So I don't know where to put this, but if this in the wrong section, can one of the mods move this? Thanks.
So I went for a "what can we do for you" kind of thing at the Psychological services group, in which I'm hoping to get some kind of therapy (CBT, Schema, etc) set up. I've got an assement with them on Friday. I got a handout at the thing today and it's telling me there's a waiting list of 18 weeks. I've already had to wait 8 weeks for the assement, but I've been recieving councilling from another service. I have two more sessions left, and then I'm discharged from that system. My councillor doesn't have a choice in the matter. As much as he'd like to, he can't extend it.
The thing is, I don't know if I can do that 18 weeks without something happen or any sort of support whatsoever. This is gonna sound really dramatic, and whiny, but the fact is, I can't. I already had to deal with nobody doing anything back in autumn last year because the stupid child system decided that I was going through "Normal teenage stuff" and told me to get on with it. Normal teenage stuff landed me in the urgent care system with a doctor deciding whether or not to admit me to hospital or not, and another referral to the adult system with a file stamped "Urgent". That "Urgent" isn't on there anymore, so I'm not gonna get pushed through.
However, I don't feel as I can cope 18 weeks. I'm struggling as it is, I'm not coping. I honestly feel as if the whole system just hasn't listened to me at all, and is telling me that I'm not really "that ill" and that I'm at low risk of harm. I'm not. I've just been hiding that fact. I'm not going into it on this forum, but I'm really gonna have to spell it out to them.
Nothings happened lately, because there has been some sense of control, but it's up and down, that's my problem. I'm struggling to eat when I'm depressed and I'm loosing weight. I'm gonna end up in hospital for thagoes on soon if this on (I don't have an eating disorder, I just don't feel hungry and forget to eat unless my parents remind me). I'm supposedly not having access to my meds, but my brains already worked out several ways around that and I'm scared as heck as to what it's planning...I need someone to do something past because I can't cope with this much longer, and nobodies gonna listen. I suppose I'm gonna have to make them by telling them what's going on and what's gonna happen if no-one does something soon and that I really cannot wait the whole 18 weeks, but I'm just scared I'm gonna end up sectioned and in hospital for saying this.
So I just need a heads up. Am I gonna end up in hospital for saying that???