Assuming this reddit story is real (a lot of these are AI generated) and there are elements of this one that have that surreal fake AI vibe. Like the repetition of certain things. I have some thoughts...
I think my marriage is over
I met a man who I thought to be charismatic, loving, caring, handsome, everything I could have wanted. We got on so well, we were inseparable. 3 months later we got engaged and 3 months later we got married. It was a fairytale wedding and our honeymoon was absolutely beautiful. Been married for 2 years.
I was a virgin and remember crying the next morning for some reason - I thought because I lost a sense of my innocence I wasn?t sure. I
noticed that my husband?s attitude towards me seemed different the morning after our wedding. I remember asking him what was wrong because he seemed slightly distant or cold. He said nothing so I brushed it off but ever since then I noticed a difference in his behaviour towards me - nothing major.
We lived in his parents house and then a few month?s later secured our own home. A few months after moving into our own home he started smoking weed everyday (a habit I thought he had quit a long time ago but something that started in his teen years). He also did other drugs occasionally for the fun of it which were experiences that we bonded over as I had never been exposed to these things in my life. He smoked weed for 1.5 years of our marriage. I tried getting him to stop but ultimately it was something that had to come from him.
My trust issues with him started when I noticed his change in attitude towards me - I didn?t understand how someone could just change suddenly so I naturally questioned things. Since the beginning of our marriage I saw increasingly suspicious behaviour over time. Starting from scratches and marks on his body, to marks on our bed and walls that could easily be explained away.
One day I saw a bank charge for something unusual. I asked him about it he said it was a game and then admitted he paid for a live online video chat with a woman. I made it clear that this was borderline cheating for me and it was not acceptable and that if cheating ever was to happen I would be out. A month later I found a lipstick stain on a glass in my dishwasher so I searched his car and found a pantyhose sock with the same lipstick colour underneath where his spare tyre goes and condoms underneath his driver seat. He said the lipstick on the cup could have been mine, the sock could have been his mums since it was his mums old car but we had cleaned it out and the condoms he said he wanted to use with me when we went on like a bush adventure. I believed him, well I tried to but it was difficult.
A few months later I went out for the day and he said he was going out with friends which he never did so I encouraged him. He only came home at like 1am that night and was crying saying that he had a lot of drugs, went to a massage parlour and there was a girl grinding on him but he didn?t end up doing the deed. He was worried that he might have herpes because he was seeing bumps on him but I didn?t see anything. I took all of my things and left the house. The next day he told me he couldn?t have done that to me and he was just hallucinating. He showed me $100 note that apparently was all that he had with him (we used joint bank accounts). I chose to give him the benefit of the doubt since he was definitely hallucinating the spots so maybe he had hallucinated the whole thing.
I went back home and things were good for a few weeks until he told me to stop asking him about it even though I was still trying to wrap my head around the whole incident. It obviously still affected me. He had his location on for a little bit to help with trust but it was occasionally off he said because his phone was dead and he eventually turned it off because he didn?t believe in that sort of relationship.
He started to become suicidal in October last year and was telling his parents that our marriage wasn?t working out anymore. He practically blamed his unhappiness on me. He eventually decided to quit weed and thought that going to Bali for a few days would be a good place to do that. He was looking at detox retreats as well.
He told me that he wouldn?t leave me at home alone if it wasn?t that bad and that he was only doing it for me and that was the only thing getting him through it. Little did I know that on top of four condoms that were missing from our bedroom that day, he had also been to the pharmacy to purchase condoms and delay gel.
He sent a long message to a girl on his way to the hotel, tried calling her 6 times and then facetimed me an hour after writing the message. He told me he was going to walk around the hotel and then go watch soccer.
He proceeded to ignore me the entire day while drinking and spending time at the pools. He then called me the next morning telling me that he doesn?t know what happened the previous night, that he had downloaded tinder, checked the cameras and a woman went to his room for 20 minutes, and was scared of having herpes on his lips which again I couldn?t see. He said he drank 36 beers and tried to swim out into the ocean to drown himself but a lady pulled him back out and he woke up on the shore. He then again ignored me the following day continuing to drink until he worried his loved ones. He said that he was trying to commit suicide and said goodbye to his family. The hotel reception staff told me that he was ok, he had just made a mistake with his wife. Above everything, all I cared for was his wellbeing and sent his brother to go and get him. The next day he was crying at the bar calling me to go and get him because he was in such a bad state and scared of himself. His brother went to get him.
When he got back I got him hospitalised for 2 weeks until he started antidepressants. We bonded a lot during that time and I was there for him everyday. I confronted him about the missing condoms from our house. He said he intended to cheat but when it came to it he didn?t end up doing it.
After a few weeks of being back home we started having arguments and he was threatening me with getting a second wife. I shut off towards him emotionally and decided to finally go through his phone which is when I found the message he sent to the woman wanting to commit to her. I took all of his things to his parents house but he came home and I confronted him about the message and he said yep. I asked him about the massage parlour incident and he said yep that day I embarrassed myself because I couldn?t perform I had too much drugs. For me that was it so I left.
Now a month later I have cut all contact but he is sending me emails saying that he never cheated on me and that he was drunk when writing that message and that he only admitted to the massage parlour incident because he was angry that day because my dad was threatening him.
Tldr; my husband keeps saying he cheated and then takes it back.It's a stupid thing to do but unfortunately some young women think the world is operating according to their mating strategy of being sociosexually restricted and then make bad decisions but you've got to be more wary then that. This is also why having friends to vet people can be useful.To be fair, she was a virgin. She seems to lack a lot of life experience. The second wife thing also made me think there were cultural influences at play. Couldn't be for certain. Doesn't mean any of the comments are wrong. it may mean that o girl likely needed to grow up and have some life experience before jumping into marriage. In other words, she didn't know any better.
So, as a cushion, I would say, forgive yourself, learn from the experience, and do better next time.
I know this kind of thing (moving in together and getting married after no time at all) is common in the sapphic/lesbian community and it works out sometimes like this couple but even then it's a rush:
Lesbian women are way more likely to be into hypermonogamy than gay men hence the differences in these cultures where gay men struggle to find long term relationships and open relationships are super common. (Some people boil this down to a sex difference or men and women thing and I understand why and it makes sense when limiting to heterosexual relationships most of the time but it's a lazy cognitive shortcut, ignores the mostly heterosexual and unrestricted bisexual women and men and really these differences are fascinating I think so flattening it to just male and female is so boring, and so I will not be doing so.) Though part of that is hypersexual unrestricted men saying they're gay who define the culture but aren't the whole of the culture. Feminine homosexual men are as a group more restricted. Eg this research:
And even in a sapphic relationship this is risky as hell. Plus there are lots of women who only look for casual sex with women and won't commit but then have long term relationships with men (hence the never ending discourse.)This reddit comment cracked me up so I'm including it:Bisexual women exhibit personality traits and sexual behaviors more similar to those of heterosexual males than heterosexual women, including greater openness to casual sex and more pronounced dark personality traits. These are less evident or absent in homosexual individuals.
That title really reads like being bi turns women into awful people. You know, like men.
Yes that is how society functions. Thank you for noticing.
They also included 'mostly heterosexual' women since a lot of women won't use the label bisexual. Which cracked me up too tbh (not the only study I've seen doing this recently. Though some find differences between bisexual and 'mostly heterosexual' women so they're not technically entirely the same group depending on what you're studying.)
When examining sexual orientation differences, the researchers found notable patterns, particularly among females. Mostly heterosexual and bisexual females demonstrated elevated levels of sociosexuality and sexual excitation compared to their exclusively heterosexual counterparts. They also scored higher in psychopathy.
"There are now several replications showing that mostly heterosexual women are higher in trait psychopathy than other sexual orientation groups," Semenyna noted. "Psychopathy in this context just means being less concerned with other people's feelings, social expectations, and having lower impulse control. Mostly heterosexual women score more like heterosexual men on this trait, but it's not clear why. It could just be that these women are less concerned about what others think of them, and less constrained by social mores that would view same-sex attraction or behavior negatively."
From wikipedia about some previous research:interestingly, exclusively homosexual females did not exhibit the same increases in sociosexuality and sexual excitation, indicating that mostly heterosexual and bisexual females form distinct groups.
Among males, the findings were somewhat different. Mostly heterosexual males showed higher levels of sexual excitation compared to exclusively heterosexual males. However, there were no significant differences in sociosexuality or Dark Triad traits between homosexual and heterosexual males.
Homosexual males did exhibit higher levels of sexual inhibition, aligning more closely with female-typical patterns. This indicates that while mostly heterosexual and bisexual males may be more sexually excitable, exclusively homosexual males show increased caution and inhibition in sexual contexts.
Richard A. Lippa proposed that there exist two dimensions of sexual orientation: a gender typicality dimension, and a monosexuality dimension. With the gender typicality dimension being associated with the heterosexual-homosexual distinction, while the sociosexuality dimension has many behavioral effects. He proposes someone who would be at any point in the heterosexual-homosexual spectrum will become bisexual if they are high on the sociosexuality dimension. This dimension being associated with higher sociosexuality, higher neuroticism, lower agreeableness, lower honesty-humility, higher openness to experience, and a minor degree of gender nonconformity.[70] He proposes this as explaining phenomena such as increased juvenile delinquency among bisexuals,[71] increased mental health issues and substance use disorder among bisexuals,[72] and increased dark triad traits among bisexual women.[73] Critics of this theory have described elements observed as coming from experiences of biphobia,[70] but Lippa counters that these phenomena are present even among heterosexual identifying people with some same sex attraction, who would likely be heterosexual passing.[70][74]
You can see how varied people's experiences are here (despite evidence showing that bisexual men are more into casual sex, a lot of bisexual women have the idea that heterosexual men are more sexist, less willing to commit, more masculine and things like that which you can often find discussions about which don't really hold up to scrutiny when you look at research like the above or look on certain parts of reddit with people complaining LOL):
https://www.refinery29.com/en-gb/uha...eer-women-myth
It took me one month to tell my then girlfriend, now wife, that I love her. I'd been out and dating for two years by the time we got together but it was the first time I'd said it, or felt it, for anyone. While it was as true then as it is now, over six years later, the speed with which I aired my feelings has become a running joke. Set-up: "Why did I say 'I love you' so fast?" Punchline: "Because I'm a lesbian."Lu, a 25-year-old [BEEP] woman, agrees, telling me: "I LOVE joking about the stereotype of lesbians and [BEEP] women buying a house together on their second date, especially with one friend who decided to go away with her girlfriend for a week on her second date." However she doesn't think it's necessarily exclusive to women dating women or non-binary people. "I know a hell of a lotta heteros who have done the same thing, and I also know a lot of [BEEP] women who have run a mile at commitment and broken a lotta hearts along the way."There is even research to disprove the idea entirely. According to an American study done by Stanford University in 2018, lesbian couples did not shack up any faster than heterosexual pairs. They surveyed 3,000 couples (including 220 female couples) and came to the conclusion that "contrary to popular conceptions of lesbians as eager to commit, our results indicate that after controlling for couple age there are no significant differences in relative rates of cohabitation among couple types." However, almost everyone I spoke to said that, at least anecdotally, the stereotype holds up.It's actually the opposite lol. Think they started removing the posts from guys asking for validation for their desire to cheat on their wives with men because it became so prevalant on the bisexual subreddit and there were many threads complaining about the men doing this. They think they found a loophople to cheating because they're oppressed by homophobia....This also seems to be true for the bisexual women I spoke to. Miriam, 25, tells me: "In my relationships with women and non-binary people things have moved much, much faster... I don't think I've ever been in a relationship with a non-man where it's taken more than a month to say 'I love you' (usually less with women I've dated) but in my last relationship, which was with a cis straight man, we were together for nearly a year and he point-blank refused to say it... I think that evasion of commitment is pretty normal for men, particularly heterosexual men. My current partner is bisexual as well and actually with him it has been different, and I do think his sexuality is part of that."
I'm very biased because it would bother me more if someone I was in a relationship with had sex with a guy than a woman because I'm annoyed that the universe didn't give me a dick. Unless they topped then I don't care as much again. I also don't care as much if it's a trans woman because it's not actually about the dick part exclusively. This is all hypothetical too obviously and based on my imagination + reading posts and seeing what bothers me. This is possibly idiosyncratic though, or maybe it's not and people just aren't this honest usually lol. I think the reason it bothers most women more though (as it seems to,) is because they find it feminine (if it's a guy I mean obviously,) and I don't relate to/give a [BEEP] about that.
Also my first ex-boyfriend who was heterosexual (I assume,) said he loved me after 4 months or so? I didn't reciprocate though. The whole relationship didn't really feel right to me tbh which is why I broke up with him but he was the one escalating things most of the time (sexually and relationship wise,) not me.
Oh and I don't know that most bisexual women who argue these things even really believe that. I think part of the reason they do is that they have an identitiy thing where they don't feel '[BEEP] enough' because the community keeps telling them they're straight and so they date bisexual men as a way to feel more connected to the LGBT+ community. They do similar stuff with trans men. Which is understandable because of how Human psychology works and they probably have more in common (personality/interest/culture wise like you all like music 'art films,') you're goths and met at a Drab Majesty concert
You listened to My Chemical Romance as a teen.
You can't sit on chairs:
OK I'll stop.
But like ... They're not more likely to commit come on now lol.
Anyway by rushing things like that it's like you're operating in another era which the current low trust unrestricted dating landscape is not suited for.
It's a real pain though I know. The psychological differences and almost nobody gets what they want. And people are choosing bears over Humans and every generation is getting more mentally ill and-
It's very suspcious for someone to have done a bunch of drugs in the past which she knew, and then be rushing into marriage with you Suggests they are not from a conservative/restricted culture (and lack that temprement/personality type,) and probably aren't restricted but are instead impulsive, so then you shouldn't jump into marriage with them.
He's obviously mentally ill if true though and needs to cut out the drugs.