] The two are said to parallel Adam and Eve, being emanated together from the Throne of Glory as a counterpart. Asmodeus is also mentioned to be subservient to Samael and married to a younger, lesser Lilith.[22] According to the treatise, God castrated Samael in order not to fill the world with their demonic offspring, this being the reason why Lilith seeks to fornicate with men.[6]
In the Zohar, one of Kabbalah's principal works, Samael is described as a leader of the divine forces of destruction, part of the qlippoth. He is mentioned again as the serpent's rider,[8] and is described as having mated with Eisheth Zenunim, Na'amah, and Agrat bat Mahlat, all being "angels" of sacred prostitution.[23] Notably, the same work later calls him Azazel,[8] which might be a case of mistaken identity, as Azazel may be himself in Zoharistic lore a combination of the angels Ouza and Azrael.[24]
1. Castrated
2. Opposed to Yahweh so reads like a masculine outsider.
Also the weird 'demon' Lasher from Anne Rice's Witching Hour books before he's born because of the invisibility and voyeurism is something I identify with a lot since I don't feel like I'm really participating in life most of the time. But that character was very fucked up.
Wasn't Nyx's take pretty much that the 'acephalus' was mocking men too? Like this:The mechanism of these clown-androgens is more than a mere costume change. Transmasculinity is, among other things, a process. As with any process, there must be something to move it along. In the case of trans people, one of the pieces of movement is often hormone replacement therapy. For trans men and other transmasculine individuals, this is testosterone, most often taken as a subcutaneous or intramuscular injection, though gels and patches also exist. This is all well and good - but why clowns? Why pick The Joker as our analogue figure? What do pierrots have to do with testosterone? The answer comes back to trans manhood as an imitation or mockery of cis manhood, manifesting the metaphorical court jester and situating him within the realm of the physical.
Back to the other thing:The Acephallus is the anti-phallus or castrated phallus, the decapitated phallus, the Crown of the Tree of Life thrown asunder. Superficially, a hermaphroditic mixing of feminine and masculine attributes, but more accurately described as a feminine imitation of masculinity. A mockery, even. In figures such as Baphomet which are often treated as symbolic or synonymous with Satan and the Left-Hand Path, there famously is a mixing of male and female attributes.[9] But the supposed hermaphrodism of Baphomet et. al. is merely an ignorant and archaic understanding of both gender and Satanism. As has already been at length drawn out, the vampire queen Lilith gives birth only to monsters and demons; she rejects the primordial male creative energies and can only therefore birth [BEEP] imitations of God. Baphomet, therefore, is all woman; her appearance is inconsequential to this fact.
The Acephallus is a rejection of the reproduction of God through heterosexual human reproduction. The Acephallus reproduces itself by reproducing the void, in a lesbian and also virus-like fashion. "Let a thousand sexes bloom" -- but of all the mutations of the virus, woman is the strain that it begins and ends with. Woman, the occulted non-gender, the zero -- her time has come.
And so by becoming man, the trans man destroys masculinity, forces it to revive as something new. Our manhood (being-man) comes without manhood (a penis). It is birthed not from heterosexual reproduction, but self-ravaging.By consciously removing the feminine and forsaking what is considered beautiful, a trans man is, in the eyes of a cis man, assaulting himself (especially when said trans man uses his masculinized body for sexual pleasure).Oh there are a bunch of appends with more text. Maybe I'll read those more later...Man is dead, Man is dying, and Trans Man will gleefully desecrate the corpse. We piss on Man's grave, squatted or with stand-to-pee devices. We unearth the body and become it. Trans Man communes with corpses and self-ravages until a necrophilic masculinity emerges, castrated on arrival but with desire to spare, bolstered by the testosterone that Cis Man is rapidly losing.
The only way for man to make it is to die. Necromanhood is already dead.
Lol. He has a pet spider or?The original, prototypal text that would become Necromanhood was written on November 5th, 2019. It was a scrawled-together series of ideas that mostly came from casual conversations with a certain arachnid friend.
Despite being in need of polishing and added nuance, I find myself oddly hesitant to edit Necromanhood itself. Much of it, I believe, still stands; perhaps my stance on transmasculinity hasn't actually changed very much.
A large part of my hesitation is the bizarre optimism underlying the paper. In the almost 4 years since I wrote it, I have become much more jaded and cynical, especially when it comes to manhood and transmasculinity. Necromanhood, at its core, has hope for the subversive potential of trans men; meanwhile, I find myself increasingly alienated from other trans men and transmasculine people, and frustrated with my own patriarchal tendencies. All of this should make me want to revise the paper more, shouldn't it? Instead, I find myself endeared to this almost naive optimism. It's something I struggle to find now, and erasing a work laden with it feels wrong. Hope is not inherently a bad thing - as my friend moves more towards numogrammatics that support the lemurs and communion with angels against death cults and self-destruction, that need for hope against the forces of annihilation feels more vital than ever, and less contradictory with accelerationist philosophies than expected.Yeah it did come across.The origins relating to Nyx's Blackpaper are readily apparent here. I start the paper entirely built around the thesis of cis men losing testosterone and feminizing. It's slightly jarring to see a meme theory of sorts positioned so centrally and seriously, but the reality of it doesn't matter in the face of belief. I won't dwell on this much.
Seemed like he associated both of those with cis men more? But personally I probably relate to Patrick Bateman more when it comes to those edgelord characters. Not much but more. I mean there's part of the film where he just starts monologuing about music which always pops into my head because I do this a lot lol... The ending is relateable in the sense that I think it speaks to something dark and generational that resonates with a lot of people at their worst. He's also very avoidant.My proposed transmasculine iconography drawing from The Joker or Tyler Durden definitely exemplifies this: I latched onto figures who are just as emblematic of mental illness as they are of maleness. Is trans manhood a schizophrenic manhood? Probably.
No idea what AOE means. I mean not Age Of Empires I assume LOL.A minor note, but "femboy" as a label is so much more complex now, and almost the opposite of what I describe here. It's become synonymous with femininity and female bodies with a phallus, much like "trap" before it. This has the double effect of being basically another slur for trans women, and becoming inaccessible to trans men. The effects are insidious all around: self-loathing trans women and girls who internalize transmisogyny and deny their transition under the guise of being "femboys" (even vilifying trans women and accusing them of denying gender nonconformity, or being groomers), and trans men and boys are chased out of spaces under the reification of "boy = penis," which is both transmisogynistic and crunches down upon trans manhood. I believe this is part of the trend of so many trans men who were proud or excited to be GNC men now identifying as "nonbinary lesbians" (despite previous attraction to men) or "female-aligned enbies." This is most likely a patriarchal autoimmune response, attempting to attack the virus against maleness that is transness, reifying genital essentialism with "woke" terminology and accusing those who point out the transphobia of being bigoted against nonbinary people.
(It is my position that the nonbinary TME rejection of manhood is a force of the AOE.)
Area of effect? Nothing I can come up with makes sense lol. He has a link to his account on another site and has 'AOE don't interract' in his bio and still no idea.
Progressive spaces and culture are fairly misandric and allergic to and distrustful of masculinity anyway so obviously this impacts people even if they do identify as closer to female. But this entire page is really doing a similar thing in a more edgy and ironic way. That's why I always say Satan is a very symbolic representation of trans men because the resentment and outsider status is very apparent in not all but most. The rest just blend into cis masculinity - mostly stealth but sometimes not.
Rowan Mayfair and the other female witches within the story are directly threatened by Lasher, the evil spirit that has haunted the Mayfair family for centuries. Even though it could be argued that a spirit has no biological sex and thus, it might not qualify to be a source of a tyrannical, patriarchal force, Lasher insists in asserting his status as male. In a conversation with Julien Mayfair10, he proclaims:
"And you?" I asked. "Are you male or female, or simply a neuter thing?"
"Don't you know?" it asked.
"I wouldn?t ask if I did," I answered.
"Male!" it said. "Male, male, male, male!" (Lasher, 284)
https://ddd.uab.cat/pub/trerecpro/20...brugue_tfm.pdf
This character is considered patriarchal btw like in this paper 'Disempowering the witch: A patriarchal portrait of the witch in Anne Rice's The Lives of the Mayfair Witches.' I mean he's tyrannical and manipulating and controlling the genetics of an entire family as a masculine presence even if for a very long while he doesn't actively do anything due to not having a body. I guess he occupies a somewhat similar position as Satan in The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina (though I didn't follow that show and also don't remember his character super well.) It's not really a representation of Satan that resonates with me either since I like to headcannon him as more [BEEP] and androgynous but I kind of appreciate the neutrality they manage with Satanism on the show. It's just kind of the religion of witches and not treated as evil within the world.Women [are] threatened by a powerful, impulsive, tyrannical male. One or more male characters has the power, as king, lord of the manor, father, or guardian, to demand that one or more of the female characters do something intolerable. [?] In modern gothic novels and films, there is frequently the threat of physical violation. (Harris, 2015: website)
It's a super long book but I should re-read the Witching Hour book one day. Maybe.
If anything, I see currents in trans manhood that I am opposed to-conformance to normie maleness, or a tenderqueer-feminist obsession with proximity to femaleness that ends in transmisogyny and co-opting women's spaces under the guise of "oh I'm AFAB"-as counter to the subversive potential of trans manhood, i.e. Necromanhood. You cannot [BEEP] manhood from inside like a gender chestburster if you either decide that manhood is fine, or refuse to associate with it. I do address this at the end of this section, but am much too kind in my language. Frankly, trans men could benefit from less bootlicking, and being more faggy.Trying to find this person's twitter account or something and think I have but he has 11 followers and hasn't posted since 2022 lol. Oh well. I need to be on that site as less as possible anyway but always looking for interesting people to follow. He's on another site that I think Nyx and other people are on but you have to request access to that so I've never bothered. 98% of interesting people have left twitter now though, it's only really good for the mildly surreal experience of seeing people do this (they sound like some particular kind of weird robot):BEGINNING AGAIN AT THE END
Trans manhood is more complex and fucked up than the original Necromanhood gave it credit for. There are contradictions, traitors, and cultural antibodies against it. This complexity, however, is a site for disruption. Breaking yourself to pieces and building yourself up again is fundamental necromancy. Necromanhood is still a force, a dance with the undead that punches holes in the illusion of a predestined reality of Man. Paraphrasing, Necromanhood has a place for you.
It's just that nobody ever said it would be easy.
"My white wife" still cracks me up.In 2020 my white wife was intensely pressured by her white friends to be woke, not vote Trump. A white girl she knew from high school and hadn't seen in years even sent her menacing DMs for 'being silent' about Floyd on insta. White women went nuts for woke, and men won't forget.What race of women does not go nuts for woke? Should I just spam videos of [redacted] Asian women ranting about white people to save all of you from killing your bloodlines and becoming passport bros?If you spend anytime in academia since 2012, it is clear the demographic driving the woke bus are generally upper middle class WASP women and the men unsuccessfully trying to [BEEP] them. All the trans shit, all the immigration shit, all the voter ID is racist shit. WASP women.
Anglo Saxon men are so weak, every single one I know is so fucking [BEEP] whipped by their wife it's insane, I barely consider them real men. It is WASP men's fault. They're too weak, too feminine, too brittle to act as a bulwark against the neurosis of their women.
The degree to which they attempt to erase autonomy from women knows no bounds and can be very irritating but this is particuarly nonsense since in order to do that to his wife he even used other women for that project. But the overall thing is also just hilarious and I think there were other amusing responses too but these are all I had copied from before.
More of the same:
I think they have to deny autonomy though because if they didn't they'd become gynocidal given their overall beliefs and personality. Right wing men like this have been selected (evolutionarily speaking,) for benevolent sexism too. Probably because those kind of guys died out without that. They only extend it to ingroup women though obviously which is why they generally differentiate between 'liberal women with dyed hair' or whatever. Some portion of this group they consider brain washed if they find them attractive.Because they usually come from a Republican family where their Dads usually vote Republican and has an influence over them. If you look at what issues they care about, they're pretty liberal.
There's plenty of hostile sexism too and those guys generally are never dating women or probably have a completely contrary way of talking to their wife/girlfriend and just keep it online.
And for larping as I said:
End result after tweaking (this is one of my drag personas along with 'liberal white woman (tm)'):
[sheogorath video]Oh no. I'm enjoying it.It's so interesting that you people seem to have no clue how utterly ridiculous you sound. Just bonkers. You want to talk about a mind virus, the right wing/incel/weirdo echo chamber has thoroughly torched your brains. It’s just bizarre. Hope your wife comes to her senses soon.
Nah I just pirated that [BEEP] lol. But I did use licensed versions of it at uni and probably before at some point? Maybe sixth form. Don't think my high school had it but can't remember.GIMP is for image editing and making posters. MediBang is for drawing. Photoshop is for when you're 14 years old and your school provides you the license so you decide to just [BEEP] around and learn something
His website is like some old one from the 2000s which is nostalgic and cool.
Oh so he has a page on 'faggotard' identity as well lol (well a couple of pages?):
The faggotard is
subculture-obsessed
highly medicated
often shut-in
not afraid of the light, just afraid of you
Messy and disoriented
Poorly coordinated
Unfinished poetry and code
Gay and comorbid
Mad as in both angry and insane. [BEEP] as in strange and gay and [BEEP] you.
Being a faggotard is not simply being autistic (or ADHD, or schizophrenic) and transgender (or gay, or bisexual). It is what comes out of being denied and rebuked by society. It's embracing the fear you cause and experience, reclaiming it, and finding solace in it. The faggotard characterizes themselves (not "is characterized by" - self-identification is key) as:
Frightened
Angry
But ultimately, just trying to live
Strange, occult, esoteric, bizarre, odd, queer, mysterious, ill-fitting, eccentric, alien
Hyperfixated
Operating on an entirely different wavelength
Some write accelerationist theory-fiction and code calendars in alternate numerical systems. Some have an encyclopedic knowledge of glam rock and seek to embody its aesthetics and ethos. Some become Magic the Gathering judges, sell cards, or write meta. Some animate and study theatre, looking for a place in animatronics and puppetry. Some try to find the best medium to articulate an idea of living inside a nuclear reactor or giant machine complex. Some study clownery and liken themselves to court jesters.
In general, the faggotard is multimedia and multidisciplinary. Experiencing life outside of binaries and in tune with a multi-layered sensory (un)reality, it only makes sense. Often we are dissatisfied with just being programmers, or artists, or writers, or philosophers, or mathematicians, or sales associates, or camp staff. We cannot sit still. Everything exists as a spider web of connections, and claiming one medium or role can never satisfy. Sometimes, though, it is not a choice.Omg. Not exactly but I was reading about this over the past year or so lol:This [BEEP]'s not for sale.
It's not [BEEP] Eye or Love on the Spectrum.
It's going for an aimless walk
(You've been reading the situationists, haven't you?)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychogeography
and this:Psychogeography is the exploration of urban environments that emphasizes interpersonal connections to places and arbitrary routes. It was developed by members of the Letterist International and Situationist International, which were revolutionary groups influenced by Marxist and anarchist theory as well as the attitudes and methods of Dadaists and Surrealists.[1][2][3]
In 1955, Guy Debord defined psychogeography as "the study of the precise laws and specific effects of the geographical environment, consciously organized or not, on the emotions and behavior of individuals."[4] One of the key tactics for exploring psychogeography is the loosely defined urban walking practice known as the d?rive. As a practice and theory, psychogeography has influenced a broad set of cultural actors, including artists, activists and academics.[2][3][5]
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/D%C3%A9rive
I think because of an app I was looking into... I've forgotten what it was called again.The derive (French: [de.ʁiv], "drift") is an unplanned journey through a landscape, usually urban, in which participants stop focusing on their everyday relations to their social environment.[1] Developed by members of the Letterist International, it was first publicly theorized in Guy Debord's "Theory of the Derive" (1956).[2][3] Debord defines the derive as "a mode of experimental behaviour linked to the conditions of urban society: a technique of rapid passage through varied ambiances."[4]
The derive's goals include studying the terrain of the city (psychogeography) and emotional disorientation, both of which lead to the potential creation of Situations.
Creepy.
Given people discuss CCRU and related stuff on YouTube (and that is getting money via ads.) I guess it is kind of for sale potentially. Also some of those other people who are probably getting money somehow off creative things. Also other adj communities who must be getting money.
Also.
Where the purpose is that there is no purpose
(Your inspirations are too obvious.)Abandoning trying to fit in, hoping only to make it
outside (Land is a fascist, y'know)How many energy drinks until I know what I'm doing? When do all the threads - machines, rituals, performance, monsters, robots, gender, love, friendship, aesthetics, subculture, music,
despair, websites, horror, camp, moths - come together into something coherent? Maybe tying everything into an incoherent singularity is what being a faggotard is.Graverobber was my favourite Repo character (I mean predictable most people's really,) and tbh he seemed very peripheral as the narrator. The editing on this is terrible but it's the only clip on YouTube I think that has 'zydrate comes in a little glass vial' which is important:Think of this place as a laboratory. Or a theatre. Or a sewer. Same thing, really. It is my operating theatre. Here you will find my field notes, research fragments, power sources, and viscera.
It is a gory affair, and honestly, I wouldn't recommend following me. You do know what artistic underground masked men with trauma are like, right? Haven't you seen The Phantom of the Opera? Read V for Vendetta? Watched Saw? Played Zero Escape: Zero Time Dilemma? Repo! The Genetic Opera? Literally any Batman media???
Spoiler alert, but these men tend to be horrible people. Murder, torture, and not just normal stabbing or anything, it's always really elaborate and dramatic and over-engineered. Murder/torture isn't enough, they have to cause a revolution and change the world, or make artwork and opera out of it. And sure, you might feel bad for them, because they're actually quite traumatized and society was cruel to them and they've faced things like being shown in a circus or their wife dying or terminal illness or their parents being murdered or being experimented on or being stuck in a time loop or whatever. And it's true, society is cruel and they've been through a lot. The points they raise are generally correct, the problem is that their solution is to do torture-murder-art about it. Also like half of them are grooming women.
I'm exactly like that, but I haven't done literal murder, and I have a vagina. For now. So it's probably best not to follow me.
This musical is both terrible and great at the same time.
Also I try to only follow weird people with 2000s looking websites but then fail for obvious reasons and end up scouring social media.
So I met up with my friend for the first time since 2017 and decided to show him Leake Street Arches (the graffiti tunnel in London.) The graffiti that was there at the time and the ambience was less cool then the first time I stumbled on it completely by accident without knowing it was there at all. Man that was a cool moment I'm glad I didn't know. There's a theatre/alternative art space thing there? The Vaults. I've seen images of on google maps and seems cool but you have to buy tickets in advance that are like ?25 (pounds) but the thing that was on at that time was about serial killers which of course LOL. Feel like that fits into this post somehow.