Random Thought of the Day

[Nyctophilia]

Honestly I've brought her up a couple of times recently but I actually do think Anastacia is very underrated based on vocal talent. She was visible for a brief period in the early 2000s but she should really be as famous as Adele or Britney.

It?s crazy how famous she is in Europe but she could walk down any street in America and nobody would know who she is

That's weird. America sleep on lots of people though lol.





A lot of it isn't really my favourite genre/style of music but her voice is still really good. I think this was her most popular song back then? And yeah I don't really like the style but her voice is really great:



I also didn't realise this until I started reading her wikipedia page but she's also 5'2" (same height as me,) so that's even more unusual than she has that voice. And that's unfair cause I think she'd made a good rock singer lol.



(this meme works even better because Yugi has that weird voice thing going on where he usually has a high pitched voice.)

Evidently I sound like a poor man's version of Halsey (if you listen from a distance. I'm not as talented as her obviously lol. I only say this because my brother once mistook Halsey for me when I was listening to her.)

I actually don't manage high notes well either lol cause I don't naturally sing well and I haven't had any training. My friend said my singing wasn't bad but pointed out that I don't have enough breath support so that's why I was struggling with the higher notes in this song when I was trying to sing this:



This post is all about meeeeeee again now =P

She has some good songs too actually but I haven't really listened to her much for a decade probably. A lot of the ones I've listened to are quite sad or bittersweet sounding. She reminds me of Tori Amos in that sense (also because of the piano.)

Lyrically, "Samson" references the biblical episode of Samson and Delilah, found in Judges 16.[5][6] Samson was granted extraordinary physical strength by God, though his strength was held in his hair, without which he was powerless. He fell in love with Delilah, who, because of his lust for women, discovered his vulnerability, and used it against him.[6][7]

He then falls in love with Delilah in the valley of Sorek.[18][20][21][23] The Philistines approach Delilah and induce her with 1,100 silver coins to find the secret of Samson's strength so that they can capture their enemy, but Samson refuses to reveal the secret and teases her, telling her that he will lose his strength if he is bound with fresh bowstrings.[18][21] She does so while he sleeps, but when he wakes up he snaps the strings.[18][21] She persists, and he tells her that he can be bound with new ropes. She ties him up with new ropes while he sleeps, and he snaps them, too.[18][21] She asks again, and he says that he can be bound if his locks are woven into a weaver's loom.[18][21] She weaves them into a loom, but he simply destroys the entire loom and carries it off when he wakes.[18][21]

Delilah, however, persists and Samson finally capitulates and tells Delilah that God supplies his power because of his consecration to God as a Nazirite, symbolized by the fact that a razor has never touched his head, and that if his hair is cut off he will lose his strength.[24][25][18][23] Delilah then woos him to sleep "in her lap" and calls for a servant to cut his hair.[18] Samson loses his strength and he is captured by the Philistines, who blind him by gouging out his eyes.[18] They then take him to Gaza, imprison him, and put him to work turning a large millstone and grinding grain.[21]

Halsey is certainly a soprano given her small vocal weight, youthful, feminine timbre, and weak lower register.

This is racist. (Lol no I just like saying that because I'm dumb.)



But no hilarious first world problems. 'Someone compared my voice to Halsey's and the internet is saying her voice sounds youthful and small.'

Actually I think her voice is hard for people to identify. Like for example:

People have debated for years what her voice type is, some labeling her as a light lyric soprano that fakes having a deeper voice,

Chatgpt (or whatever that bing search AI is called,) thinks mezzo-soprano but that she sings in a babyish way:

However, I can tell you that Halsey is a pop singer with a 2-octave range in the mezzo-soprano category1. Her vocal range is roughly two octaves long and a perfect fifth wide, stretching from D3 ? E5 ? A523. Her voice has been described as raspy2 and she sings with a high larynx in her midrange, creating a bright and "babyish" sound4.

Tbf that AI can't be trusted too much especially in 'creative mode.' It said some really hilarious but wrong things about The Sims 2.

This website seemed to argue that she's an alto somehow? (Which is actually the lowest female voice so what.)

Halsey's vocal range is a topic of debate among fans and music critics. Some say she is an alto, while others argue she is a soprano. There is no definitive answer, but we can take a closer look at the evidence to try to make a determination. Halsey?s voice is often described as "smoky" or "husky." This is typically a quality found in lower-pitched voices. Additionally, her vocal range spans from about F3 to C5. This is also indicative of an alto range. However, it?s worth noting that Halsey?s voice has a lot of versatility. She is able to sing both lower- and higher-pitched notes with relative ease. This could be seen as evidence that she is actually a soprano. In the end, it?s hard to say definitively whether Halsey is an alto or a soprano. However, based on the evidence, it seems more likely that she is an alto.

She gets it:

Les has cited being transgender as contributing to her exploration of different singing styles, including pitched-up "nightcore style" vocals, which she once used almost exclusively in her music due to her experiences with voice dysphoria.[1] However, in a 2021 Pitchfork interview, she revealed she had begun taking vocal lessons and recording new 100 gecs music with unpitched vocals, saying, "As I've been exploring my voice more, I'm like, 'I can do this.'"[12]

(that's also why I like demonic sounding edited vocals, and screaming vocals but I also like the combination of weirdly high pitched and low pitched vocals in music cause it creates an androgynous creepy sort of effect. I also just like androgynous singing voices in general - high pitched male vocalists/low pitched female vocalists.)

Really great example (so I guess I'd actually just like a voice with insane range lol):



Sometimes sounds like a goblin. I wonder if that's why Tumblr seems obsessed with goblins lol. With the whole 'goblincore' subculture (I mean the aesthetic motivation is mostly similar to late gothic subcultures where you romanticise or identify with monsters, dark stuff, ugly stuff etc but also this. It seems to appeal to LGBT+ people a lot but that might just be cause it started on tumblr lol.) And then someone asked Strange Aeons if she and her girlfriend were a butch/femme couple (because her girlfriend is very androgynous sometimes she gets comments like 'why are you dating someone who looks like a guy' etc,) and she responded something like 'we don't really use that language we just see ourselves as two goblins' or something lol. (I don't remember exactly but it was something like that.)

Also I feel like Halsey hates being labelled as a pop artist but got pigeon holed into it and forced into it because of her vocal range. Like it mentions that on wikipedia that she thinks she's only classified a pop artist because she's female which is part of it but I'd also say it's because of her vocal style (which does correlate with sex.) But I also think over time she became afraid to take risks. She brought that up in this interview:



I can see there's a huge debate about whether she should become a rock singer on her music video for Nightmare but tbf it seems like a lot of people got distracted and started arguing over whether her music or the song is rock - or even pop rock - which of course it isn't but that wasn't really the point. But I think they are hugboxing either way because they're fans.

Halsey needs to do more rock, her voice is literally meant for it

What they mean is her energy. And it comes out - imo - because she's admitted to listening to rock music and being a fan of Nine Inch Nails etc, but she makes the music that suits her voice etc, and these things conflict.

Another example (this is actually a better example of this than the previous one I went with before editing this 'New Americana' lol not sure why I didn't go with this. Also a better example of why people are confused maybe):



Can she make rock music yeah:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKXixnuA5FM

Easier than Lying is a better example than the above link (The Lighthouse song,) which is almost post-rock in parts. I just found it amusingly archetypal/symbolic? Or something because of the siren + Satanic aspect of the lyrics considering what I mentioned later in the post. Like the focus is more violent instead of just the beauty/seduction.

From a tender age I was cursed with rage
Came swinging like a fist inside a batting cage
I went swimming with the devil at the bottom of a lake
And he left me there by my lonesome

He was tall and mean with venom eyes so green
Wanted reconciliation, but my tongue was in my teeth
I couldn't find the floor, so I was kickin' with my feet
But they weren't there, they were stolen

There is a lighthouse in the
Middle of the deep end
I'm still standing on the shore line
And nobody hears me scream
And I'll lure you like a landslide
And I'll show you lovely things
If you rescue me but they'll make believe
The lighthouse by the sea

Well, the waves were tall and they were crashing down
He's laying in the water begging God to let him drown
So I showed him all my teeth and then I laughed out loud
'Cause I never wanted saving, I just wanted to be found

Well, that should teach a man to mess with me
He was never seen again
And I'm still wandering the beach
And I'm glad I met the devil
'Cause he showed me I was weak
And a little piece of him is in a little piece of me



But rock fans usually prefer voices like this most of the time:



Courtney Love is really hated though lol, but musically speaking.



I guess Ann Wilson is also a lyric soprano and makes it work though.



Her voice has obviously gotten lower with age cause that happens to everyone (so she doesn't go as high as he does in the original, It's falsetto but it's still hard to do what he did well in a healthy way, and he didn't based on what I've read lol this is still good though):



I'm not inclined to include all the symphonic metal band female vocalists (Sharon den Adel, Tarja Turunen etc both sopranos I think,) their vocals are very powerful because they're operatic, but they transform the genre to the point where it becomes it's own subgenre because of their operatic vocals. There are also - in a similar vein - a few hyper feminine ethereal wave/dream pop female musicians such as this sort of thing:



While they're talented vocally (I'm not trying to insult them. I think this sort of thing often gets read that way,) what they're doing is also different they're like ethereal sirens/angels (not just vocally but like in some music videos that's the theme lol,) not Joan Jett, and ultimately gets classified in a different way as a result. Male goth rock musicians sing in a much lower voice typically (that's sort of an expectation of the genre, if you're a guy with a higher voice it would be harder to get by in the genre I imagine.) Here's an exception to the general rule where you have a female singer in a goth/darkwave band with a low voice (Shannon Funchess from Light Asylum):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNiKCRUpbqA

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shannon_Funchess

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Hahaha wikipedia stop being trash. I remember when they used to do this for the Crywank band bio but then finally they had enough mainstream sources that they were deemed relevant enough lol (the entire band that is not just individual members.) This hasn't just been an issue on wikipedia lol! They posted something similar on twitter:

This year I?ve had about five music journalists reach out wanting to cover Crywank only to reach out shortly afterwards to apologise because their editor told them no 👻

But yeah I think Light Asylum meet the standards but most individual musicians won't be famous enough to get their own bio. But yeah they don't have infinite server space. They don't seem to often merge them though. There are a lot of band pages with very little info about individual members and I get curious. Look if various streamers and YouTubers get wikipedia articles I figure she can probably have one lol. (I didn't write that article btw lol. I edit pages sometimes but never bother writing entire pages.)

Lol trying to argue why she should be included. 'Well I heard about the band in a YouTube video by ofherbsandlalters which specifically focussed on her vocals at one point in the video' :



Oh wait no I didn't hear about Light Asylum in that video I forgot. There was another song I stumbled on a bit before this video lol because it was part of the soundtrack for the TV show Russian Doll:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kB4qc7y-o60

But the ofherbsandalters video was my introduction to that particular song I linked, which I like a lot more than Shallow Tears (though I liked Shallow Tears enough to look up the band.) I did find her vocal range very interesting because her singing voice sounded male or close to basically.

Apparently all genderfluid/genderqueer trans masc people with an interest in goth culture, who live in the UK and have at some point dyed their hair, have the same weird vocal fixations (sample size: 2 lol.) Although I also like other types of screaming vocals and they mention they prefer fry screaming. Hall of Mirrors (The Distillers,) is such a good song though and I do really like Brody Dalle. I don't like Oasis or Liam Gallagher in general, but I said this before. But yeah they're using AI for that now Grimes has an AI of her voice lol. She's splitting royalties with people who use it 50/50 I think. But it's not the same thing obviously as having a voice that is unique to yourself that you like and that expresses what you want.

and ofherbsandalters once had a photo of himself included in a contrapoints video Envy (her 3rd most viewed video,) for literally 2 seconds where she mentioned goths while talking about Nietzsche as you do (timestamp,) Contrapoints is also a long time patreon supporter of the YouTuber Strange Aeons who included clips of two-three of ofherbsandalters videos in her video on mall goths here. And Contrapoints has a very detailed and long wikipedia article written about her. Therefore by the transitive property (or not I don't 100% know what that means,) of YouTubers who get wikipedia articles this must be allowed. Contrapoints knows about a YouTuber who has heard of this musician.



"Oh but The Guardian hasn't written about any of these people (except Contrapoints)'

Boooo. I'm like an anti-hipster 'you will all become fans/read about this person.'

Halsey's work with Nine Inch Nails was interesting though (I dunno what she's doing now.) other than that I mostly liked her first album and she's a good lyricist which I mentioned before:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=so8V5dAli-Q

And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
God damn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head
They beg me to write them so they'll never die when I'm dead
And I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head
They beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRHNi3QfFlE

But yeah I don't keep up with newer stuff as much. I like Nine Inch Nails though so that caught my attention.

(going back to Anastacia being underrated.) I think Anastacia had some health problems though and she was in her 30s by the time she got some mainstream success kinda like Maria Brink I think. (I mean she was working in music before then, but she didn't get significant fame until her 30s.)

Howorth refused to audition her because she was a woman. But he quickly changed his mind and apologized to her after hearing her sing

Rude. Lol yeah just start singing.



She's one of my favourite vocalists lol.



And honestly a lot of the music doesn't interest me that much. It's fine but especially now they've moved into a kind of electronic era I probably wouldn't listen to any of it if not for her so they can essentially put anything and it will be at least OK on that basis. I don't mind metalcore but it's not my favourite metal subgenre. Eluveitie is the opposite where the music is more interesting than the vocals to me.

This is a good example where her vocals are the selling point imo:



This is better musically though:



Newer music is less melodic I guess?

*drags out Kurt Cobain's corpse*







^ has a few redeeming qualities. They've included some piano.



I'm not sort of thinking 'wow these guitars are amazing' Like:





Sometimes the thought process seems like 'we will make very loud and heavy music the louder and heavier the better.' Lol. This is probably a bigger problem for US bands? I don't hate the US lol. 'Many of my favourite bands/musicians are from the US.'

I like to ask myself 'would I listen to this as an instrumental?' And then I like to deafen myself while writing this post by having the volume on my headphones up to loud as I search for the highest quality upload of this track.

Yeah cause I discovered that through this I think lol (either that or another guitar cover by someone else lol but both around the same time)



Gone way off topic again lol.

[Nyctophilia]

Separated this into a new post because I just kept having more thoughts and it was really off topic lol:

Lyrically, "Samson" references the biblical episode of Samson and Delilah, found in Judges 16.[5][6] Samson was granted extraordinary physical strength by God, though his strength was held in his hair, without which he was powerless. He fell in love with Delilah, who, because of his lust for women, discovered his vulnerability, and used it against him.[6][7]

He then falls in love with Delilah in the valley of Sorek.[18][20][21][23] The Philistines approach Delilah and induce her with 1,100 silver coins to find the secret of Samson's strength so that they can capture their enemy, but Samson refuses to reveal the secret and teases her, telling her that he will lose his strength if he is bound with fresh bowstrings.[18][21] She does so while he sleeps, but when he wakes up he snaps the strings.[18][21] She persists, and he tells her that he can be bound with new ropes. She ties him up with new ropes while he sleeps, and he snaps them, too.[18][21] She asks again, and he says that he can be bound if his locks are woven into a weaver's loom.[18][21] She weaves them into a loom, but he simply destroys the entire loom and carries it off when he wakes.[18][21]

Delilah, however, persists and Samson finally capitulates and tells Delilah that God supplies his power because of his consecration to God as a Nazirite, symbolized by the fact that a razor has never touched his head, and that if his hair is cut off he will lose his strength.[24][25][18][23] Delilah then woos him to sleep "in her lap" and calls for a servant to cut his hair.[18] Samson loses his strength and he is captured by the Philistines, who blind him by gouging out his eyes.[18] They then take him to Gaza, imprison him, and put him to work turning a large millstone and grinding grain.[21]

This is actually against my religion lol. My religion is men having long hair (unless they can't.) I'm joking but only slightly. I once had a nightmare that some musician cut his hair hahahaha.

The bible passage was written at a time when slaves had short hair because they'd cut off all their hair. They still encourage black guys to have short hair culturally in the West by demonising dreadlocks etc and saying they look unprofessional (they do this with all long hair on guys but with black guys most of all, and they encourage black women to straighten their hair so it's closer to white women's.)

My dad was always nagging my brother to get his hair cut even though he had relatively long hair himself but his was straight and he'd tie it up in a ponytail. My brother's hair is curly so he thought it looked messy. I think his primary reason for not wanting to get it cut though was just that he hated hairdressers and he didn't care much aesthetically either way. He had long hair most of the time until his 20s. These days he just shaves most of it off himself. I also cut my own hair lol because I also hate going.

I do think we've moved away from that image of short hair as being a slave thing though. For the most part it's just seen as masculine now instead and my reason for liking long hair is (in relation to that,) probably more because I like androgynous traits in men in general. (Though I don't think that's the whole story since as I mentioned before I also tend to give my characters who I'm not sexually attracted to long hair. I think it just has cool wizard/occult vibes which I like. I guess that does go back to the 'magic powers = long hair' thing.)

So now if you have long hair I suppose it would be seen as weak, because it's seen as more feminine. I'd say it depends on the overall vibe but I don't think people differentiate in children because they look naturally androgynous other than hair length since most changes happen after puberty. I mean my brother was never very feminine or anything with the exception of this period where he had a baby doll he named and looked after. He was quite aggressive (often getting into trouble for that,) and he never wore female clothing. But people often thought he was a girl up until puberty. Well my nan claims that when we were very young people still thought we were twin girls so I dunno (I don't remember this, she found this amusing and brought it up a few times.) He didn't have long hair then I don't think. Maybe just because we were very close. We don't look that similar since I look more like my dad/dad's side of the family and maybe a bit like my grandma I think and he looks more like some other people on my mum's side like her dad. We're not even twins lol.

For example people on twitter were complaining recently about how Megan Fox has three sons that all dressed like girls but when I looked only one was dressed femininely the other two just had really long hair and male clothing so they looked like little metal heads. One was actually wearing a Led Zeppelin t-shirt lol.

They complain about the androgyny of Hollywood star's children often. Chris Hemsworth for example talked about how his daughter told him she wanted a penis, and his sons wanted to dress up as Wonder Woman for Halloween. (and this is also where the 'they're all evil Satanic cultists' thing comes from. But I think creative people tend to be more androgynous and experiment more and this is probably genetic. Even if they're not particularly their kids might be. I also think that non-conformity is somewhat genetic based on what I've read as is sexuality and of course Megan Fox is bisexual.

Fox also said that she was never popular in high school, and that "everyone hated me, and I was a total outcast, my friends were always guys, I have a very aggressive personality, and girls didn't like me for that. I've had only one great girlfriend my whole life." In the same interview, she mentions that she hated school and has "never been a big believer in formal education" and that "the education I was getting seemed irrelevant. So, I was sort of checked out on that part of it."[22]

Oh and I was reading this article a few days ago because I was looking up some stuff about Kenneth Zucker (psychologist/sexologist,) so there was a story about one of his patient's (the article was contrasting his approach with a more accepting therapist):

https://www.npr.org/2008/05/07/90247...er-preferences

It wasn't until Halloween when her 2 1/2-year-old son decided to dress as Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz that Carol began to worry.

Bradley had always had a preference for girls' things. From his earliest days he had chosen girls' dolls, identified with female characters and gravitated toward female children. But Carol had never thought to care. As far as she was concerned, it wasn't a loaded gun; it wasn't a lit cigarette. She says it had really never crossed her mind to say, "I'd really rather you played with a truck."

Then, on Halloween, the calculus began to tip.

To simulate Dorothy's hair, Carol covered Bradley's blond crewcut with a brown tea towel. Bradley loved it. In fact, he became obsessed with his tea-towel hair. For months afterward he would wake up every morning and put the towel on his head. When Carol tried to remove it, he would protest.

"It was really obsessive," Carol says. "We really had to negotiate times when he just couldn't wear it anymore. ... He seemed to feel uncomfortable and nervous sometimes when he didn't have this hair, this tea-towel hair."

And as Bradley grew older, his discomfort with things male also grew. He would shun other boys -- he played exclusively with girls. Again, this concerned Carol, but she wasn't frantic about it.

It was a single event that transformed her vague sense of worry into something more serious. One day, Bradley came home from an outing at the local playground with his baby sitter. He was covered in blood. A gash on his forehead ran deep into his hairline.

"What had happened was that two 10-year-old boys had thrown him off some playground equipment across the pavement because he'd been playing with a Barbie doll -- and they called him a girl," Carol says. "So that sort of struck me, that, you know, if he doesn't learn to socialize with both males and females ... he was going to get hurt."

Me and my brother would fight sometimes for fun but also when annoyed. One time he chucked a toy table at me so I ended up with a cut under my eye actually when we had to have pictures taken. One time I kicked him in the back because he distracted me while I was playing a playstation game (talked about most of this stuff before. Probably the most mad my dad has ever been with me.) I think I used to hit him on the head sometimes when he was annoying me. I accidentally gave him two nose bleeds as well one time I was pretending to punch him but then actually did, another time I was just swinging on the stairs and he walked up so I kicked him accidentally. I used to try to climb across the rail on top of the landing over the stairs and do weird stuff like that (So if I fell I'd just fall down the stairs.) Kind of dangerous lol. Very monkey like. Used to climb this tree in the garden a lot. I did a lot of dumb stuff though like walking up waterslides people were trying to go down etc. I was very well behaved in school due to social anxiety/selective mutism, but then as soon as you removed authority I just basically went crazy. So when I was on holiday in France with my family there were often no adults around, or at least adults I was worried about so I'd just go wander off with my brother or other kids I met there. Terrorising the French. No I wasn't that bad lol. (Actually British tourists do have a terrible reputation though.) This is what Jordan Peterson talks about I guess with the internet when he says there are some very disagreeable people who are somewhat restrained in real life but then just 'go off' online. There were a lot of kids at my mum's work too (she worked in a special needs school,) and because our parents (mums mostly obviously,) would be working we'd all hang out together after school while waiting for our parents to finish, and often get into trouble with the caretaker. He had to put up with a lot thinking back. Like Scrubs but in reverse.

I think there are laws I respect because I believe they're actually wrong (like if it was legal to assault people I wouldn't just start randomly assaulting people,) but then there are things that I just don't care that much about so I only respect that rule based on punishment. (Psychopaths are like this with most things, only even then if they have impulse control issues they won't care even when they are at risk for being put in prison.) Some things fall in between like I don't care about trespassing unless it's someone's house because then that would be traumatising/scary for them or at least annoying. There are ambiguous laws regarding trespassing in the UK in abandoned places etc, sometimes the police will ask you to move on I believe it's kind of a legal grey area. Lol one time George Carlin said he straight up didn't care about theft on Bill Maher's show (I think it's like 6:28 in the video below,) but tbf I think he was kind of annoyed with the tendency of people to take theft more seriously than murder/people's lives and also wealth distribution makes no sense anyway so it's not like the rules of the game make sense:



Likewise I don't care all that much about digital piracy tbh and since it's not strongly criminalised I engage in that often because it's easy and I don't think it causes enough harm if I pirate a TV show and I don't want to pay for several different subscription TV services. I also pirate scientific research because I think it's morally wrong to lock it behind a paywall. And also other non-fiction books sometimes if it's related to something I'm studying (because I want knowledge but I don't want to pay tons for every book when I need to look up some quote from or to fact check some detail. Often I'm not going to read the entire book anyway. I guess that's why libraries were invented but that involves leaving the house and they won't have most of those books at local libraries here anyway.) I mostly pay for books and video games though. I usually listen to music on YouTube so don't pay for most of that, sometimes buy music though especially from smaller/indie musicians. I'm still going to end up listening to it on YouTube whether I buy it or not most of the time lol and I usually end up seeing the people I listen to the most live multiple times and buying a bunch of band merch.

My brother also on at least one occasion chucked a brick at a girl because he was annoyed I remember this happening twice but he only remembers one time and I probably just mixed up the memory with something else happening because it's vague now (generally this sort of thing would be frowned upon because she's a girl, but obviously he grew up with me and didn't really know that you 'don't fight girls.' Also obviously it's excessive and he cringes about this a lot now.) He was way less physically aggressive after childhood.

But why should someone have to change their behaviour/interests because some gynephiles are unruly nightmares and then learn bigotry from their dads etc?

So, to treat Bradley, Zucker explained to Carol that she and her husband would have to radically change their parenting. Bradley would no longer be allowed to spend time with girls. He would no longer be allowed to play with girlish toys or pretend that he was a female character. Zucker said that all of these activities were dangerous to a kid with gender identity disorder. He explained that unless Carol and her husband helped the child to change his behavior, as Bradley grew older, he likely would be rejected by both peer groups. Boys would find his feminine interests unappealing. Girls would want more boyish boys. Bradley would be an outcast.

First of all which girls? Because a lot of girls seem to really like the idea of effeminate gay male friends especially these days. Some of them will be shitty about it though.

You see this is sad and makes me angry. Especially when you consider the main reason she had an issue was because her son was being violently assaulted for his nonconformity:

"In the beginning, he didn't really care, because he'd picked stuff he didn't play with," Carol says. "But then it really got down to the last few."

As his pile of toys dwindled, Carol realized Bradley was hoarding. She would find female action figures stashed between couch pillows. Rainbow unicorns were hidden in the back of Bradley's closet. Bradley seemed at a loss, she said. They gave him male toys, but he chose not to play at all.

"He turned to coloring and drawing, and he just simply wouldn't play with anything. And he would color and draw for hours and hours and hours. And that would be all he did in a day," Carol says. "I think he was really lost. ... The whole way that he knew and understood how to play was just sort of, you know, removed from his house."

His drawings, however, also proved problematic. Bradley would populate his pictures with the toys and interests he no longer had access to -- princesses with long flowing hair, fairies in elaborate dresses, rainbows of pink and purple and pale yellow. So, under Zucker's direction, Carol and her husband sought to change this as well.

"We would ask him, 'Can you draw a boy for us? Can you draw a boy in that picture?' ... And then he didn't really want us to see his drawings or watch him drawing because we would always say 'Can you draw a boy?'" Carol says. "And then finally after, I don't know, a month or two, he just said, 'Momma, I don't know how. ... I don't know how to draw a boy.'"

Carol says she finally sat down and showed him. From then on, Bradley drew boys as directed. Male figures with anemic caps of hair on their heads filled the pages of his sketchbook.

The below quote is a way bigger issue then how her kids dress honestly lol (I've heard this before from [BEEP] women):

She is bisexual, and said she believes that "all humans are born with the ability to be attracted to both sexes".[103] She stated in 2009, "I have no question in my mind about being bisexual. But I'm also a hypocrite: I would never date a girl who was bisexual, because that means they also sleep with men, and men are so dirty that I'd never want to sleep with a girl who had slept with a man."[104]

[Nyctophilia]

'This is called trains'

I died lmfao. Totally makes this video.

Also RE: female audience it was mostly middle aged men at concerts I went to, followed by young guys, but I think he has more female fans than other prog artists for sure.

Poor Steven, he just wants to be happily miserable

Also he goes on about miserable music all the time at concerts lol. I recorded this from a concert I went to before I think in 2018 (Also talks about The Cure Pornography album which is one of my favourites haha.)



This video is actually unlisted but the title is kind of algorithmically perfect lol.

[Nyctophilia]

After about the fourth subreddit today I noticed had gone private I finally thought 'hm something must have happened' especially given a lot of the subs weren't exactly topics or things that warranted being private.

[Otherside]

After about the fourth subreddit today I noticed had gone private I finally thought 'hm something must have happened' especially given a lot of the subs weren't exactly topics or things that warranted being private.

Ah, the reddit drama, its brilliant. They're protesting that they won't be able to use third party apps to access reddit because reddit is going to be for API calls.

Personally, I'm struggling to feel strongly about not being to use third party apps. Whole thing is popcorn worthy though, subredditdrama has a metadrama thread with the best bits from modcoord that is absolutley comical. Was going to be two days, now they appear they will be doing it indefinitely. We will see. Eventually the admins will force open the subs and put in new mods.

[Otherside]

"Touch Grass Tuesdays" has pretty much become my all time favourite of this though...

"So err, we realise that support subs like stopdrinking or subs like Ukraine can't go dark indefinatley to stick it to corporate. But, do you think you could go dark once a week on Tuesdays? I know there's a war on and Russia wants to kill you all, but have you considered the plight of the third party app users? Could all the alcoholics maybe not be alcoholics on Tuesday's and touch grass?"

[Nyctophilia]

There's a bunch of videos floating around atm with titles like this about Gen Z (I haven't watched any of them atm):

Gen Z Quietly Gave Up, And Nobody Noticed

Gen Z: The First Generation With No Purpose

As far as I can tell Millennials only had 'purpose' because of pop punk and boomer parents lol.. Weren't gen x famously apathetic in general? Or something? You know besides all the gen x'ers who made music that Millennials grew up on so it's presumably a bs stereotype lol. And Greta Thunberg is gen Z.

Superhero films and all the other things really did a number on millenials. I mean this is such a weird video I watched a couple of days ago (as an aside it's funny that he seemed to dye his hair halfway through recording this video too. I don't know if that was intentional for effect or if he just stopped recording to take a break and happened to feel like dying his hair before he started again.)



I'm now wondering if this is the 'motorbike guy who puts [BEEP] flags into his videos to show he's safe' that someone else mentioned. Not quite what I expected. Honestly I appreciate the sentiment but he points out that the target audience won't listen to women or [BEEP] people - correct but they're not going to listen to him either just because he's straight. The video goes off on a weird political leftist tangent which will automatically turn off the target audience because they already see [BEEP] people as a leftist conspiracy. They're actually more likely to listen to [BEEP] or female right wingers over anyone espousing the views he does in this video as their cultural frame of reference is so different (but the really insane people will never be satisfied.) Then it ends on a very intense note 'I want to save the world do you want to save the world?' Do you have a more concrete plan or? It's just making me think of the generational archetypes again lol:





Also before watching I thought 'I bet he wasn't really that transphobic and I bet he made a trans friend' both turned out to be true lol. I very rarely come across someone who changes their mind about trans people who didn't make a trans friend. Which isn't very hopeful really because as he points that out it doesn't scale at all. But that's why you need humanising TV shows etc. Supposedly sitcoms help people to be more openminded. Of course those people don't want to be more open minded towards trans people (or in some cases any LGBT+ people.) Also honestly it didn't sound like he was that transphobic/homophobic to start with just kind of had little exposure to [BEEP] people and some negative experiences with a gay man.

Oh the opposite can happen too like Elon Musk's kid came out as trans and he became even more insufferable.

Also I could use a plan right now.

Twitter is insane now and I haven't used it much in several days or so except to look up some Crywank tweets directly. Why is Sargon on my fucking timeline saying nonsense?

These flags are the signs of foreign occupation and demonstrate the government's fidelity to this new regime. The Britain you grew up in is over.

I strongly doubt there isn't UK born lgbtq+ people. I mean, have you never heard of Alan Turing???

You don't have a claim to them.

If I'm understanding this correctly he's decided I'm not British - note - not because I'm not 100% British ethnically (though I'm not,) but because I'm LGBT+ lmfao. And I don't even care for any flags per se but yeah. Also ftr Sargon is a quarter black and definitely not 100% British so I guess we can all [BEEP] off back to where we came from. So I'm going back to video games LOL.



And I will wait for you
Until the sky is blue
And I will wait for you
What else can I do?

A spaceship from another star
They ask me where all the people are
What can I tell them?

I tell them I'm the only one
There was a war but I must have won

Please take me with you
Please take me with you

And I will wait for you
Until the sky is blue

And I will wait for you
What else can I do?

I hope Kurt Cobain found them.

Oh well my nan was made stateless before she came to the UK so I guess it makes sense that fascists want me to be stateless now. So it goes.

I beg you, log off twitter and go outside

Well as I was planning on leaving the house a few times or more this month, ideally he can stay in his house.

As for Alan Turing well the Britain he grew up with forced him to choose between castration and prison and then in 2011 some politician said that it made no sense to pardon him of the crime of homosexuality because it 'was illegal at the time' and then it took I think until maybe 2017 or something before that happened. Oh but I can't I wrote a long [BEEP] bunch of things that I decided not to post recently about why pride is actually necessary (though not enough to help some people.) And it actually did include Alan Turing among other things. They were arguing that about the name essentially where 'being prideful is bad' OK but you clearly have no idea what it's like to live with people constantly making you feel ashamed or like a monster, gaslighting you over your preferences, and having to figure out everything about yourself with no help and no script. Otherwise you'd get it.

I imagine a very real future where former national flags are subsumed and replaced by the Pride flag. That's the trajectory here. It's more than a religion and much worse. Sauron in all but name.

Look I like LoTR but I don't use it as a metaphor that often. And I am a big fan of metaphor. Sounds like Varg Vikernes he's always doing this.

Twitter has become entirely inhospitable even to me lol. Like I went on earlier just to try and find some old quote Elon Musk posted about pronatalism instead just encountered several very transphobic tweets from him. Oh joy it's 'pride month' Checked my timeline and Sargon was somehow fucking there. I do not follow the cunt. I actually forgot he even existed until recently lol when I was writing some other post about him being a classic case of right wing radicalisation.

You didn't have to go out of your way to prove me right. This is a level of far gone insanity I wasn't sure I expected from you lol.

Literally a minute. I noped out. I can't really handle this [BEEP] from British people especially. I don't want to hear the most powerful man in the world talk [BEEP] about us, and some luncatic from my country insist we're foreign invaders.

I'm fed up with larping along to your retarded fantasies about how we're all monsters/Satanic/Evil all the time you've ruined it lol. I'm fucking tired man. You all need to take a month off. This is why we need pride month online lol.

What foreign power is occupying the street?

The forces of Slaanesh, Nurgle, Tzneech and Khorne

You guys are Khorne in this scenario. (edit: well the far right/fascists I mean. They view war as essential to revitalise men and akin to childbirth and usually practice occultism/niche spirituality which makes them 'chaotic,' and most importantly Khorne is Slaanesh's enemy and vice versa. So most people posting on that tweet and Sargon are adj to that group. But if I was speaking insane/metaphor I would really say that ideology is some kind of twisted combination of Jyggalag from Elder Scrolls and Khorne.) And if they had higher openness maybe they'd get that. But then maybe they wouldn't feel disgusted/like they're being invaded all the time.

Clearly nerds were a mistake.

[Nyctophilia]

Ah, the reddit drama, its brilliant. They're protesting that they won't be able to use third party apps to access reddit because reddit is going to be for API calls.

Personally, I'm struggling to feel strongly about not being to use third party apps. Whole thing is popcorn worthy though, subredditdrama has a metadrama thread with the best bits from modcoord that is absolutley comical. Was going to be two days, now they appear they will be doing it indefinitely. We will see. Eventually the admins will force open the subs and put in new mods.

Ah I've only recently bought a new phone (and still need to get a new sim,) so most apps stopped working on my old phone years ago (just use a desktop PC,) so don't really have an opinion about that. I know subreddits have done similar strikes for other reasons before though.

[Heelsbythebridge]

I'm fat. I have stomach rolls right now. I feel like I was skinny just a couple weeks ago.

[Otherside]

Ah I've only recently bought a new phone (and still need to get a new sim,) so most apps stopped working on my old phone years ago (just use a desktop PC,) so don't really have an opinion about that. I know subreddits have done similar strikes for other reasons before though.

Yeah, I mean, I think a lot less people have opinions on the ability to use 3rd party apps, or even understand what an API is, or that 3rd party apps existed than the protestors think, or that they really have as much leverage over reddit on this issue as they seem to believe, or that the users are really going to care so much when the mods inevitably get demobbed and replaced so the larger subs can reopen.

[Nyctophilia]

It's hard being exposed to this constant delusional hate everywhere. It's worse when it's from people in your own country and sometimes feels like it will never end.

I imagine a very real future where former national flags are subsumed and replaced by the Pride flag. That's the trajectory here. It's more than a religion and much worse. Sauron in all but name.

Oh all right. It is one of our favourite things to do.

I'm over it already.

If you can't beat them curse them I guess.




Does Sargon even know his non-English namesake worshipped an androgynous goddess that was known for changing people's sex and who was mostly followed by people who map onto trans women and feminine gay men today?

No?

Oh he does because I just found this video of him reading a prayer to her on some other channel he must have had in 2015 while trying to find that one silly song someone made about him.



Video description:

The Exaltation of Inanna is an Akkadian hymn to Ishtar (Sumerian: Inanna) and is the world's oldest attributed writing.

The hymn was written by the Enheduana, the daughter of Sargon of Akkad, during her time as the high priestess of the moon god Sin (Sumerian: Nanna), and is one of a body of work attributed to her.

The purpose of the hymn is to both praise and placate Inanna, so that she will not destroy Akkad but turn her anger to the "foreign lands" and destroy them instead.

Think it's spelt Enheduanna.

This is I think the third? Transphobe/homophobe I've seen online who has either called themselves Inanna without seemingly knowing anything about her, or referenced someone who worshipped her.

Sargon (the og,) contributed massively to her popularity in fact. Without him, she may not have reached the level of fame she has today. Eventually inspiring a few characters in Greek mythology too.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inanna

Inanna was worshiped in Sumer at least as early as the Uruk period (c. 4000 bce ? 3100 bce), her cultic activity was relatively localized before the conquest of Sargon of Akkad. During the post-Sargonic era, she became one of the most widely venerated deities in the Sumerian pantheon,[7][8]

The worship of Ishtar and syncretism between her and Inanna was encouraged by Sargon and his successors,[46] and as a result she quickly became one of the most widely venerated deities in the Mesopotamian pantheon.[35] In inscriptions of Sargon, Naram-Sin and Shar-Kali-Sharri Ishtar is the most frequently invoked deity.[47]

Here's another hymn written by his daughter:

Without your consent, no destiny is determined, the most ingenious solution finds no favour.
To run fast, to slip away, to calm, to pacify are yours, Inanna,
To dart aimlessly, to go too fast, to fall, to get up, to sustain a comrade are yours, Inanna.
To open high road and byroad, safe lodging on the way, helping the worn-out along are yours, Inanna.
To make footpath and trail go in the right direction, to make the going good are yours, Inanna.
To destroy, to create, to tear out, to establish are yours, Inanna.
To turn a man into a woman and a woman into a man are yours, Inanna.

Individuals who went against the traditional gender binary were heavily involved in the cult of Inanna.[53] During Sumerian times, a set of priests known as gala worked in Inanna's temples, where they performed elegies and lamentations.[54] Men who became gala sometimes adopted female names and their songs were composed in the Sumerian eme-sal dialect, which, in literary texts, is normally reserved for the speech of female characters. Some Sumerian proverbs seem to suggest that gala had a reputation for engaging in anal sex with men.[55] During the Akkadian Period, kurgarru and assinnu were servants of Ishtar who dressed in female clothing and performed war dances in Ishtar's temples.[56] Several Akkadian proverbs seem to suggest that they may have also had homosexual proclivities.[56] Gwendolyn Leick, an anthropologist known for her writings on Mesopotamia, has compared these individuals to the contemporary Indian hijra.[57]

https://www.encyclopedia.com/social-.../inanna-ishtar

The sexual identity of this goddess is controversial. In one late text, Ishtar says of herself: "I am a woman, I am a man." Ishtar could be viewed as a beautiful goddess of love who rules the day and as a bearded god(dess) of war who rules the night. It is claimed that the androgyny of Inanna/Ishtar provided a powerful symbol of the ambiguities of pure sexuality reflected in her cult, and in the transvestism of her cultic personnel (Groneberg 1986).

It is not so clear, however, that Inanna (in contrast to Ishtar) had male or androgynous features. In Sumerian poetry, the goddess repeatedly lauds her own sexual beauty, both in lyric song and mythic narratives. Inanna sings: "These [my] female genitals, ... my moored boat of heaven, clothed in beauty like the new crescent moon ... this high well-watered field of mine: my own female genitals, the maiden's, a well-watered opened-up mound'who will be their ploughman'" (Dumuzi-Inanna Song P, ii 16-26).

I guess that's why they wanted to turn men into women. Many such afab cases.

Tbh I've always thought of her as closer to a trans woman (well I guess there were two characters who were syncretised but yeah,) and I think most people do. But this works too.



Who knew Sargon was this based? I guess he's somewhat of a gentleman of culture too. 😏

4tran is once again asking inside my head:

Why is it always [trans guys] who believe in/pretend the strange, bullshit fake alt things like DID, otherkin, growing angel wings, plural, magic, ouija boards, fairies etc? Don't get me wrong, a metric fuckton of my fellow [trans women?] do it too, but it's like 65% [trans guys] who do this type of fake mystical protagonist shit, if not higher. Why?

"It was necessary" - Joan of Arc.

Going to start using that as a random excuse for everything.

(It's actually mostly third gender and non-binary people who do this, today and historically, also the occasional crossdresser, but some also identify as men.)

This is the song btw:



The actual warlord Sargon would prob kill him or something I guess lol.

Also btw it's fucking hilarious that wikipedia needs to now specify that when talking about gamergate ants they're talking about ants:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gamergate_(ant)

A gamergate (/ˈɡ?mərˌɡeɪt/ GAMM-ər-gayt) is a mated worker ant that can reproduce sexually, i.e., lay fertilized eggs that will develop as females. In the vast majority of ant species, workers are sterile and gamergates are restricted to taxa where the workers have a functional sperm reservoir ('spermatheca'). In some species, gamergates reproduce in addition to winged queens (usually upon the death of the original foundress), while in other species the queen caste has been completely replaced by gamergates. In gamergate species, all workers in a colony have similar reproductive potentials, but as a result of physical interactions, a dominance hierarchy is formed and only one or a few top-ranking workers can mate (usually with foreign males) and produce eggs. Subsequently however, aggression is no longer needed as gamergates secrete chemical signals that inform the other workers of their reproductive status in the colony.

We collectively really have destroyed the internet and much of culture. Good job everyone. gg.



In other news everyone seems to have purple hair now. (I've seen three people with long purple hair on YouTube recently lol.) I remember when I had purple hair like that. Then one time I had purple hair and was wearing this top that had like purple and black stripy sleeves and a long hood and I went to this drawing class at uni and the teacher was talking about colour symbolism and used me as an example lmfao. Purple is one of the best colours though.

I can't really remember what he said now though. I mean I'm aware of the various things purple symbolises but I think some stuff he was saying was kind of insane because he was quite kooky. At one point I had a bunch of quotes from him in my facebook profile and everyone would just randomly quote the weird things he said in that class but I've forgotten most of it now. One thing involved crayons or coloured pencils but that's all I remember. He said a lot of weird/funny stuff to this guy I used to hang out with. Also at one point I think he said to me something like 'I'm going to dance with you and then you'll see that I'm dangerous.' Something like that. I wish I could remember the context. It was hilarious though.

Unfortunately he wasn't a particularly good teacher and the next year we had this woman come in who had worked for Disney in some capacity I think, and she pointed out how behind we were in terms of drawing skills and hadn't been taught properly and was confused. This happened to me back in secondary school in IT too. There was a teacher who was leaving and so just didn't really give a [BEEP] and I think assigned us the wrong thing to do, so when her replacement came in he was like 'all this coursework is wrong you were supposed to something else.' And so we all had to come in on Saturdays to get all our work done so we could pass which is insane and I feel like this should have been illegal or something lol. He was cool though.

[Heelsbythebridge]

I DESERVE craft beer! DESERVE

[Heelsbythebridge]

In your heart of hearts, what do you really want?

Are you loyal to a certain person, place, ideology, emblem, organization, what truly drives you? Who and what are you looking out for?

[Doseone]

Why am I here and not over there?

It's as simple as pushing squares.

[Nyctophilia]

probably 1/3 of the posts on my tumblr timeline are people talking to the redditors that have apparently moved to tumblr lol.

I imagine the thought process went something like this:

facebook: for boomers

instagram: too normie

twitter: oh god where did all these white supremacists/nationalists come from?

"Guess I'll have to join tumblr."

Think my friend is thinking about moving to instagram (not because of reddit, probably because of twitter. He was on twitter because lots of people he knew were on it but it's too much for most people to deal with now.)


As one person said:

"It's really funny how Tumblr keeps gaining new members just because other websites mess up so colossally,, that Tumblr somehow manages to look better in comparison. Really embodies the idea of failing upwards. "

Oh there are some tags lol:

One thing I love about Tumblr that wasn't a thing on Reddit is that I can just write whatever the [BEEP] text post I want. No titles. No putting text on images. No algorithms or karma. Just fuckin splatter your mind onto the screen and people will see it. Like god intended.

#tumblr migration #tumblr #reddit migration #reddit#196 #196 migration #shitpost #shitposting #fuck it we ball #how is this site even functional?

Nah there's too much visibility for me to be willing to do that there at least not fully.

Exactly, if I want to say something about lobsters I don't have to find an appropriate subreddit and then read all 16 rules and make sure to appropriately flair my post with "lobster-related musings" and then get permabanned by automod 2 hours later because u/femboysniffer420 personally disliked my post, telling me to "please do better."

#yeah we moved away from reddit in 2020ish when we realized that tumblr was the fandom site #like we were trying so hard to find the hyper niche communities that #are exactly 6 mutuals and a bot someone forgot to report

everyone comparing the reception redditors are getting to the one twitter users got is ignoring a critical piece of context: the twitter refugees were, by and large, returning ex-tumblrinas

site-culturally speaking, twitter users are new-promethei; their discourses were born on tumblr, where they were hated, so they left for the wider world in search of female-presenting nipples and promptly started killing people while we cowered in fear of what we had wrought. we were thus hesitant to welcome them back without assurances that they would behave themselves

redditors, meanwhile, are starfleet officers on a malfunctioning holodeck; kinda weird and not 100% sure what's going on but a million and one percent ready to commit to the bit as soon as they figure out what the bit actually is

#reddit blackout#reddit #this is the vibe I'm getting #i don't really know what's happening but I thought this was funny #tumblr #oh egg?

i think the reddit migration has a lot of entertainment potential if we also have normal fans of normal media coming to tumblr. succession redditors. house md redditors. formula 1 redditors. ice hockey redditors. people who think that those two white men are nothing but Heterosexual Best Bros, Really Just Two Straight Guys Being Dudes forced to interact with deeply unwell [BEEP] fandom who'd to write university-level dissertations on why they are in love and fucking

Lol. Some of these posts are hilarious. What is that image?

Other apps work like work would, with stupid systems that get nothing done while taking twice as long to try; Tumblr is like...a classroom full of people who take turns passing their macaroni finger paintings around the room before completing the final incantations of their circle to summon a macaroni demon.

That's a good description actually.

I want to say reddit seems good if you want to talk to people before a concert and find people to meet up with on that day (someone commented in one of my threads for a concert I'm going to sometime soon inviting people to meet up with them to get drinks,) but I don't do that because of social anxiety lol and the only time I have was when I bought tickets from someone off tumblr so we exchanged numbers and I got the tickets off her before the concert, then we didn't really hang out during the concert but we briefly talked after the concert and she hugged me lol and later she mentioned me in her tumblr post (I'd never spoken to this person before that day.) I can't imagine being that open/friendly because I'm broken.

Actually I made a video about it (but it's private now cause wanted to remove face from YouTube,) and it did pretty well they have a lot of dedicated fans I think.

Another funny thing about that concert is I'd only discovered the band 3 days before, discovered they were playing in London and was like 'well OK.' So the tickets were all sold out (though it wasn't a big gig 800~ people,) and I had to find one second hand hence Tumblr. I haven't listened to them in years now though. It was this band:







They have a Nirvana cover too: