I guess we'll never find out what happened to Richey Edwards. I mean obviously he's dead, but like the circumstances.
I have a (several actually) serious problem(s.)
SO MANY WORDS ARE SONG TITLES.
He obviously had issues with his sexuality, anorexia, drinking, mental health issues, self harm, though. I'm not a fan and haven't listened to most of their music, so my interest is purely because many have brought him up, his disappearance was mysterious so somewhat interesting, and that he seems to be of a type. And he was 27 so.
https://theface.com/archive/manics-in-bangkok
I don't think he knew what the word sexual meant though."I'm not a very sexual person," he says. "I don't need the physical closeness of a relationship. And I'm afraid of the pain that goes with it, to be honest. I think it's more of an animalistic urge. Every man masturbates, it?s something you just do, two or three times a day. It?s not the same as lust. Sleeping with someone, for me, is a change from wanking. If we go on a 25-date tour, I might sleep with one or two people."
Women? "Yeah, women."
https://theramblingcurl.blogspot.com...e-you-but.html
These obsessive fans began referring to Richey as their idol; suggesting that only he understood them. They viewed him as "purity itself" thanks to his outspoken pro-feminist views and vulnerability. Anorexia being a predominantly female illness, girls began being drawn to Richey as they felt he shared their pains. Seeing him as something of a tortured poet, these followers wouldn't hear a word against Richey or his behaviour.http://www.foreverdelayed.org.uk/msp..._15th_May_1999Whilst on tour in Bangkok, it's no secret that Richey used the services of a prostitute, despite having earlier written the song Little Baby Nothing as a feminist rant against those who do.
In 1992, Richey Edwards made the extraordinarily dishonest claim that Manic Street Preachers were a walking orgy of bisexual depravity. "We realised that sex and love is a completely useless commodity, so if anybody wants to f* ** us they can," he began. "We're just total prostitutes... and we're willing to be used. Any boy. Any girl. Anytime. each other!"In the same year, Richey French-kissed Therapy''s Andy Cairns at a party (but then proceeded to shag a girl back at the hotel later), chose a T-shirt slogan that read, "All Rock 'N' Roll Is Homosexual", and said: "I've been homo for a long time." Nicky Wire confirmed that "Richey's virtually bisexual". Edwards was also, undeniably, a magnificent homoerotic icon. "You may be embarrassed to admit it," said the Young, Pretty And F***ed fanzine, "especially if you're a bloke, but I bet you'd love to f*** Richey."Was Richey Edwards, to any extent, gay? The answer is...almost certainly not. As far as the T-shirt is concerned, Edwards said that most great art is homosexual, citing Allen Ginsberg's "Howl", Jackson Pollock's "Map Of The Tennessee Williams' "Suddenly Last Summer", Michael Foucault's "Archives Of Pain", and Quentin Crisp's "The Naked Civil Servant".There's a word you're tiptoeing around here like a rope causeway over a lake of mercury. A word which everyone mysteriously forgets. Though this was written in 1999 so it's no surprise.If Gore Vidal is correct, and there are no homosexual and heterosexual people, only homosexual and heterosexual acts, then arguably Richey never lied. Whichever prefix one chooses to apply, however, Richey was simply not a very sexual person, more Celibate Rifle than Sex Pistol. After his first childhood glimpse of pornography, Richey had to rush outside to be sick (James, also present, found the experience quite arousing).
Bisexual
It quite probably doesn't apply either. (Though he certainly had enough mental health issues to fit the stereotype.) Given his public image he has to pretend to be bisexual because that's what the fans have wanted since at least Byron. And probably before (Adonis, Genji from the Tale of Genji.)
Also seems like some people speculated he was asexual. He said most porn bored him. I think the disconnect seems more emotional overall though.
Very dismissive avoidant. I'm more fearful avoidant. Very much idealistic but I won't seek anything out or really try. And the second I feel uncomfortable or the fantasy is ruined I lose all interest.If casual sex were merely a diversion for Richey, could love have "saved" him?
From the beginning, Manic Street Preachers were determinedly, didactically anti-love. "We'll never write a love song," they said. "We've got no respect for bands who sing about love. For many years - in fact, until Richey was gone - they remained true to their word. But for James Dean Bradfield (engaged), Nicky Wire (married) and Sean Moore (long-term relationship), this anti-love stance was mere rhetoric. For Richey Edwards, it was a matter of sacred political principle. He believed that love was counter-revolutionary: the division of the working class into manageable units Of two. "Once you fall in love," he said, "or get a girlfriend pregnant, you've got no chance, you've got no chance, you've got responsibilities. Once you're reduced to a couple, alone together between your four walls, you're cut off. "
Can you not be in love with more than one person? Well many people can't but I think that varies. You can also love someone and want to have sex with other people. In research they actually show that straight men are the only major sexual orientation group who are more bothered by sexual than emotional infidelity - because they're separate things that both provoke defensiveness. That doesn't really explain what's going on with bisexual men but I think from what I'm remembering it's varied in different studies anyway and probably varies depending on degree of attraction to women + whether partner is a woman when they imagine it happening etc (at least if you suppose the evo-psych explanation for the difference. Male bisexuality might be an entirely different mating strategy that doesn't necessitate sexual jealousy though.):Richey despised what he saw as the inevitable dishonesty and hypocrisy that love entailed. "People go through the same rituals time and time again," he said. "I find love a very alien concept. People I know who are in long-term relationships have always been unfaithful, and I find the whole lie really tiresome. That's why I've never been in any relationship. I find other people attractive, so unfair to walk around with one partner."
This, in all probability, was the heart of the matter. Richey knew himself well enough to know that he simply didn't have what it takes. "A well-preserved virginity shows a limited capacity for love'," he once quoted. Although Richey's virginity was far from well-preserved, his capacity for love, he knew, was limited.
https://www.researchgate.net/publica...osexual_Adults
The gender difference, however, was limited to heterosexual participants. Bisexual men and women did not differ significantly from each other in upset over sexual infidelity (30 vs. 27 % ), regardless of whether they were currently dating a man (35 vs. 29 % ) or woman (28 vs. 20 % ). Gay men and lesbian women also did not differ (32 vs. 34 % ). The findings present strong evidence that a gender difference exists in a broad sample of U.S. adults, but only among heterosexuals.Someone once compared me to her in high school. He said it without thinking and then he had to defend himself to a group of people who found the idea comical because I was not popular and she's obviously a supermodel. I'm much shorter though obviously. Which is probably worse from this pov (more neotenic.) Also though I don't really look like her lol.Richey's Sex Tourism - literally, wanderlust - led him in some unorthodox directions. His fascination with the waif look, for instance, together with statements like "Every man wants to shag a 13-year-old" bore dodgy paedophile overtones. He once made a tour bus feel like home by covering the inside with pictures of Kate Moss and other childlike stick insects. "I just think she's pretty," he said. "She looks delicate, that's what I like about her." This might explain the attraction that the delicate young prostitutes of Bangkok held for Richey.
I like the emaciated/skinny look too with men and also went through a phase of being really into Asian guys less so with women especially if their facial structure is very youthful/soft. She's hot but when I first saw an image of her I assumed she was a guy (and just in this gif probably, although I'm also too lazy to ever actually watch the film. Like maybe one day a decade from now I'll get around to it or something):
The film is Black Narcissus and it was banned in the US (I think,) and also Ireland because she was so hot. Some guy probably wrote a book about how she'd turn young girls gay with her unrealistic body proportions just like Batman. Uh no Black Narcissus was banned for being erotic and having nuns etc lol.
I'm actually not sure that's what Wertham meant now, but he spent so much time discussing how gay Batman and Robin were that I assumed and also Poison Ivy was hot and so is Harley Quinn tbh I don't find catwoman hot but she is kind of hot as a crazy cat woman with glasses (why do they always have glasses beforehand? Bet that's where my glasses thing originates.) So like before she becomes catwoman in that one film because the outfit doesn't work for me, and that one time Anne Hathaway ate an apple. That's just because I have a fetish for people eating apples:
At some point in this video he eats an apple and I'm too lazy to dig around for a gif I did have one years ago:
Some other stuff too. It's very biblical. Like the nuns. And the Jesus/Satan fanfiction (when I was reading Jesus/Satan fanfiction I imagined IAMX the guy in the above video and Andrew Eldritch.) And Jesus as Simon Amstell pointed out is really skinny. Hey I just had an epiphany. But I had no idea what film that image was from before I decided to try to find out because I found her hot, so that's just a coincidence mostly lol.
Christians when faced with the eroticism of Jesus on the cross:
No don't worry you're mostly safe you keep giving him a beard.
Anyway I'm sexually more into curvy women and with a couple of exceptions the guys I'm most attracted to are in their 20s. Started with him:
Actually no it started earlier it just really stands out here in this music video. And he is gay so. At the time he was suggesting he was bisexual and having relationships with women though.
I guess Richey also wanted to look that way which maybe contributed to his anorexia.One review of the research (126) found that gay men are more likely than their heterosexual counterparts to experience a desire to be thin, which can sometimes manifest in higher levels of eating disorder symptoms.
Some adults look that way naturally so it's not really fair to refer to them as child-like, stick insects etc. Even if you are discussing an edgelord who may have had sex with people underage (I mean a lot of rock stars have done that. Usually 14-15 year olds.)
Contrapoints tweet (taking a slight detour for a moment lol):
It's either pedophilia or homosexuality. It's unfortunate to be - cannot believe this is a fucking quote from a doctor either - a 'pixie type transgender man'"Anti-woke" politics is basically paranoid thinking. They experience their own weird aggression as a threatening "political" "movement".
None of it coheres at all. There?s men who will claim the thin, androgynous beauty standard is part of a homosexualizing conspiracy. Therapy!!
"who are about 4'10 to 5'3 and never really weigh more than 125 lb. They show up with short cropped hair and sort of have the look of an effeminate teenage boy. They often look younger than their stated age. They are usually attracted more to women with some degree of bisexual leaning, and after starting HRT, they generally become gay trans men."
Actually, when describing the situation to someone early in transition who is concerned about experiencing a sexual orientation change, yes. I do. I will describe the tinkerbell phenotype vs the amazonian phenotype and how I've seen this differential play out in 1,000 people over 8 years of doing this.
Me every day about life:
There's always something and if there isn't I'm remembering something.
Except I'm non-binary (not a binary trans guy,) and reasonably curved in places but I hide that (and I mostly can with clothes,) because I don't wish to look too female and I also prefer wearing loose t-shirts. Then you're shamed for that and it's a never ending circle of hell.
Which is why I'm saying I need a more angular bone structure. Though it's also just my aesthetic preference to be more angular. What was it I wrote many years ago?
Oh. well.And I don't think I was really aware of this, due to the fact that for the most part it would only happen while fantasising but I would feel like I had a dick, not even conciously it would just happen.
And I still often, particularly when.. Turned on just it's there. It's an invisible dick. I don't think it even occured to me really that I was sort of doing this, unconciously until more recently. Well maybe I did before but I didn't think about it in detail or the implications of that.
No not that.
Then there would be from my teen years onwards the times when I'd want to look like certain men (usually somewhat feminine men.) Due to my preferences I'd sometimes be attracted to them too, and so that was confusing. It was usually only famous people.There's a lot of stuff about my "round face" lol.As I say, I sort of feel like both, so it saddens me in a way that I sometimes suppress femininity (stereotypical interests, or just in my presentation) in order to have people acknowledge the masculinity. I honestly think I'd have been a lot happier as a very feminine man or as a slim woman with slightly more angular face, small breasts and around 5-6" 5'9" tall.
But there's other stuff like I never liked how round my face was. I wanted to be taller, always, I was always short. And my family kept saying - because I'd always complain about this - 'but it's OK, because you're a girl' and I knew logically that that should be why it's OK, but I felt too diminutive.Physically strong? literally sounds like the lyrics to One of the Good Ones.I wonder if maybe I just want to be a physically stronger/taller woman would I be OK then? I can work with my breasts such as they are, and then maybe a less round face but still looking somewhat feminine. And if everyone saw me as someone who was competent, independent and physically strong?
I'm sensitive but in a way that makes me extremely physically strong
Oh and it comes up a few times too.
It's so narcissistic honestly.I always wanted to be taller, and seen as physically strong/physically capable, but at the same time graceful and elegant I guess, and even occasionally pretty. That's how I wanted my physical presentation to be.
Did I even care about being physically strong? well yeah, but not as much as being 'seen as' I guess.
Oh God the complex. Reading this wasn't smart lol. Back to Richey Edwards:What makes this difficult is that I feel sad imagining me as I am physically not existing. At the same time I want the ability to change. I guess I just don't like the idea of permanence.
https://theface.com/archive/manics-in-bangkok
No one likes looking at you"Yeah. I think the press always want liars. Every time I've slept with a groupie, I've always felt dirty afterwards. It's very functional. I know for a fact that I could go downstairs now and come back up and [BEEP] somebody. I don't like doing that, so if I go and pay 2,000 baht at a massage parlour and have a bath and get jerked off, to me it's preferable. But at the same time, if we were like other bands, a party band, and we went out to some bars in Pat Pong and got pissed, came back, smashed up the hotel room, went onstage, were very aggressive, fucked some girls afterwards? in lots of magazines we'd get complete respect for doing it. Look at Primal Scream. But because we're not like that, we stand in danger of being condemned. We're just being more modem about it. For me, everything is very carefully thought out. This is the way I choose to live my life."
How do you choose who to sleep with? "It's just people who come back-stage. I like perfect aesthetic bodies, but most of the people I sleep with, I?m not really physically attracted to at all."
Your lack of ego offends male mentality
They need your innocence
To steal vacant love and to destroy
Your beauty and virginity used like toys
My mind is dead, everybody loves me
Wants a slice of me
Hopelessly passive and compatible
Need to belong, oh the roads are scarey
So hold me in your arms
I want to be your only possession
edit: yeah I looked up some of his song lyrics lol.
I wonder if he was aware that he had to continue to be a figure his female fans could identify with (because it's part of the appeal,) while simultaneously feeling conflicted about that. I think maybe he was.
Everything leads me back to this video yes lol:
It's just so prescient (that word doesn't mean what I want it to mean. It never does) though. It's always relevant. From various points of view and can just project all kinds of things onto the video + lyrics. Even though it really is just blatantly a song about Harry Styles and the way people react to him and an analysis of his own behaviour.
It's also just so good musically. I still want it to go on longer.
Culture, alienation, boredom and despair"Oh, it's very cynical, very postmodern, everything's a joke. Our generation's really struggling for something meaningful, trying to invent something new every year." The Thais, reasonably enough, think this sad.
I hate purity. I hate goodness. I don't want virtue to exist anywhere. I want everyone corrupt"When JG Ballard wrote Crash," Richey spits, citing the novel as one of his favourites, along with Last Exit To Brooklyn and American Psycho, "he said that what he was trying to do was force humanity to look itself in the mirror, then rub its face in its own vomit. That was what we wanted, too."
You are pure, you are snowAt a concert in Bangkok a fan of the band gave Richey a set of knives asking him to cut himself with them, the fan even said "Look at me when you do it,". Richey was disgusted by this but eventually did,
We are the useless sluts that they mould
Rock 'n' roll is our epiphany
Culture, alienation, boredom and despair
This is the only song by them I've listened to as far as I know. It was after his mysterious disappearance and now people like to quote it like 1984 (and it does reference Orwell's Homage to Catalonia I think):
There are a lot of conspiracy theorists in the comments of that video too. A bunch of people who are from the UK sound like they're acting out that guy who called into the US radio show:
Apparently the UK population will be 15 million in 2025. What have they got planned for us?magnetic pole shift/reversalAnd I knew without even knowing what they were talking about that that's what it was.... What do you mean bruh ?🤔
The YouTube comment was from 2 years ago and since then...
Oh christ:
Oh?The conspiracy theory known as "Adam and Eve" theory has recently resurfaced on TikTok following its appearance on Joe Rogan's podcast. It claims that every 6,500 years, a major disaster occurs on Earth.
However, let's establish from the outset that this theory is false and unfounded, despite its considerable following.
Joe Rogan's podcast recently sparked a series of viral TikTok videos promoting this outlandish climate change theory. It was initially outlined in a book that also proposed Jesus lived in India for 18 years and was abducted by aliens after his crucifixion, raising concerns about its credibility. The episode of the Joe Rogan Experience podcast, which aired on January 18, featured an interview with YouTuber and self-proclaimed "researcher" Jimmy Corsetti. During the conversation, Rogan introduced the "Adam and Eve theory," an idea lacking evidence and originating from The Adam and Eve Story a book published in 1965 by Chan Thomas--an electrical engineer who claimed to possess psychic abilities.
So now they're trusting the CIA hahaha? Some consistency please.Thomas, formerly associated with the US Air Force, argued in his book, partially published by the CIA in 2013, that the Earth's magnetic poles flip 90 degrees every few thousand years, leading to the demise of various ancient civilizations. According to Thomas, these pole shifts will result in apocalyptic weather events. He claimed that the first flood occurred during the time of Adam and Eve, the second during the story of Noah's Ark, and a third catastrophic event is impending.
And that's what stands out to me more than anything honestly. The 'we're all going to die! And here's why!' Thing.The impression from TikTok is that this change would happen rapidly, but scientists dispute this, too.
NASA notes that Earth's magnetic poles have reversed 183 times in the last 83 million years, and at least several hundred times in the past 160 million years.
It's not clear when the next one might happen, but they take place over hundreds to thousands of years - not overnight.
Reminds me of this:
We're such a weird species.
Do you never think we might be entirely alone? And that the life here is all that will ever exist? That your horrifying fears are maybe masking a coping mechanism to avoid that responsibility and vulnerability? Maybe. Maybe just fear of death.
If you're less conspiratorial you might worry like I have about the threat of nuclear war or about AI (I'm not really that worried about that just another example,) or about your health.
We are young
Wandering the face of the earth
Wondering what our dreams might be worth
Learning that we're only immortal
For a limited time
I guess that's what happens when you're an 'apex predator' (trophic level 2.2 omnivore with a bizarre amount of intelligence, who were apex predators and then gradually over time altered their diet, started farming and became increasingly self domesticated, plus imaginative throughout life from being very neotenised.)
Lmao this comment I just found:
No this isn't true and it's not a misconception that chimps are stronger. They are (1.35 times stronger.) On the other hand it is a common delusion among men (1 in 5 men think they can defeat a chimpanzee.) You'd be very unlikely to win because as soon as they start biting you you're fucked. They'll also try to attack your eyes potentially blinding you and your genitals. You definitely couldn't get away with simply being fit, and if you did win it would definitely be because of your intelligence or use of some tool (intelligence,) not physical strength.Humans aren't all that weak. A common misconception is that chimps are stronger, and while it?s true anatomically, most fit (not even bodybuilding) humans can probably defeat a chimp in combat. We have larger arms and pack a serious punch in our blows that chimps literally are incapable of doing.
Granted our extreme intelligence is what defines humans, but we are by no means weak. Our bodies are perfectly designed for the activity we deal with.
The authors found that human muscles are structurally different from chimpanzee muscles -- and the muscles of most other primates. The chimpanzees studied had balanced amounts of slow-twitch and fast-twitch muscle fiber, which was consistent with past studies of primates. Humans, in contrast, contain have much more slow-twitch muscle, which is associated with endurance running, not strength.Over time Humans have increasingly selected for neoteny - that's probably why we get horrified males worrying about feminisation forever because female Humans are more neotenous. Human females have more slow twitch fibres than males and that's one theory for why women tend to win super long distance running competitions like ultra marathons (not a huge advantage/difference though.) And estrogen also helps protect muscles. That might be a coincidence though. I don't think neoteny specifically contributes to that or that the selection by men for neoteny in women was secretly a selection for endurance running.These differences in muscles likely emerged within the past 7 million years, when early human ancestors developed more slow-twitch muscle fibers (which are good for endurance) than fast-twitch muscles (which are good for speed and punch), according to Matthew O'Neill, an assistant professor at the University of Arizona College of Medicine in Phoenix. O'Neill led the research group that reported the findings, which were published today (June 26) in the journal Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences.
But women seem to prefer the bodies of males who are kind of athletic like swimmers and people who run as opposed to strong bodies.
44.3% of women said they preferred men who were considered to be "athletic"
35.1% of women said they preferred men who were considered to be "lean"
16.4% of women said they preferred men who were considered to be "built"
4.2% of women said they preferred men who were considered to be "skinny"
So you see only 16.4% prefer 'built' men and most of the rest prefer athletic or lean guys so over time Human bodies have probably evolved to be better at running than physical strength. And intelligent (in theory. 🤣 ) And Human hearts have also evolved for endurance. Though I'm not sure why endurance became more important. I mean Humans did eventually move around a lot but I don't know when this change started to occur.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endura...ing_hypothesis
Yeah I dunno it's weird.No primates other than humans are capable of endurance running, and in fact, Australopithecus did not have structural adaptations for running.[18][19] Instead, forensic anthropology suggests that anatomical features that directly contributed to endurance running capabilities were heavily selected for within the genus Homo dating back to 1.9Ma. Consequently, selecting anatomical features that made endurance running possible radically transformed the hominid body.[20] The general form of human locomotion is markedly distinct from all other animals observed in nature. 'From the Journal of Anatomy', author RM Alexander describes our unique form of bipedal motion:
"? no animal walks or runs as we do. We keep the trunk erect; in walking, our knees are almost straight at mid-stance; the forces our feet exert on the ground are very markedly two-peaked when we walk fast; and in walking and usually in running, we strike the ground initially with the heel alone. No animal walks or runs like that."[21]
So this is why maybe:
This is a very weird wikipedia article for some reason there is a 'conclusion' section lol.From the perspective of natural selection, scientists acknowledge that specialization in endurance running would not have helped early humans avoid faster predators over short distances.[22] Instead, it could have allowed them to traverse shifting habitat zones more effectively in the African savannas during the Pliocene. Endurance running facilitated the timely scavenging of large animal carcasses and enabled the tracking and chasing prey over long distances. This tactic of exhausting prey was especially advantageous for capturing large quadrupedal mammals struggling to thermoregulate in hot weather and over extended distances.
I know that's very disappointing to all the would be chimpanzee himbos. And yet incredibly hypocritical given your own preferences 9 times out of 10 (masc4masc gay men excluded of course.)Women tend to prefer men with fit, athletic bodies.
They prefer men who are in much better shape than average but not as lean and strong as most men wish to be.
...
I find intelligence very attractive but I do kind of have a bimbo fetish though and I prefer bunny himbos if I must. Chimpanzees just aren't aesthetic and too close to Humans. I also like male cat-hybrids and used to daydream about them more before catgirls became popular, but they're too intelligent-coded for current purposes. Oh no why am I googling bunny himbo.
Donna Tartt why are you everywhere:
And why do you look a bit like Rachel Goswell? Maybe not. Just white people all look the same.Why We Love Donna Tartt's Doomed Himbo Bunny Corcoran
Oh look it's a drawing of a cute guy with long hair and glasses (and bunny ears.)
Oh no why am I still awake after so many hours and editing this post.In this ASMR Roleplay, the listener is taking extra special care of the desperate bunny they found in the woods! After stuffing him with good soup, they assure their sweet little rabbit that this relationship is mutually beneficial!
Look what you've done! This is everyone's fault except mine. /s